Gray Heaven

At first they started out black and gray
Past and present all thoughts a'stray
As she walked through my mind
With her whitty smile
I remembered how it was
When she was gone for a while
When she was home she would be drunk
And tell us "go to your room!"

Why the bad ones I remember
I want to know the good too
I can hear her yelling for something out-of-place
I ran up the stairs to a swipe in my face
A kick on the floor and blood out my mouth
The ringing in my ears over her shout
She would then chug a bottle and tell me sorry
I would say "it is ok, I'm sorry too mommy"
My memories still discolored
But there's one that makes my head flutter
I walk outside to see her in her chair
She says "baby come here, come stroke my hair"

She says I've been so bad, I've treated you wrong
"It's ok mommy I can forgive them all"
She grabs my neck, and a blow with her fist
Against my head, I see the cuts on hr wrist
I cry in sorrow but I tell her it is going to be alright
But the fight goes on, all the way till night
We're at the top of the stairs with my little sister too
She grabs her with a gun, shoots her against the room
Her back is turned against the stairs
I shove her down my sisters screams start to blair
Shes bleeding now "oh sissy I'm too late"
She says "no I see and angels face"

I cry, I scream "no please don't leave me
She took her last breath but she kept on bleeding
I look down the stairs, there she is coming up
I'll get real brave, BOOM BOOM goes the gun
My eyes are closed as I touch my chest
Blood on my hands as I fall to my knees
My memory is in color now
I can see beautiful things

A hand comes down and says what took so long
I say cry sister did I do something wrong?
She says no look around we're safe now
Do you hear that music, u hear that sound?
I smile and we walk hand in hand
Skipping along to our marching band