Happy Sweet 16!
What to say? Just some problems I would have to say. Oh joy oh joy.
Have you ever thought it would be better if I just died?
I have tons of times and as the days get longer, I find myself thinking about it more and more. (I don't sleep much)
It just eats way at me sometimes I lay awake at night and think about what would happen and if anyone cared, but the more I think the more I freak out.
My 16th birthday on the 29 and ever year it's the same.
I get up go downstairs just wishing for a happy birthday of some kind. But no one bothers to notice, well they don't notice me anyway. So I start to think well maybe I should, they won't care.
Then I get depressed and start thinking about suicide and all that other stuff.
When that happens I start getting these thoughts that would even scare you. Then after much thought I see this stupid like thing and I guess I would call it hope.
It saves me for that one time every year, but will it be the same this year?
Because theirs is a lot going on in my life right now.
Moving away, a divorce, I'm going to be alone on my birthday like the past 7 years of my life, my mom hates me, so does my dad for some stupid thing he did to me, my brother and sister don't talk to me for what everyone said about me in MN, were getting out of school today, my half of my friends are leaving and so am I Well that my life ... so far.
So I think the next time I write something is going to be after my birthday (Maybe)
Damn don't you wish you were me?
There's also some other problems but right now you don't need to know.
I have tons of times and as the days get longer, I find myself thinking about it more and more. (I don't sleep much)
It just eats way at me sometimes I lay awake at night and think about what would happen and if anyone cared, but the more I think the more I freak out.
My 16th birthday on the 29 and ever year it's the same.
I get up go downstairs just wishing for a happy birthday of some kind. But no one bothers to notice, well they don't notice me anyway. So I start to think well maybe I should, they won't care.
Then I get depressed and start thinking about suicide and all that other stuff.
When that happens I start getting these thoughts that would even scare you. Then after much thought I see this stupid like thing and I guess I would call it hope.
It saves me for that one time every year, but will it be the same this year?
Because theirs is a lot going on in my life right now.
Moving away, a divorce, I'm going to be alone on my birthday like the past 7 years of my life, my mom hates me, so does my dad for some stupid thing he did to me, my brother and sister don't talk to me for what everyone said about me in MN, were getting out of school today, my half of my friends are leaving and so am I Well that my life ... so far.
So I think the next time I write something is going to be after my birthday (Maybe)
Damn don't you wish you were me?
There's also some other problems but right now you don't need to know.
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