Dream of Her
I had a dream one night about my mama who died my freshman year. I'm now a senior and until I had the dream I blamed myself for not going to see her in the hospital. When we had the memorial service I put a dolphin bracelet around her wrist and she was buried with it.
Waves crash onto the shore
The moon is rising high
Its clear out
Cloudless
The stars never shined so bright
I speak
My words drift into the night
I hope she heard
A tear falls from my eye
Not from sorrow
For relief
Though I can't hear her
I know her answer
I miss her, yes
But doesn't everyone say life is for the living?
I think to myself
She wouldn't want me to live in grief
She would want the best for me
I wish it wasn't so but I must let go
The guilt I hold has taken its toll
Now it is time I toughen up
Hold my head straight
And walk on.
As I walk down the beach
I feel the spray and mist of the water hit my skin
I taste the salt in the warm air
A splash from the distance catches my attention
I look out and see a lone dolphin
Its her message
Yes she misses me
No she doesn't blame me
She loved my bracelet
Shes sad for my mistakes
Tells me to straighten up
And tells me she wishes the best and happiest life I can make for myself
Just as the dolphin hits the water
I hear the distant sound of her whisper
"I love you" she says
I can't help but smile
Tears fall.
I wake up.
Thoughts rush to my head.
I'm released from the hold
I guess that's what drags most people down when they lose someone
They always blame themselves for something
"if only I was there"
"if only I went to that Christmas
party"
"if only I asked that one question"
But I've learned things happen for their own reasons
We lose to appreciate it when we win
I learned that when one life ends a new one begins
The day she left us
Was the day my cousin took her first breath
Life is a mystery
Not even a wise man can figure it out
Every life is written differently
Some harder than others
But the ones with the harder lives are always the stronger
My mama was strong
She fought till the end
She lived strong and died strong.
I can never forget her face
From the last I saw her
I've never seen anyone look so peaceful
Her pain is gone
And shes with god.
I can imagine her in my head
Every time I close my eyes and think of her
I picture her
Out in the ocean
Swimming with the dolphins
But I know she's happy where she is
With no more pain
Or hurt.
So why should I grieve any longer?
I mean, she's doing better than I am
Besides I'll see her again one day
This home isn't permanent
Life is just a shell we all shed sooner or later
When my time comes...
I can only hope I make it to the promise land.
The moon is rising high
Its clear out
Cloudless
The stars never shined so bright
I speak
My words drift into the night
I hope she heard
A tear falls from my eye
Not from sorrow
For relief
Though I can't hear her
I know her answer
I miss her, yes
But doesn't everyone say life is for the living?
I think to myself
She wouldn't want me to live in grief
She would want the best for me
I wish it wasn't so but I must let go
The guilt I hold has taken its toll
Now it is time I toughen up
Hold my head straight
And walk on.
As I walk down the beach
I feel the spray and mist of the water hit my skin
I taste the salt in the warm air
A splash from the distance catches my attention
I look out and see a lone dolphin
Its her message
Yes she misses me
No she doesn't blame me
She loved my bracelet
Shes sad for my mistakes
Tells me to straighten up
And tells me she wishes the best and happiest life I can make for myself
Just as the dolphin hits the water
I hear the distant sound of her whisper
"I love you" she says
I can't help but smile
Tears fall.
I wake up.
Thoughts rush to my head.
I'm released from the hold
I guess that's what drags most people down when they lose someone
They always blame themselves for something
"if only I was there"
"if only I went to that Christmas
party"
"if only I asked that one question"
But I've learned things happen for their own reasons
We lose to appreciate it when we win
I learned that when one life ends a new one begins
The day she left us
Was the day my cousin took her first breath
Life is a mystery
Not even a wise man can figure it out
Every life is written differently
Some harder than others
But the ones with the harder lives are always the stronger
My mama was strong
She fought till the end
She lived strong and died strong.
I can never forget her face
From the last I saw her
I've never seen anyone look so peaceful
Her pain is gone
And shes with god.
I can imagine her in my head
Every time I close my eyes and think of her
I picture her
Out in the ocean
Swimming with the dolphins
But I know she's happy where she is
With no more pain
Or hurt.
So why should I grieve any longer?
I mean, she's doing better than I am
Besides I'll see her again one day
This home isn't permanent
Life is just a shell we all shed sooner or later
When my time comes...
I can only hope I make it to the promise land.
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