Forgiving the Forgotten - 19
CHAPTER 19: UNCALLED MEMORIES:
TAEEN'S POV:
I had a mild headache when Amon raised an arm and without effort drew the curtains apart with his telepathy, to reveal the moonlight shining through the huge windows. My shadow fell on his face. Just like my thoughts pleaded with his mind.
"Amenatsu... let me know you better, trust me... I will not harm you..." I clasped his hand in both of mine and continued, "And I'll see to it that I won't be hurt by you...."
He clenched my hand once and let go.
"Princess, forgive me, for all my mistakes. And I hope you'll trust me enough to believe my past."
In my hands lay his hand that became restless sometimes, because Amenatsu was squirming with discomfort at recalling his past.
The black dragon, Amon, was controlling him and I knew that. I had to eliminate all the tension charged air. His emotions were difficult to take in. but I think I could take it all in... out of curiosity... for him.
He gazed out of the window, as if he could see his past in the sky. A past long lost, an unforgiving past, an unforgotten past.
"Towards the end of the first arc of time on the Islands, where I was born... my first home, all the twelve families, each from one Island, produced one heir each. But the last planet, Tatsu, birthed two children. A pair of identical twins. Tatsu and Amenatsu. Where Tatsu was the white dragon, I was the black dragon. And ... I was unfated, so they presumed I was unlucky. That was according to tradition."
Emotion filled eyes allowed me to look into their depths. I wanted this night to go on forever. And ever.
I stroked the back of his hand unconsciously, not knowing what it was doing to him.
"But my mother allowed me to live... she pleaded with all the other 11 families to keep my existence a secret. When the time came for her to publicly give the unlucky twin the drink of loss, a painless poison, she changed the potions and administered a harmless sedative. A funeral was arranged and no one cried... no one was supposed to cry, my death was a good omen."
I shuddered at the lack of apathy of the tradition.
"Life continued, and I didn't realize the crime I had done by being born. Tatsu was brought up believing I was dead. So I saw little of him. My father was the least concerned with me. My mother tried to be there for me all the time. When I figured out my crush was courting my best friend. When I realized why my father ignored me. Everything.... That hurt... seriously. It was decided that I would be sent for training rather than Tatsu. That was because I had to go into the universe to make a living but my twin, who was going to be the king would be safe and sound."
It was not hatred I saw in him, but resent, surely, resent.
"And so, I went on trips and training camps, with the concord of the islands- the other princes and princesses. Knowing the luxuries of being prince were not mine to take. All the while feeling the resent and hatred for my best friend. Perhaps... I didn't realize that he had no idea I liked her too."
I felt my heart squirm, trying to imagine what his first crush would have looked like, talked like.... Did she love him?
Amenatsu, read my mind and answered my silent doubt.
"No princess, she never loved me or had any liking for a spoiled prince who was trying to make the most of his last years. Because I was a beggar from inside. Hoping, praying that I would get to live this life forever. And never be exiled...."
"Finally, after five years of a very rigorous training we returned to the Islands. We had gone in the royal craft and came back in each of our own crafts. We had learned everything from sword fighting, to flying, to loving enemies. It was difficult, but I enjoyed it the most, those years, they were my last as a prince, or so I thought."
"When we returned home, they all bid me farewell. I too returned home, and as always, my mother was the only one kind enough to make me understand her predilection. I have no comments on my father and brother or any of my friends. That was it; my packed luggage was placed in an aircraft and without much ado I was exiled.... It was an emotionally cold journey. I tried to convince myself that my life was just beginning. That I had independence and lacked nothing. At that time, affection and love meant everything to me. Probably because of self pity or simply because I could get none of that. I became dead for my parents. For the brother I had never known. No betrayal. Just the inevitable fate. Beyond my 21st year, no one knew where I was to go or what I would do. I was even welcome to abandon my name and take on a new name. That's when I decided on the name Amon. Nice name ha Taeen?"
I nodded and angled my hand around his flexed knee for support. He smiled and continued. I had never been so close to him. And he read that too. His muscles contracted under my touch. I wanted to lie on his chest and hear his heartbeat. To confirm that this dream was not fake.
"At 21 I was fresh with life and very positive. After a hell lot of pondering I decided what I wanted to do with my life. I would do various jobs and settle for one I could learn to love the most. And when I would wish to stop I would settle down with a small family, living as a commoner in Jerome, my paradise planet. I thought of it as my retirement landing."
He chuckled at his situation and adjusted his head once again on the pillows. I think Amenatsu was probably enjoying this revelation. He too hadn't recalled it from such a long time.
