Dream Girl (10)
What is going to happen when Blake leaves?
Hey! Over christmas i realized they aren't letting us post so you will have to read the other ones i wrote also! Hope you like, Hope you love,
Love,
Joslyn Miller
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Sarah's P.O.V.
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Our relationship has been perfect but spring break is coming to a end and I am regretting Blake leaving. Blake and i have talked once or twice about it but try to make the most of his time here. What was going to happen when he left? Would i go with him? Would he just leave me here? Would I have a ton of OTHER recording comp. be calling me? Blake told me all of them that have called so far aren't very good ones. So i am waiting. Mom thinks Blake is perfect! (Which is a very good sign) But Brandon hates him. He thinks we are to 'cuddly'. Brandon can't wait for him to go. Mom doesn't so if i give her the idea of me moving to L.A. with him for my recording contract, she would say yes. We just need the right recording comp.
'Blake?' I asked looking up at him. We were sitting on my couch watching 'A Walk to Remember' and we were half way threw. I was curled up next to him with my head on his shoulder and his arm around me.
'Yea?' he said looking down to me.
'What's going to happen when you leave me?' I asked. He got stiff and talked threw his teeth.
'I don't know.' He replied... like always.
'I don't want you to go.' I say in a sad tone.
'I don't want to go either.' He says. I sat up.
'What are we going to do?' I asked.
'I don't know but let's not discuss this right now.' He said.
'Why not? Do you not want to discuss this cause i will find a way for us to be together and you don't want us to be?' He gave me a angry look.
'You don't think i want to be with you?' He asked putting his arm down.
'Yes!' I say standing up. 'Because you never want to figure something out.'
'Well you should have planned this!' He said harshly. Some tears pushed at my eyes but i tried to ignore them but couldn't. They started to fall and he saw and looked worry.
'Sar-' i cut him off.
'I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS GOING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU! I THOUGHT WE WOULD JUST GO IN DIFFERENT WAYS AFTER I GOT A RECORDING DEAL!' I said. He just was silent. I just ran up to my bedroom and fell onto my bed crying. I don't know why I was crying but i was. Knock Knock. I heard. there was silence.
'come in.' I said in a soft tone. I felt someone lay down next to me and wrap their arms around my waist. I felt him whisper in my ear.
'Sarah, I don't want to think about it because it just causes more pain to think that i have to leave you because i don't know how i am going to live without you.' I felt a few more tears leave my eyes. 'Please, this isn't easy. I can't live without you. I don't know how i did before.' He said. I felt his lips trace my neck and my collarbone, it made me breathless.
'You know how many boys have told me that... how do i know that your telling the truth? How do i know you really love me?' I questioned. His lips stopped for a moment but then continued.
'You just need to trust me. I love you' then he kissed my neck. 'i love you.' he kissed my jawbone. 'I love you.' he said turning me over so he could kiss my lips.
'mmmm' he moaned. He held me tightly. We kept our physical relationship slowly but this was faster than normal. He pushed my t-shirt down a little so he could kiss down my arm. I quickly pulled it up.
'Don't.' i said quickly and out of breath.
'Sorry. I'm sorry.' he said quickly bringing his lips back up to mine.
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Blake's P.O.V.
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I've had sex before. But not very many times. But when i did have sex with a girl i would leave in the morning and never talk to them again. That was the whole drill. I would never really WANT them. they were just pretty so i would do it.
With Sarah it was different. I wanted her... I wanted and needed her forever. But right now i needed her. I needed her body against mine. I needed there to be no rules so i could show her how much i loved her. I needed to show her that but she was strong about our relationship being slow so i restrained myself. Anything she wanted... she could have. I would give her the world if that's what she wanted.
She was the most beautiful girl in the world. The way her hair flowed off her shoulders. The way her light brown eyes had a sparkle whenever she was really happy. The way her cheeks turned red whenever you complemented her or kissed her. The way she giggled at pretty much anything. It all made me breathless. I was so in love with her.
'Sarah?' I asked still tracing her collarbone and neck.
'Yes?' She asked breathlessly.
'Do you trust me?' i asked her bringing my lips up her neck, kissing her, onto her cheek.
'Yes. Why?' She asked still breathless.
'Do you think I would hurt you?' I asked her. She hesitated.
'No.' She finally said.
'You don't seem sure.' I say finally looking at her. She hesitated again.
'I am.'
