Everything and Anything

Things have really changed
For once I feel as if I don't need you
I mean yeah, I remember I was blamed
But for once I believe things will be okay

I made up with one of my friends finally
I missed her and she missed me
I haven't really talked to you since then
Yet, there are so many messages I still want to send

I know I can't completely forget you
There is no possible way
But I can still put you aside
And try to throw away all your old lies

Even though I'm through with you, some things still aren't the same
I still miss him even though it's been a while
He can still never be replaced by anyone
Still at times in still in denial

He really would have hated you
With all that crap you put me through
You should really consider yourself lucky
If he was here, he probably would have thrown you into next year

At that I have to smile
It's a first people have seen in a while
But I say I'm finally ok
But on the inside I'm screaming no way

Maybe one day I can smile easily
But until then I will take one day at a time
I will focus on my writing and basketball
And think about how that stupid time could just rewind