Fighting for Something Real 8
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It had been a month since me and Marcus has started to talk and it seemed like I knew everything about him and he knew everything about me.
My life had turned into a daily routine. In school I would see Marcus, in the morning then at lunch, then after school he would come over my house and spend the day with me and the same on the weekends. That's how I spent my weeks. At night after he would leave my house we would talk on MSN and we would stay up all night talking about everything, sometimes we would play games like tic tac toe and flags he would always win of course.
Time was flying and soon a month became 2 then 3 then 4 and before I knew it, it was a couple of days till summer. Every summer I left for Florida to go visit my three cousins, who moved when I was 14, they are my best friends so I spend the whole summer with them. It was the last week of school and I could tell Marcus wasn't happy with me leaving for the whole summer.
"Marcus!" I yelled as I tried to make my way through the courtyard full of students. I could see him walking away from our usual spot where we sat at every morning. I reached our bench and saw that he wasn't stopping, I felt an ach in my chest, and I hated to see him so angry especially towards me.
"You walk so fast, you could walk track and win a race." Sarah was out of breath and bending over her knees. Normally Marcus and I would laugh at Sarah's exaggerations but today I didn't feel like laughing.
"I'm sorry." I said as I sat down on the bench. I wondered if it was too late to go back home and crawl under my bed covers for forever.
"It's going to be okay Kat, I was like that the first summer you left, but I got use to it didn't I?"
I couldn't help but think this situation was a little different, but I was in no moods of disagreeing with Sarah, who would then give me an hour long speech on how it is the same.
"I know you're right, I just can't help but feel guilty, it is unfair that I'm leaving for so long."
"You should not feel guilty, you're world should not revolve around a boy, he will survive the summer without you."
I spend the whole day trying to find Marcus. I left class earlier to meet him at the door of the classroom he was in so we could walk together to our next class. I watched all the students leave the classroom but Marcus never came out.
I texted him asking if he was ok and waiting for a responds that next came.
The rest of the day dragged on, I wasn't use to Marcus being away from me for so long, let alone be angry at me.
It was eleven and I couldn't sleep, I was angry, why wouldn't he talk to me?! I got up from my bed grabbed my keys and headed for the door. As I walked out into my front yard in I realized Marcus's car was blocking mine. I ran back inside and found him sitting on my bed with his head down.
I went over and sat down next to him and we sat there in silence for I don't know how long. Then finally after what seemed forever, Marcus looked up at me and smiled. At that moment I knew it was going to be okay.
I put my hand on his cheek and kissed him gently on the corner of his mouth, just to tease him. He chucked and went in to kiss me, but I back up before he could. I smiled at him and he smiled back at me then he grabbed my arms and pulled me close, I pretended to put up a fight.
The more I fought the closer he pulled me towards him his arms were wrapped around my body and my legs were wrapped around him. It placed my forehead on his and breathed him in he started to kiss my neck and I felt shocks going through my body. His hands slid down my torso and I wrapped my arms around his neck and run my fingers threw his hair.
He kissed me on my neck, and bites my ear, he kissed the top of chest, and he kissed my shoulders and my arms he made his way down with kisses. He laid me down and I felt dizzy, I was hot and full of energy, I wanted him all to my self and I wanted him now.
He lifted my shirt and kisses my stomach then makes his way up to my lips and I pull him down on me and started to kiss me with such intensity. I wanted him to know how much I wanted him.
He kissed me back with the same intensity, and I knew this was it. I pulled up from our intense kiss and pulled my shirt off and then continue kissing him, he cursed my body and pulled me closer and closer. I pulled his shirt off and kissed his neck, then his shoulders, then his chest. I kissed him again on his lips and began to take my pants off then I felt his hands on my hands. I stopped kissing him and looked at him confused.
"What's wrong?"
"I don't want you to do anything you might regret."
"Regret? Why would I regret this?"
"Maybe this went too far."
"Too far, I don't think it went far enough, don't you want to be with me?"
"Of course I want to be with you Kat, more than anything but I just don't think we should do this right now."
I felt rejection wash over me, I thought he wanted me but I was wrong. I stood up and grabbed my shirt and put it on quickly to brush away the tears that were now falling down my cheek. I felt Marcus's arms wrap around me and hug me.
"Please don't be sad, Kat you mean more to me then you could imagine, I just think that with you leaving this is not the right time to do...well what you want to do."
"So this is because I'm leaving, you won't sleep with me because I am leaving for the summer?" I pulled away from his hug and walked over to my bed and sat down and let the tears flow down freely.
He walked over to my bed and picked me up and put me on his lap then held me, and whispered in my ear "I love you Kat."
