Heart and Logic

Since when do I want to be in love?
Contradiction: I'm the definition of
Love is not something that fits my style,
This desire has made my mind hostile.

I'm not a player. I'm not a lover.
But I am a friend who's like a brother
I'm a joker. I'm a laughter.
I chase my pain with a joke after

I hate this feeling like I'm alone
But the world hates me. I should have known
That this would happen. It's just my luck
And I try not to give a fuck

Shit happens, they say. Well, what a day.
I'm waiting to see what else comes my way.
But my bed is lonely, since you had stayed
It made things worse, I should not have swayed.

I will keep to myself. Encourage the hopefuls,
To find someone else who wants to elope, whole.
I'm split, heart and mind, and I search for releases.
I think I'll lock up my emotions while logic polices.
I have a feeling I'll walk away in pieces.