~For Death, Was Now Looking Me in the Eyes.~
This 'short story' is pretty much dedicated to someone who dramatically changed my life for a time... Thank you!
**For death, was now looking me in the eye**
I stood nothing less than 2 inches away from death....
On a chair, with a rope swinging near my neck...What got me here, is going to drive me through.....
Was it over... Was I done...Was there still "life"... Can I let go...Can I now leave, but was I giving up?.. Do I let go of everything...Is there hope..... how can I move on...Is anything going to get better...Do I tighten the rope around my neck...and JUST jump off ..... more and more questions replayed in my head... some repeated and some just seemed to be new... but I wanted an answer... all I begged for was an answer!! PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!....
From the blackout that was left in my heart, it felt as if my heart was telling me to listen carefully...... I listened...
I can feel my conscience trying to pull me back to life, but it was as if I were denying it, as if I didn't know if I had the strength to live on...
In an empty room, with no one but me and my conscience, I ask my self...how will god ever forgive me?....
I stood on a chair with a rope now tied around my neck...blood that soaked my cloths, dripping from both my arms and eyes...
Then I hear a sympathetic voice telling me, "he can see your true feelings and knows what's in your heart...he WILL forgive you!"..........but I forsaken it, and got closer to the edge...I look... for it was going to be my last sight of this world... I take a breathe, and close my eyes...but there it was, the voice, once again...but deep within it echoed loudly in my soul, asking me to stay, to give life another chance, just one more chance!!
Letting go of the rope and stepping off the chair...I remained deadlocked in the dark room...thanking the voice......
**In the night there's a fire in my eyes, and this paradise has become a place we've come to cry... when I open your letter the words make it better, it takes it all away, it makes me feel better**
xXThanks...Xx
I stood nothing less than 2 inches away from death....
On a chair, with a rope swinging near my neck...What got me here, is going to drive me through.....
Was it over... Was I done...Was there still "life"... Can I let go...Can I now leave, but was I giving up?.. Do I let go of everything...Is there hope..... how can I move on...Is anything going to get better...Do I tighten the rope around my neck...and JUST jump off ..... more and more questions replayed in my head... some repeated and some just seemed to be new... but I wanted an answer... all I begged for was an answer!! PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!....
From the blackout that was left in my heart, it felt as if my heart was telling me to listen carefully...... I listened...
I can feel my conscience trying to pull me back to life, but it was as if I were denying it, as if I didn't know if I had the strength to live on...
In an empty room, with no one but me and my conscience, I ask my self...how will god ever forgive me?....
I stood on a chair with a rope now tied around my neck...blood that soaked my cloths, dripping from both my arms and eyes...
Then I hear a sympathetic voice telling me, "he can see your true feelings and knows what's in your heart...he WILL forgive you!"..........but I forsaken it, and got closer to the edge...I look... for it was going to be my last sight of this world... I take a breathe, and close my eyes...but there it was, the voice, once again...but deep within it echoed loudly in my soul, asking me to stay, to give life another chance, just one more chance!!
Letting go of the rope and stepping off the chair...I remained deadlocked in the dark room...thanking the voice......
**In the night there's a fire in my eyes, and this paradise has become a place we've come to cry... when I open your letter the words make it better, it takes it all away, it makes me feel better**
xXThanks...Xx
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