Fix My Heart (Chapter 7)

So it seems like this story isn't being read as much as it used to be or as much as Love At First Sight. I'm starting to think that may be I should stop writing this one and go on to the next story I had in mind. I need at least 4 comments to keep writing this story. Anyway thanks for everything guys. And here it is:)
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Nate's POV

"Nate.......Nate......"

I grumbled something which I hoped sounded like good morning. My head was killing me. And the sun was shining so bright into the room that it only made the pain worse.

"Nate.....are you awake?" Aimee whispered into my ear. I could feel her soft hair brushing my skin.

"Shit...." I cursed. I couldn't even stop thinking about her in my dreams. I opened my eyes and sure enough she was standing there looking down at me. I closed my eyes again. "Why can't I stop thinking about you?"

"Um..."

"I mean, even in my dreams you're there."

"Wait....oh. You....you.."She burst out laughing.

"I what?" I stood up and noticed I was wearing a shirt. Hmm, that's weird I'm usually not wearing one in my dreams. I guess this one's different.

She collected herself just enough so she could say, "Nate....you're not dreaming." Then she started laughing again.

What? If I wasn't dreaming, then what the hell was I doing in Aimee's house? That's when part of the night came back to me. Me with Becky at the party, me getting...wasted, me standing on Aimee's front door but that's as far as I could remember. Had anything happened? I felt embarrassed.

That's when the headache started up again. I put my head in my hands. Ugh, I had to remember never to drink again, I felt like crap.

"You want something to eat?"

"Uh, no thanks. I um...what time is it?"

"Twelve, I think."

I sighed.

"You feeling okay?" She sat beside me on the bed and for the first time I realized I was alone with Aimee.

My palms were sweating and I could feel my hands shaking. "Uh...yeah.."

"Are you sure, you don't look so good..."

"Thanks."

She let out a nervous laugh, "Sorry, I didn't mean it like that." She was blushing.

Looking at her made my stomach do these weird turns that I'd never felt before. I turned away wondering what had happened last night.

"Well um....I'll be back. I have to do some um, grocery shopping. You can stay here if you want, I won't take very long."

"Okay." I nodded.

"Alright, I'll be back in a bit."

"Yeah."

She left and I wasn't sure what to do now. I felt weird being alone in her room, the only girls room I'd ever been in was Becky's and Aimee's room was nothing like hers.

Her walls were painted a light shade of blue and on her walls she had random drawings that she'd drew. I recognized one of them because I'd seen her drawing it during biology one day. I looked around and my gaze stopped on some pictures of her and a guy who I was guessing was Daniel. In one of the shots she was writing in that notebook she's always carrying around. Daniel was off to the side looking at her and at that moment I saw it. I would recognize it anywhere. It was a look that I bet I got a lot around Aimee. I look of longing and need, a look way too familiar. And that's when I understood, Daniel had loved Aimee the same way she had loved him. I looked at the other picture beside it. Aimee was laughing at Daniel while he did a funny face at the camera. All these pictures told so much. It almost hurt to see how much they both needed one another. Now I understood why Aimee had felt so lost and confused after Daniel's death. These photos said it all.

I sat on the bed and felt something underneath me. It was a rectangular bump. I lifted the covers and found the notebook Aimee always writes in. I took it and put it on her desk. I couldn't stop looking at it wondering what she writes in it.

I couldn't help the curiosity that took over me. I opened it up to the first page and read:

"Dear Daniel,

I miss you. A lot. I can't even describe what I feel every day when I remember I won't be seeing you. I've pulled myself away from everyone at school. They're not really worth hanging out with when you're not around. Every second of the day is depressing with you gone. Can I tell you something? Every day I wake up from dreaming about you and get so excited thinking it's not a dream. Then I take a look around and reality hits me. You're gone and never coming back. And it's all my fault. I know you wouldn't want me to blame myself for it but I do. I love you Daniel. And now with you gone I'm forced to go through life without you. Sometimes I'm not even sure I'll be able to get through another day but somehow I do. I guess knowing that one day I'll see you again, one day I'll be with you helps. My mom's out at work again and I'm here all alone. Remember when you used to come over and we'd hang out here? Those were the best times of my life. Just remembering makes me sad. Well I'm going to stop writing now, the words are getting kind of smeared with my tears. Love, Aimee. "

Just reading these words made my heartache knowing that when Aimee wrote this she had been going through so much pain. I skipped a few pages.

