Disintegration

This is that break down you've all been waiting for.
Run far from here, I can't take anymore.
Everything I've ever held dear to me, has run not once, but three.
My sweat blood and tears, could not save thyself from those sheers.
I would sacrifice, more than twice, just to hold you near.
To banish what I lost in fear.
This is where I go south, and lose all hope of regaining ones health.
Number three, he set me free.
And now each wish is made for me, just to see.
See his face, hear his voice, but he gives me no choice.
I'm left in darkness, in shadow, banned from his life of extravagant light and mark this,
its my fault,
I am heartless.