Entrapment

I feel tied up and useless
To weak to try and set myself free
To ashamed to reach out, to naive to understand, and too lost to believe in me.
To much in love to stand alone
To much entrapment to let myself loose

Day in and day out, my mind, my body, and even my soul are being controlled
Because even with degrading phrases and physical abuse, I feel too trapped and too scared to unfold.
My heart has been broken, dispirited, and re-bruised.
It has no cure, no time to heal, and no reason to be rebuilt.

My confusions run deep as to what my true feelings are
My addiction runs deeper as it tears me apart.
As I tried to understand the thick dark cloud that surrounds me regarding this addiction, I ask myself over and over again, to whom or what am I addicted to?

"My addiction is being trapped in a long lost life"