"Dear Daniel,

I met this guy. I know what you're probably thinking. But don't worry I still miss you and I'll always love you. This guy is just so different from anyone I've met....he actually cares about me. I can tell all he wants is for me to be happy and with him around that's not hard to do. I think I might like him but I'm scared....Love, Aimee."

Was the guy she was talking about me...? These were all letters to Daniel and they were all dated. My hands began to sweat when I came to the page that had today's date.

"Dear Daniel,

Guess what? I know you probably don't want to hear this but I just really have to get it out there. You know the guy I told you about? Nathan...He said it. He said those words I'd always imagined you saying to me. You don't know how much they meant to me. He probably won't remember he did because he was drunk but it still means a lot that he said them. I guess a part of me....a huge part, hopes that he does remember last night. I opened up to him in a way I'd always wished to do with you and it felt right... I don't know what this means or what the future has in store for us but I guess I'll just have to see. Please don't be mad. You'll always hold a special part in my heart and I'll never forget you, ever. You were the very first guy to claim my heart and I'm sure no girl could forget that. I love you Daniel and I always will. I think I'm going to give this thing with Nathan a chance. Well I have to go now it's nearly noon and I have to wake him up....(it's a long story.) Love, Aimee."

My hands shook as everything from last night came back to me in a rush. The kissing and the words...I couldn't believe I'd said them. I didn't regret saying them but it's just that I never imagined saying them to anyone...I guess I never thought I'd actually love anyone before.

I jumped startled when I heard the front door of the house open and stuffed the notebook back under the sheets. I felt bad for reading her private thoughts but at the same time I didn't. If it weren't for that I wouldn't have remembered saying I love you to Aimee, and I wouldn't have felt as close as I did to her.

I sat up on her bed and looked at the pictures I'd been looking at when finally Aimee came in.

"So I brought some cookies and waffles if you want any or you could..." She trailed off not meeting my gaze. Her eyes were blotchy and red...she'd been crying.

I stood up from the bed and went to her. "What's wrong?"

"Wrong?" She laughed sadly, "nothings wrong why would you think that?"

"Aimee. I know you. I can tell when you've been crying."

She shrugged. "Don't worry about it. It's stupid..."

"Nothing that makes you this upset is stupid."

She sniffled. "Just forget it okay? It's nothing, really." She started downstairs but I wasn't letting her out that easily. This could be my only chance.

I grabbed her arm and gently pulled her towards me. Both our hands were shaking. I reached up and brushed her hair away from her eyes so I could see them. "Aimee..."

A tear slid down her cheek and I kissed it. I pulled her closer and shut the door. "You know..." I said pressing her against the wall. We were so close and our breaths were coming fast. "You never said anything."

Aimee's POV

"Huh?" It was really hard to think about what he meant with him so near. His scent was so intoxicating it made my head spin. I put my hand on his chest and gently grabbed on to his shirt to keep myself upright.

He placed his hands on my waist and pulled me closer so he could whisper in my ear, "Answer me one question will you?"

I shivered from his warm breath on my skin. All I could manage to do was nod.

"Alright....promise you'll answer truthfully."

He kissed my neck and made his way back up my ear. Now he was really just trying to mess with my thinking but I nodded anyway.

"Promise?" He pressed our foreheads together and I could feel his warm breaths on my skin. I moved one of my hands to the doorknob to steady myself. My breathing was coming fast and so was his.

"I promise." I managed to say.

"Okay." His voice sounded raspy and he cleared his throat. He pulled away a bit allowing me some thinking space. "Do you....do you.....love me?" My heart stopped. He remembered, he really did.

He waited looking at me. "Um.." I pretended to think it over and saw a stricken look on his face. "Yeah."

He smiled so brightly that it made my insides flip out.

"Good." He said pulling me closer.

"Good." I wrapped my hands around his neck.

"So does this mean we're official?"

It was my turn to tease him."Do you want it too?" I kissed the edge of his mouth, his neck, and nibbled on his ear. He made a slow moaning sound.

"You are such a tease." He said gruffly.

"Like you're not." I smiled at him and he kissed me deeply. This day could not get any more perfect. Suddenly we jumped apart when there was a knock on my door.

"Aimee...can I come in?" It was my mom...
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