Doubts

I stare at you
And know I can't keep doing this,
This...
Lying,
Hiding,
Sneaking
I want more
I want you to come to me and
No one else.

I want you to smile at me,
And I want to smile back,
With no doubts in the air,
I want to know if you really do mean your words,
Or are you just playing with me,
Being the player you were... or are?

I think all these thoughts while you're not with me,
I think maybe it's best if we stop,
If we say goodbye,
After all,
No one expects us to last...

But then I see your face and all that fades away,
Your arms wrap around me and I feel myself melt,
Your love consumes me until there is
No more.

But still I wonder,
Are we meant to be?
Is our love true?
Or is it only lust?
Or is it because we can't be together?

Doubts refuse to leave until I see you.

And so,
I stare at you,
Hopes, dreams, and doubts hang in the air,
Balancing on the slim pole of our love.