Haunting My Memories

I can't stop thinking about you
You’re always on my mind no matter what I do
If I close my eyes I can see you
Your face, your touch and if I try I can imagine your feel too
Doesn't mean you are good no it’s the exact opposite
you bring out my worst memories that I tried to hide and deposit
Your touch makes me feel vile
and if I saw you I would probably be paralyzed for a while
Not in the 'oh your so amazing' kind of way, but in total fear
that type of fear of which you instilled into me my eleventh year
It was because you liked what I did
But since I didn't want to do it; it was forced upon me again and again
And while I did what I hated the most
you'd yell my name so loud I'm sure they could hear you from coast to coast
Now I thank whoever is out there everyday
For giving my mom the money to move us away
Cuz if not I would have cried my last tear
Breathed my last breath
And died away like all the rest