Forever And Always: Chapter Fifteen

I stretched my legs out and tried to relax. With everything going on I didn't have much time to just sit and relax and clear my head. It was hard, yeah but what was it going to be like later on. If Jordan was in my situation I would want him to be happy, wouldn't I? Shelly splashed me with water and I jumped as the cold water sprayed all over me.
"Shelly, what the hell was that for?" I yelled at her as she laughed
"Why don't you come in?" she said splashing me again

I pulled my shirt off and jumped in the water. "You're dead!" I yelled grabbing a water gun and spraying her in the face. We were laughing really hard as we tried to dodge the water. It was so nice to just hang out with your sister and I forgot for a short period of time what had happened to Jordan. I wiped the hair out of my face and got out of the pool.
"Where you going?" she asked following me
"Uh, I think I've had enough fun for one day" I said wrapping a towel around myself
"Melanie?"
"Yeah"
"It's ok to have fun" she said with a half smile
"I know"

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Things had gotten pretty much back to normal, people weren't giving me special treatment anymore, which I liked. People seemed to be forgetting him, like he was actually fading away. It made it harder but it easier at the same time. Hard to explain but those were my feelings. Emily has a new boyfriend and doesn't seem to have time for me anymore. But yeah, she's happy so I am too.
"Mel" I felt a hand grab my shoulder, I turned around.
"Oh, hey" I said
"Listen I uh, got these tickets for a never shout never concert, he is only here for one night, and my friend hooked me up, best seats in the house" Logan said holding two tickets in his hand
"When is it?"

"Tonight" he said with a "hope you can come" look
I bit my lip. What's the worst thing that could happen? Nothing, it's just me going to a concert with a friend, that happens to be a super cute guy, that I might have feelings for. That's all. Yeah, nothing wrong, Right? "Say no! Melanie, say no, no, no, no, no!!" i said to myself
"Uhhh, yeah I can go" shit.
"Alright, great, I'll pick you up at eight?"
"Yeah, sounds good."

I walked to my class, which I thankfully had with Emily. I sat beside her and wrote her a not
"Going to concert tonight with Logan" I watched as she scribbled something on the other side of the paper.
"Really?! That's great!" she wrote with a smiley face.
"Is it really?" I whispered
"Melanie, you deserve to be close to somebody"
"But it doesn't mean anything? Right?" I suddenly got panicked "it's not a date, right? I got louder
"Well, does he know it's not a date" she said with raised eyebrows. I sunk low into my chair.

I looked through everything in my closet.
"What the hell am I going to wear?" I asked myself
"No, why do I care, I shouldn't care. He isn't Jordan, so I don't care"
"No, I do care"
There was a knock at the door. And Shelly walked in. She looked around curiously.
"Question. Who are you talking to?" she asked sitting on my bed
"Oh sure Shelly, come in, take a seat on my bed, make yourself comfy" I said looking back at the mirror
"Alright, thanks I will" I rolled my eyes
"Can I help you with anything? I need to get ready, and I don't have time for your attitude"
"Where you going?" she said as if I never said anything
"Out"
"Where out?"
"Is it any of your business?"
"No, but it will be mom's, you're not allowed out on school nights"
"Shelly, you wouldn't"
"Do you not know me at all, Melanie? I would." She gave me a stare that I absolutely hate.
"I'm going to a concert, with Logan"
"Ah, now who is this boy?"
"Shelly get out!" I snapped
"Fine, fine, I'm going" she shut the door took one step and yelled
"MOM!"
I grabbed one of the millions of throw pillows on my bed, and threw it at her head
"Huff! What has that for?" she wined rubbing her head
"Say anything! And I swear you better sleep with one eye open"
"Alright, alright calm down"
"What are you talking about, I'm perfectly calm" I said pulling my shirt down and fixing my wild curly hair, and walked back in my room with a sigh.