'Why do you hesitate?' I asked placing my lips back on her neck and collarbone.
'I am thinking what your trying to get at. Why?'
'Do you love me?' I asked.
'More than anything.' She blushed.
'I love you too.' I felt her frown. 'You don't believe me?' I asked.
'I just don't know why you would love me.' She says in a soft tone.
'I do. I do more than anything. Because you are everything i have been waiting for.' I replied. 'How can I prove it?'
'I don't know.' I felt her cheeks heat up and I looked at her blushing and looking deep in my eyes.
'I have one idea.' I looked at her alarmed eyes as my hands went from her waist to her thigh. 'May I?' I asked. She took a deep breath.
'Yes.' She smiled and we faded into her sheets. It was one of the most perfect nights in my life. It made me so happy...being close to her showing her how much i love her. showing her that she is special. It was the best night of my life.
*******Next Morning********
The morning light shown threw the window again and i was cuddling with a pillow instead of Sarah. I opened my eyes to see our clothes still on the floor. I looked up to see Sarah wrapped in a blue robe looking out of the window holding a bible. I heard her sniff.
'Sarah?' I said very softly. No reply. 'Sarah?' i asked again. She turned to me and she was crying so hard. I quickly getting my jeans back on and sitting next to her. 'Gosh, sarah, what did i do wrong?'
'EVERYTHING!' she exploded.
'More specific?' i asked trying to calm her down by holding her hand and rubbing it with one hand and having my other arm around her. She pushed me away.
'YOU GOT ME TO HAVE SEX!' she said trying to fight me.
'You told me i could.' shit that didn't help.
'I DISOBEYED GOD! I HAD SEX BEFORE I WAS MARRIED! OH MY GOSH!' she held her bible tighter to her chest closing her eyes praying to God to forgive her.
'Yes, you did. You had sex before you were married but tell the truth, did you enjoy it? was it the best night of your life? are you glad it was with me?' i asked taking my hands off her to make her more relaxed.
'Yes, i enjoyed it. Yes it was the best night of my life. Yes i was glad it was with you and no one else but i still disobeyed God! I'm going to hell now!' she start to go off all i could do is hold her. she was upset. this was all my fault... all my fault... i ended up breaking my promise and hurting her. God, i am such a ass.
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Hope you like!
Love,
Joslyn Miller
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Sarah's P.O.V.
**************
Our relationship has been perfect but spring break is coming to a end and I am regretting Blake leaving. Blake and i have talked once or twice about it but try to make the most of his time here. What was going to happen when he left? Would i go with him? Would he just leave me here? Would I have a ton of OTHER recording comp. be calling me? Blake told me all of them that have called so far aren't very good ones. So i am waiting. Mom thinks Blake is perfect! (Which is a very good sign) But Brandon hates him. He thinks we are to 'cuddly'. Brandon can't wait for him to go. Mom doesn't so if i give her the idea of me moving to L.A. with him for my recording contract, she would say yes. We just need the right recording comp.
'Blake?' I asked looking up at him. We were sitting on my couch watching 'A Walk to Remember' and we were half way threw. I was curled up next to him with my head on his shoulder and his arm around me.
'Yea?' he said looking down to me.
'What's going to happen when you leave me?' I asked. He got stiff and talked threw his teeth.
'I don't know.' He replied... like always.
'I don't want you to go.' I say in a sad tone.
'I don't want to go either.' He says. I sat up.
'What are we going to do?' I asked.
'I don't know but let's not discuss this right now.' He said.
'Why not? Do you not want to discuss this cause i will find a way for us to be together and you don't want us to be?' He gave me a angry look.
'You don't think i want to be with you?' He asked putting his arm down.
'Yes!' I say standing up. 'Because you never want to figure something out.'
'Well you should have planned this!' He said harshly. Some tears pushed at my eyes but i tried to ignore them but couldn't. They started to fall and he saw and looked worry.
'Sar-' i cut him off.
'I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS GOING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU! I THOUGHT WE WOULD JUST GO IN DIFFERENT WAYS AFTER I GOT A RECORDING DEAL!' I said. He just was silent. I just ran up to my bedroom and fell onto my bed crying. I don't know why I was crying but i was. Knock Knock. I heard. there was silence.
'come in.' I said in a soft tone. I felt someone lay down next to me and wrap their arms around my waist. I felt him whisper in my ear.