"My first and second last adventure planet, I landed in Emperia to work as a farmer. To make a living."
TAEEN'S POV:
I had a mild headache when Amon raised an arm and without effort drew the curtains apart with his telepathy, to reveal the moonlight shining through the huge windows. My shadow fell on his face. Just like my thoughts pleaded with his mind.
"Amenatsu... let me know you better, trust me... I will not harm you..." I clasped his hand in both of mine and continued, "And I'll see to it that I won't be hurt by you...."
He clenched my hand once and let go.
"Princess, forgive me, for all my mistakes. And I hope you'll trust me enough to believe my past."
In my hands lay his hand that became restless sometimes, because Amenatsu was squirming with discomfort at recalling his past.
The black dragon, Amon, was controlling him and I knew that. I had to eliminate all the tension charged air. His emotions were difficult to take in. but I think I could take it all in... out of curiosity... for him.
He gazed out of the window, as if he could see his past in the sky. A past long lost, an unforgiving past, an unforgotten past.
"Towards the end of the first arc of time on the Islands, where I was born... my first home, all the twelve families, each from one Island, produced one heir each. But the last planet, Tatsu, birthed two children. A pair of identical twins. Tatsu and Amenatsu. Where Tatsu was the white dragon, I was the black dragon. And ... I was unfated, so they presumed I was unlucky. That was according to tradition."
Emotion filled eyes allowed me to look into their depths. I wanted this night to go on forever. And ever.
I stroked the back of his hand unconsciously, not knowing what it was doing to him.
"But my mother allowed me to live... she pleaded with all the other 11 families to keep my existence a secret. When the time came for her to publicly give the unlucky twin the drink of loss, a painless poison, she changed the potions and administered a harmless sedative. A funeral was arranged and no one cried... no one was supposed to cry, my death was a good omen."
I shuddered at the lack of apathy of the tradition.
"Life continued, and I didn't realize the crime I had done by being born. Tatsu was brought up believing I was dead. So I saw little of him. My father was the least concerned with me. My mother tried to be there for me all the time. When I figured out my crush was courting my best friend. When I realized why my father ignored me. Everything.... That hurt... seriously. It was decided that I would be sent for training rather than Tatsu. That was because I had to go into the universe to make a living but my twin, who was going to be the king would be safe and sound."
It was not hatred I saw in him, but resent, surely, resent.
"And so, I went on trips and training camps, with the concord of the islands- the other princes and princesses. Knowing the luxuries of being prince were not mine to take. All the while feeling the resent and hatred for my best friend. Perhaps... I didn't realize that he had no idea I liked her too."
I felt my heart squirm, trying to imagine what his first crush would have looked like, talked like.... Did she love him?
Amenatsu, read my mind and answered my silent doubt.
"No princess, she never loved me or had any liking for a spoiled prince who was trying to make the most of his last years. Because I was a beggar from inside. Hoping, praying that I would get to live this life forever. And never be exiled...."
"Finally, after five years of a very rigorous training we returned to the Islands. We had gone in the royal craft and came back in each of our own crafts. We had learned everything from sword fighting, to flying, to loving enemies. It was difficult, but I enjoyed it the most, those years, they were my last as a prince, or so I thought."
"When we returned home, they all bid me farewell. I too returned home, and as always, my mother was the only one kind enough to make me understand her predilection. I have no comments on my father and brother or any of my friends. That was it; my packed luggage was placed in an aircraft and without much ado I was exiled.... It was an emotionally cold journey. I tried to convince myself that my life was just beginning. That I had independence and lacked nothing. At that time, affection and love meant everything to me. Probably because of self pity or simply because I could get none of that. I became dead for my parents. For the brother I had never known. No betrayal. Just the inevitable fate. Beyond my 21st year, no one knew where I was to go or what I would do. I was even welcome to abandon my name and take on a new name. That's when I decided on the name Amon. Nice name ha Taeen?"
I nodded and angled my hand around his flexed knee for support. He smiled and continued. I had never been so close to him. And he read that too. His muscles contracted under my touch. I wanted to lie on his chest and hear his heartbeat. To confirm that this dream was not fake.
"At 21 I was fresh with life and very positive. After a hell lot of pondering I decided what I wanted to do with my life. I would do various jobs and settle for one I could learn to love the most. And when I would wish to stop I would settle down with a small family, living as a commoner in Jerome, my paradise planet. I thought of it as my retirement landing."
He chuckled at his situation and adjusted his head once again on the pillows. I think Amenatsu was probably enjoying this revelation. He too hadn't recalled it from such a long time.
"My first and second last adventure planet, I landed in Emperia to work as a farmer. To make a living."
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