My phone vibrated and it was Logan. "Hey, I'm on my way, can't wait ~Logan (:" I climbed out the window and out to the front, I sneaked around the porch light, and stood in front of the tree. A red pick-up truck pulled up. He got out of the car and I pulled his arm behind the tree before he could knock on the door.
"Wow!" he yelled
"Sorry, but I'm not allowed to go out on weeknights, I'm sneaking out"
"Oh, ok that's cool" he had an oblivious look to him it was kind of funny, it was cute. I laughed.
"What?" he made an adorable crocked smile that I loved "stop it!" I told myself
"Nothing" I said biting my lip
We got in the car and left for the concert. We walked, our arms occasionally brushing against each others, in silence. It was a nice silence though. We gave our tickets but instead of going through the regular door, Logan took my hand and brought me into a little doorway that said "staff only"
"Logan, we can't go in there" I said pulling away
"What are you scared?" he said
"No" I said giving him an angry look
"Remember I said the best seats in the house?" I nodded "this way" he smiled
I followed him as he led me through small cave like halls, then we came to a big metal door it said. "No trespassing"
"Logan? Where are you taking me?" I asked panicky
"You'll see"

He opened the door and a sudden wind passed over me, almost knocking me over.
"Where not going out there, right?!" I said grasping his hand for support
"Oh, no, no, no, no, no!" I said freaking out
"Just trust me, you'll be fine. I won't let anything bad happen to you" he lifted my chin up with his free hand, I noticed then, that he had the most gorgeous blue eyes, I never noticed that before. I got lost in them for a second and his voice broke me out. "I promise" I gulped and nodded
"Ok"

He stepped out and I followed exactly where he stepped. Stars poured all over the sky, it was so beautiful, and the moon was so bright. Like a big flashlight, over the world. i looked down through the big hole and you could see everything, the band setting up, the crowd, the lights.
"It's beautiful" he squeezed my hand
"That's not the only thing" he looked at me and smiled making me blush
"That's the cheesest thing I've ever heard"
"But it's true"
I smiled, and looked away so we couldn't see me blushing, we sat down.
"So, where watching the concert from here?"
"Yeah, the best seats in the house, I told you"
"If we get caught-"
"Would you stop worrying, lighten up. Have some fun" he said pulling me into his chest tightly

"Melanie, I realize that you're not looking for a relationship or anyone to be that guy right now, Look I don't know what I'm trying to say, but I like you. I like you a lot, and I don't know what that means to you, but I wanted you to know" he looked away
"Jordan" he looked back at me with wide eyes
"His name was Jordan, and I was pretty sure that I loved him. I still am pretty sure that I love him. But the truth is a part of me wants to forget him, forget he ever existed, but I can't. We have been through so much together. It hurts-"

I stopped I was only going to make myself cry, but I need to finish, it would be my closher. Good for me to finally tell someone how I feel. I continued.
"It hurts to think that he's gone. Sometimes I can feel him there, with me. Holding my hand, or I can feel his soft warm lips against mine." Logan just stared a head
"I'm sorry I shouldn't have told you all that"
"No, you should have" he looked into my eyes
"He's always going to be with you, whether you know or not, he loved you. I know that, heck he would be crazy not to, and you loved him, I can tell by the way you talk about him, and I know he would want you to be happy. Don't forget about him; don't erase him from your memory. If he really loved you, he would want you to move on"

My checks were red hot. He touched my checks with both hands.
"I love that" he said brushing them with his thumbs
Just then a voice came from the big metal door.
"Hey! You kids can't be here!"
Me and Logan jumped up and ran down the stairs and into the car, laughing.

"So much for the concert" I said as we pulled onto my street
He laughed "yeah, sorry about that"
"no, it was fun, I had a lot of fun" I paused and got out of the car " I haven't laughed like that in too long" I smiled and shut the door
"Goodnight Logan"
"Night Melanie"

I shut the door behind me, and leaned against it with my eyes shut. I liked him, he was really sweet, I could just go on a couple more dates with him, that wouldn't hurt. but what if this hasn't a date? these were the moments when I needed emily, someone I could tallk to.

"I forgot how difficult this was" I said aloud to myself and walked upstairs to go to bed.