Fate, Is It Real?

Thoughts of life surround me
Wondering which way to turn
Going left when I should have gone right
Is happiness something that is earned?

Taking advice from others,
Do you listen to what they say?
Everyone has opinions
And everyone does things in their own way

Realizing this is my life
Not anyone can choose my path
It has to be me to do that...
Can I escape this wrath?

Looking and searching for that perfect one
Wanting and yearning for that love
It seems to happen in the movies
Do I have to pray for that, to the lord above?

They say no one is perfect
Maybe that is so...
But to hear about soulmates...
Is there something I don't know?

Is there one out there for everyone?
So it is I hear...
How long does it take to find them?
Hours... days... months... or is it years?

The pain that I feel doesn't go away...
I love the one I am with so much, he doesn't even know
Will our fate put us together forever...?
Or will I eventually have to let him go?

Tears don't take away the hurt or the confusion
It helps to grieve, but I still feel I am on the losing end
It all comes back to "only time will tell"
It's like throwing a penny into a wishing well

Sitting and waiting for the time to come
Everyone says "live life to the fullest, and have no regrets"
People make mistakes though...
So that I just don't get.

You have to make mistakes to learn as you go
That also means having regrets, right?
Not everyone is happy with all the decisions they have made
But I guess you just give it all your might

So back at square one doing what I can
Getting through each day one step at a time
Hiding my feelings and cooping them up
Putting them in poems and making rhymes.