Forver And Always: Chapter Thirteen

I lay awake in bed thinking about Jordan, and then my thoughts drifted to Logan, he was really cute but, it felt like i was betraying Jordan somehow. It didn't help that every guy has Jordan's face and it doesn't help me getting over my feelings for him. I told Emily I needed some space from the world and as my friend she respected that. I grabbed my phone and crawled out my window. I wasn't sure where I was going I just shut my eyes and let my feet carry me. I felt a something hard smash into me. I opened my eyes to a handsome, smiling face. Logan.

"Hey" he said
"I'm sorry, I don't have time to talk I have somewhere to be" I said trying to pass by but he stepped in front of me so I couldn't
"Excuse me" I said looking up
"Can I walk with you?" he asked
"No" I said a little too quickly

"I mean I'd rather go alone, but thank you" I said pushing my way through
I kept walking for a couple hours and it was past midnight, I found myself at the cliff rocks by where I and Jordan meet. I sat there tossing rocks and eventually walked back home.
I woke up and got dressed in jeans and a shirt. I was feeling better than I had for a long time, but I knew that Logan was going to try to hit on me again which was starting to piss me off. He somehow knew about Jordan, which didn't make things any better. He seemed like an ass to me. Like jack. I shivered and touched my scar. As I pulled in I saw Emily.

"Hey me" I said giving her a huge hug
"Hey Merissa" she said hugging me back
"How are you feeling?"
"I'm getting there" I said looking down and blinking hard so the tears wouldn't roll down my checks
"Merissa? Be casual, that guy is totally staring at you"

I quickly turned around and saw Logan sitting on a big rock near the parking lot
"Way to be casual" she said sighing
"God, I hate that guy" I said as he waved
Emily waved; I grabbed her hand and put it by her side
"What? a date will do you good" she said
"Emily, how could you say something like that?"
"Merissa, I know how you felt and still feel about Jordan but you can't shut everyone who wants to get close to you out"
I thought about that for a while and I just couldn't think of myself ever being happy again.
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Emily was taking me to the club tonight, to try to get me social again, I really didn't want to but she didn't give me a chose. I sat as she did my make-up and threw clothes at me to put on. She decided on a black high waisted skirt, with a floral print shirt, and black pumps. We walked into the club and I was overwhelmed by all the bodies swaying to the music. We first went upstairs to the lounge and got drinks. Emily was flirting with the bartender and I had to nearly fight her to get her away from him.

"Come on Merissa, let's go dance" she said pulling my arm down the stairs
Sexy chick came on as we were getting on the dance floor, Emily started dancing when a guy pulled her to side and started dancing with her, she looked happy so I left her. I was on my way back to the lounge when I felt a hand on my shoulder I turned and saw Logan. Of course I mean out of all the boys in this club. He was grinning from ear to ear.
"Want to dance?"
"Sure, why not"

He pulled me close to him, so close our lips were an inch apart, all I could focus on were those lips, he pulled me closer and I looked down and concentrated on dancing. I backed up a little and he took that as a bad thing and looked at me with his gorgeous blue eyes.
"Everything alright?" he asked
I put my hand on my forehead and took a deep breath. Don't let this ruin your life Merissa, don't let this ruin your life, I said to myself.
"Ah, yeah I'm fine"

I moved closer to him and we moved to the beat. It felt good to be close to someone again, but it wasn't the same, and I missed Jordan. I would do anything to be in his arms again. A tear rolled down my check.
"I'm sorry Logan, I can't" I said running out of the club without looking back.
Once I got outside it was like a million pounds were lifted off my shoulders. I heard the back door slam shut and I looked behind me and saw Logan. I wiped at my eyes and realized that my make-up was probably running.

"Merissa, if I did anything wrong, I am terribly sorry" he said with his hands in his pockets
"No, it wasn't you" I said looking away
"Can you tell me what's wrong?" he asked
"I'm just not ready" I said my voice cracking
"Ready for what, we were just dancing"
"Logan, we were not just dancing, and you know that" I said
Something flicked in his eyes, something unreadable.
"Merissa, what happened?"
"I'd rather not talk about it" I said
"But you will have to sooner or later" he said moving closer
He cupped my check

"You look beautiful tonight" he said making me blush and look away
"Merissa, whatever is bothering you, you can tell me"
"But it's not that simple Logan" I said wiping at fresh tears
"I have to go" I said walking back in the club
It took me a while to find Emily but I eventually did and we went back to my house. We sprawled out on the couch, with popcorn, pop, and all the junk we could find in the house and watched an old love story movie, the ones that never fail to make you cry. We woke up with popcorn everywhere and us squished onto the couch. I shook Emily awake.
"Come on Emily"

"What time is it?" she asked in a husky voice because she just woke up
"10" I said taking the blankets my mom probably put on us during the night off
"Merissa, I'm taking you shopping today" Emily said looking at sleepy
"Em" I said annoyed
"Can't we just chill by the pool?" I asked
"No we cannot, we can do that when we get back from shopping" she smiled
I went upstairs and got dressed. I got my wallet and meet Emily downstairs. I knew what she was trying to do, she was trying to keep me busy, and it just made me think about it more.