Green Light

My heart racing
My thoughts a mess
My feet keep pacing
Always wanting more
But always getting less

Here I lie
On the floor
Feel it breaking
Can't take no more
Feel me shaking
Shattering in my core

Take a breath
Breathe it slow
Not much left
Still much to know
Take a step
Towards the light
Don't plan on coming home tonight
If you lose you lose it all
Be careful, watch out!
Try not to fall

Falling fast
Slipping under the surface
Drowning, sinking
Does this have a purpose?

Praying for air
Someone help
Someone care
Where are you?

You're not here
You're not seeing me fight these fears
You don't see me cry those tears
You don't hear me when I scream
You're not in the nightmares
Just the dreams

Wipe the tears
Not worth the pain
But I refuse to quit the game
Knowing the outcome stays the same

The means justify the end
I don't care if it's all pretend
I live for our moments
For our make-believe
I rather live in fantasy
Than face reality
Where you will never be with me

Close my eyes
Shut them tight
I refuse to see
Leave me alone
You can’t make me!

Maybe I’m young
But I’m not dumb
Of course I know what’s going down
But I’ll risk the pain for the high tonight
Feels good when you’re always on the ground
So, no I won’t fight

Not now
Not while you’re putting hope in my heart
Your hope may be false
Yet it never fails to accelerate my pulse
It’s impossible to stop once you start

Ignore the red flags
I want green for go
Right now I live it up
Later I go back down below