Goodbye

I'll take a vow
Not one more lie
I'll take my bow
And say good bye

Laying in your bed
You dream of a happy home
Laughter and love
You clutch onto this and start to zone

Seeing all of their faces
Starting to glow
I figured it out
And now I finally know

I see them there
Mom, dad, and their perfect son
Without one person missing
The family is done

I look for a world
Happy and free
Where everyone gets along
A world without me

Opening my eyes
I don’t deserve this life
So I open the top drawer
And take out the knife

I push back the bracelets
And start writing my list
A mark for every feeling
I write it upon my wrist

The skin gives way
You can see the flood
Under the sharp knife
A stream of blood

I try to push harder
But the knife would just skim
My mind was too clouded
With a memory of him

Grabbing up the blood stained rag
I wrapped my wrist up tight
I couldn’t just leave him
He was my only source of light

The knife went back in its place
The bracelets covered up my escape
One fake smile
That was the perfect cape

I ask myself
How long until you try again
As long as you have him
It will never win

So I stay here
Dead inside
Waiting to be with him
So I can finally feel alive