I looked up at him and the tears stop coming, He was looking at me like I was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. I kissed him and whispered back "I love you Marcus."
My life had turned into a daily routine. In school I would see Marcus, in the morning then at lunch, then after school he would come over my house and spend the day with me and the same on the weekends. That's how I spent my weeks. At night after he would leave my house we would talk on MSN and we would stay up all night talking about everything, sometimes we would play games like tic tac toe and flags he would always win of course.
Time was flying and soon a month became 2 then 3 then 4 and before I knew it, it was a couple of days till summer. Every summer I left for Florida to go visit my three cousins, who moved when I was 14, they are my best friends so I spend the whole summer with them. It was the last week of school and I could tell Marcus wasn't happy with me leaving for the whole summer.
"Marcus!" I yelled as I tried to make my way through the courtyard full of students. I could see him walking away from our usual spot where we sat at every morning. I reached our bench and saw that he wasn't stopping, I felt an ach in my chest, and I hated to see him so angry especially towards me.
"You walk so fast, you could walk track and win a race." Sarah was out of breath and bending over her knees. Normally Marcus and I would laugh at Sarah's exaggerations but today I didn't feel like laughing.
"I'm sorry." I said as I sat down on the bench. I wondered if it was too late to go back home and crawl under my bed covers for forever.
"It's going to be okay Kat, I was like that the first summer you left, but I got use to it didn't I?"
I couldn't help but think this situation was a little different, but I was in no moods of disagreeing with Sarah, who would then give me an hour long speech on how it is the same.
"I know you're right, I just can't help but feel guilty, it is unfair that I'm leaving for so long."
"You should not feel guilty, you're world should not revolve around a boy, he will survive the summer without you."
I spend the whole day trying to find Marcus. I left class earlier to meet him at the door of the classroom he was in so we could walk together to our next class. I watched all the students leave the classroom but Marcus never came out.
I texted him asking if he was ok and waiting for a responds that next came.
The rest of the day dragged on, I wasn't use to Marcus being away from me for so long, let alone be angry at me.
It was eleven and I couldn't sleep, I was angry, why wouldn't he talk to me?! I got up from my bed grabbed my keys and headed for the door. As I walked out into my front yard in I realized Marcus's car was blocking mine. I ran back inside and found him sitting on my bed with his head down.
I went over and sat down next to him and we sat there in silence for I don't know how long. Then finally after what seemed forever, Marcus looked up at me and smiled. At that moment I knew it was going to be okay.
I put my hand on his cheek and kissed him gently on the corner of his mouth, just to tease him. He chucked and went in to kiss me, but I back up before he could. I smiled at him and he smiled back at me then he grabbed my arms and pulled me close, I pretended to put up a fight.
The more I fought the closer he pulled me towards him his arms were wrapped around my body and my legs were wrapped around him. It placed my forehead on his and breathed him in he started to kiss my neck and I felt shocks going through my body. His hands slid down my torso and I wrapped my arms around his neck and run my fingers threw his hair.
He kissed me on my neck, and bites my ear, he kissed the top of chest, and he kissed my shoulders and my arms he made his way down with kisses. He laid me down and I felt dizzy, I was hot and full of energy, I wanted him all to my self and I wanted him now.
He lifted my shirt and kisses my stomach then makes his way up to my lips and I pull him down on me and started to kiss me with such intensity. I wanted him to know how much I wanted him.
He kissed me back with the same intensity, and I knew this was it. I pulled up from our intense kiss and pulled my shirt off and then continue kissing him, he cursed my body and pulled me closer and closer. I pulled his shirt off and kissed his neck, then his shoulders, then his chest. I kissed him again on his lips and began to take my pants off then I felt his hands on my hands. I stopped kissing him and looked at him confused.
"What's wrong?"
"I don't want you to do anything you might regret."
"Regret? Why would I regret this?"
"Maybe this went too far."
"Too far, I don't think it went far enough, don't you want to be with me?"
"Of course I want to be with you Kat, more than anything but I just don't think we should do this right now."
I felt rejection wash over me, I thought he wanted me but I was wrong. I stood up and grabbed my shirt and put it on quickly to brush away the tears that were now falling down my cheek. I felt Marcus's arms wrap around me and hug me.
"Please don't be sad, Kat you mean more to me then you could imagine, I just think that with you leaving this is not the right time to do...well what you want to do."
"So this is because I'm leaving, you won't sleep with me because I am leaving for the summer?" I pulled away from his hug and walked over to my bed and sat down and let the tears flow down freely.
He walked over to my bed and picked me up and put me on his lap then held me, and whispered in my ear "I love you Kat."
I looked up at him and the tears stop coming, He was looking at me like I was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. I kissed him and whispered back "I love you Marcus."
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