Don't Beg!

If you do something terrible to a boy, they are sensitive whether they show you that side of them or not, they have feelings like you or me and they can and will get hurt. When we get hurt, what do we want?

Time, space, a little sympathy and an explanation, well guys want the same...
I recently did something awful to a boy, I broke his heart, he loved me, truly loved me and I threw it all back in his face because I didn't appreciate what I had.

I've given him some time, and I'm still giving him that time...he hasn't talked to me in a while and I just consider this the space. It hurts to watch him walk past me everyday without even a single hello, he doesn't even look at me. One of my best friends has been there for him through it all and relieving my conscience by telling me if he's feeling any better, he's just angry. He didn't understand why...

He asked me for an explanation and I just couldn't give him one, I did what I did on impulse, a mistake, I didn't plan it, I didn't want it but I did it and he didn't like that answer...
So I started to beg, I just wanted us to talk, be friends again but then I took a step back and saw myself in his shoes, looking down on this pathetic, crying soul that has already hurt me beyond repair and I just stopped.

I don't know what to do about my situation but please don't beg, it's not even a last resort, it should never be done, it shows weakness and no independence.

Just needed to rant a bit.