Growing up Without Guidance
When I was a child I had no parental guidance.
This article is about children who don't have guidance they need to grow.
When I was young my father died. I was only five years old. My mother was an alcoholic single parent and there was no other family around except for grandma. I only saw her on the weekends. She was more like mom to me.
Anyway, when a child is ignored, criticized, abused and rejected they grow up feeling unwanted and abandoned- and they don't even know what "self-esteem" is. I always wondered what it would be like to have a dad and mom around that really loved me. I never had time to be a child. Because I was told I was doing something "wrong" when I tried to please or help mom nothing was ever good enough for her. I always was envious of other children because someone always cared for them, but not for me.
Mom always said "If you don't like it, you know where you can go"- That meant leave -hit the road.
So when I was old enough to get away from the abuse- I did. And I was only eleven maybe twelve when left home to live with another alcoholic relative for a few years. I needed love- met a very special person and I lost my virginity at fourteen, I really fell deeply in love with him, I wanted to be married. But we were way too young and I was just a teenager. So after that I partied and went to school, and tried to survive without parents or guidance. I became a pregnant single parent at age eighteen and the father was also abusive and unsupportive. So I went to college and raised a baby on my own with no family and no money.
People never understood anything about me. That's why I need them to know now how important it is to care about your children. And even if you are poor tell them how much you love them before it is too late.
When I was young my father died. I was only five years old. My mother was an alcoholic single parent and there was no other family around except for grandma. I only saw her on the weekends. She was more like mom to me.
Anyway, when a child is ignored, criticized, abused and rejected they grow up feeling unwanted and abandoned- and they don't even know what "self-esteem" is. I always wondered what it would be like to have a dad and mom around that really loved me. I never had time to be a child. Because I was told I was doing something "wrong" when I tried to please or help mom nothing was ever good enough for her. I always was envious of other children because someone always cared for them, but not for me.
Mom always said "If you don't like it, you know where you can go"- That meant leave -hit the road.
So when I was old enough to get away from the abuse- I did. And I was only eleven maybe twelve when left home to live with another alcoholic relative for a few years. I needed love- met a very special person and I lost my virginity at fourteen, I really fell deeply in love with him, I wanted to be married. But we were way too young and I was just a teenager. So after that I partied and went to school, and tried to survive without parents or guidance. I became a pregnant single parent at age eighteen and the father was also abusive and unsupportive. So I went to college and raised a baby on my own with no family and no money.
People never understood anything about me. That's why I need them to know now how important it is to care about your children. And even if you are poor tell them how much you love them before it is too late.
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