'Sarah, I don't want to think about it because it just causes more pain to think that i have to leave you because i don't know how i am going to live without you.' I felt a few more tears leave my eyes. 'Please, this isn't easy. I can't live without you. I don't know how i did before.' He said. I felt his lips trace my neck and my collarbone, it made me breathless.
'You know how many boys have told me that... how do i know that your telling the truth? How do i know you really love me?' I questioned. His lips stopped for a moment but then continued.
'You just need to trust me. I love you' then he kissed my neck. 'i love you.' he kissed my jawbone. 'I love you.' he said turning me over so he could kiss my lips.
'mmmm' he moaned. He held me tightly. We kept our physical relationship slowly but this was faster than normal. He pushed my t-shirt down a little so he could kiss down my arm. I quickly pulled it up.
'Don't.' i said quickly and out of breath.
'Sorry. I'm sorry.' he said quickly bringing his lips back up to mine.
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Blake's P.O.V.
*************
I've had sex before. But not very many times. But when i did have sex with a girl i would leave in the morning and never talk to them again. That was the whole drill. I would never really WANT them. they were just pretty so i would do it.
With Sarah it was different. I wanted her... I wanted and needed her forever. But right now i needed her. I needed her body against mine. I needed there to be no rules so i could show her how much i loved her. I needed to show her that but she was strong about our relationship being slow so i restrained myself. Anything she wanted... she could have. I would give her the world if that's what she wanted.
She was the most beautiful girl in the world. The way her hair flowed off her shoulders. The way her light brown eyes had a sparkle whenever she was really happy. The way her cheeks turned red whenever you complemented her or kissed her. The way she giggled at pretty much anything. It all made me breathless. I was so in love with her.
'Sarah?' I asked still tracing her collarbone and neck.
'Yes?' She asked breathlessly.
'Do you trust me?' i asked her bringing my lips up her neck, kissing her, onto her cheek.
'Yes. Why?' She asked still breathless.
'Do you think I would hurt you?' I asked her. She hesitated.
'No.' She finally said.
'You don't seem sure.' I say finally looking at her. She hesitated again.
'I am.'
'Why do you hesitate?' I asked placing my lips back on her neck and collarbone.
'I am thinking what your trying to get at. Why?'
'Do you love me?' I asked.
'More than anything.' She blushed.
'I love you too.' I felt her frown. 'You don't believe me?' I asked.
'I just don't know why you would love me.' She says in a soft tone.
'I do. I do more than anything. Because you are everything i have been waiting for.' I replied. 'How can I prove it?'
'I don't know.' I felt her cheeks heat up and I looked at her blushing and looking deep in my eyes.
'I have one idea.' I looked at her alarmed eyes as my hands went from her waist to her thigh. 'May I?' I asked. She took a deep breath.
'Yes.' She smiled and we faded into her sheets. It was one of the most perfect nights in my life. It made me so happy...being close to her showing her how much i love her. showing her that she is special. It was the best night of my life.
*******Next Morning********
The morning light shown threw the window again and i was cuddling with a pillow instead of Sarah. I opened my eyes to see our clothes still on the floor. I looked up to see Sarah wrapped in a blue robe looking out of the window holding a bible. I heard her sniff.
'Sarah?' I said very softly. No reply. 'Sarah?' i asked again. She turned to me and she was crying so hard. I quickly getting my jeans back on and sitting next to her. 'Gosh, sarah, what did i do wrong?'
'EVERYTHING!' she exploded.
'More specific?' i asked trying to calm her down by holding her hand and rubbing it with one hand and having my other arm around her. She pushed me away.
'YOU GOT ME TO HAVE SEX!' she said trying to fight me.
'You told me i could.' shit that didn't help.
'I DISOBEYED GOD! I HAD SEX BEFORE I WAS MARRIED! OH MY GOSH!' she held her bible tighter to her chest closing her eyes praying to God to forgive her.
'Yes, you did. You had sex before you were married but tell the truth, did you enjoy it? was it the best night of your life? are you glad it was with me?' i asked taking my hands off her to make her more relaxed.
'Yes, i enjoyed it. Yes it was the best night of my life. Yes i was glad it was with you and no one else but i still disobeyed God! I'm going to hell now!' she start to go off all i could do is hold her. she was upset. this was all my fault... all my fault... i ended up breaking my promise and hurting her. God, i am such a ass.
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Hope you like!
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