Go Away

I want to go away
away from it all
to stand on the edge
and let myself fall

It’s hard to keep on
when you always fail
when all that you try
comes to no avail

The things in my life
build up like a storm
steadily growing
since the day I was born

There are sunny times
short breaks in between
in the sky of my life
not a cloud can be seen

So much good in me
they all say so
they say I can make it
though the going be slow

The good things I have
the things bright and true
are but fools gold to me
for what can I do

They make me feel happy
make me feel strong
but again in a while
I prove myself wrong

Always before long
without any doubt
the lightnings will rage
the thunder will shout

Worse than before
darker then ever
always seeming to me
that it will last forever

The storm always stronger
the sun less and less
it will go on like this
forever I guess

The ones who love me
the ones who really care
are always let down
to them it's not fair

They should just stay away
though it cause pain
to save their goodness
from being marked by my stain

They could all live their lives
happy and free
I could save them the heartache
and hurt that is me

I wish I could stop it
make everything right
but I have not the weapons
to win in that fight

I feel like nothing
but I don't pity myself
for all of my faults
I blame no one else

I wish that I knew
how to survive
when most days I wish
that I wasn't alive

But I am torn
for I yet live
and that final sorrow
I don't think I can give

I will sit here
and think on my plight
and worry much
and cry in the night

I doubt though I try
the answers I find
will calm the tempests
that rage in my mind

I want to be alone
for this is my claim
my sunshine is gone
there can be only rain