Golden......(Sigh)

Its really hard for me to write a lot, because I don't have much time to write... I never have long to talk either though.... but I just want you to know, I am in love with you. I am.

But I didn't think breaking up with nathan would have hurt this much.... I'm sorry for mentioning him... but it hurts... he had a piece of my heart, and now that piece is gone. You hold the rest of it... and even though there's never going to be a way that you'll leave me... it still hurts knowing I can't be with you.... that we have to be together over a distance... but I'm willing to do it. Because I not only love you but I am in love with you as well....

You are the first guy I've felt this for, and hopefully the last because I don't ever want to be without you.... you are in love with me, and you have no idea how happy that makes me... all my past boyfriends only wanted one thing, and they ended up getting it then leaving me.. that won't happen this time..

You have to realize, I require a lot of attention, I require a lot of work. You have to be willing to give me your all... and I mean your all, because I need to be trusted, I need to be loved, I need to be hurt physically, just because I like it.... yeah I'm weird and I'm all yours if you choose to want me.

I need someone that's willing to do anything I ask, I get kinda controlling yeah, but I end up not controlling, I just like the fun for a few things.... yeah I sound weird I sound like a psycho but do I sound...............

like the one you want to spend your life with....?

let me know....

I'll be waiting.....