Devilishly Delectable Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Jacobs led me to a black BMW. I quickly slid into the front seat and laid my head back, closing my eyes.
"I’m sorry I didn’t get there fast enough Ms. Sadie."
"It’s fine, just take me home."
"Right away Ms. Sadie."

He started the car and headed towards my apartment. I looked down at the clock and it read four o’clock. Wow. I must have slept for a long time. That wasn’t the thing that was worrying me though. Tate was the only thing that was consuming my mind. If he knows about what happened, he would never forgive me. I had to tell him that it mean’s nothing…didn’t it? I groaned. Why did Maddox have to come back. I was perfectly happy before. My life wasn’t complicated or hard, everything was smooth and just right. The car stopped and I realized we were at my apartment. I looked at Jacobs.

"Thank you so much for saving me back there."
"It’s fine Ms. Sadie. I just wish that I would have gotten there sooner."
I leaned across and kissed his cheek.
"It was nice seeing you again Jacobs. I wished it was on better circumstances though." He smiled and nodded.

I opened the car door and got out as quickly as possible and walked as fast as I could towards the door. I walked inside and saw Pete. He looked at me strangely and he also looked kind of scared.

"Pete? Whats wrong?"
"You might want to get up to your apartment Ms. Cleaver. I think Mr. Granger (Tate) has lost his mind again."
"What do you mean again?"
"Trust me just go quickly."

I nodded then pressed the button for the elevator. Once on the elevator hit my floor I ran to my door as quickly as possible, hesitating a bit, not sure whether I would like what I found. I slowly slid the door across, to reveal one of the worst scenarios I could think of.

There in the kitchen stood…Sonya Latters. Tate’s on again, off again girlfriend. She was the preppy, perfect housewife, socialite girl, with blonde hair and blue eyes and who made me want to punch her fake smiling face. I would give up all my clothes if I had the chance to punch her. Every two seconds she would be touching, complimenting or worse kissing Tate. Each time I wanted to hurl. What the hell was she doing here? I wanted to scream.
I walked inside and she turned around. She was wearing Tate’s t-shirt and by the looks of it, nothing else. I felt like crying. Tate wouldn’t do that to me. He couldn’t and definitely not with her. He knows how much I hate her.

"Sadie, how nice of you to grace us with your presence." She said sarcastically. Oh yeah she is a mega bitch as well.
"Oh Sonya I guess that diet of yours didn’t work." I said in a fake nice voice.
She glared at me.
"What are you doing here anyway." She snapped.
"Oh, I don’t know, maybe its because I live here."
"Huh not for long."
"Whats that’s supposed to mean."
"It means that Tate doesn’t even want you here. After your poor attempt at getting Maddox Hunter, which was a failure to begin with because well your you, it actually pushed me and Tate together and he realized how perfect we are together."
"Oh I didn’t know bitch was his type."
"Whatever Sadie. You can say all you want but in a few weeks I will have him throwing you out."
I took a deep breath, trying to stop myself from ripping out her throat. I turned towards the stairs and ran up them, past my room towards Tate’s. I swung open the door. I found him lying there naked on the bed (the bed sheet covering his bottom half), there were clothes lying all over the ground. His eyes flicked open and met mine. I could feel the warm tears flow from my eyes down my face. His eyes were cold though. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. My heart felt like it broke. I turned and headed towards my room. I could hear Sonya laughing. I opened my door and slammed it shut. The next thing I knew Tate opened it. He then slammed it shut.

"Sonya, Tate? Really?" The tears still flowing.
"I could say the same to you. I knew you would got back to him!"
"Maddox?! You honestly think I would go back to him?!"
"Well that’s what it looked like to me Sadie."
"Once dance Tate! One dance, not even that! I ran out on him. Did you know that? I ran away because I couldn’t stand to be around him anymore."
"Well…he…he was also carrying you out of the party."
"Out of a pub Tate! When I ran away I got so wasted that I passed out and he carried me out of the pub. God!" I yelled.
"Sadie…I didn’t know."
"That’s right you didn’t but you thought that I was too weak didn’t you, and that I must have slept with him."
"No Sadie of course not."
"Then why did you sleep with Sonya?"
"Because I…I…"
"Get out."
"What."
"Get out Tate. Now."

The tears hadn’t stopped running and I felt like I was going to break at any moment. He looked so hurt. HOW DARE HE LOOK HURT! I felt like screaming, He is the one who slept with Sonya. He turned and walked out of the room. I walked over and locked it. I couldn’t help but burst into tears. I fell to the ground. I tried looking for my bag so I could call Reggie. I needed a friend only to find that I left it at Maddox’s place. WHY ME! I wanted to yell.
I found my way to my bed and slowly cried myself to sleep.
I woke to the sound of a person screaming. I jolted up. I looked around wondering what was happening. I realized it was the sound of Sonya screaming in pleasure. I felt like I was going to hurl. I had to get out of there. I looked at the clock and it said seven. I quickly got changed into something that is more me. I decided on a plain black singlet and a pair of short denim shorts and white chucks. I grabbed my black Gucci tote bag and put a white singlet that had a see through white halter connecting to it in as well as my skinny dark blue jeans and my black ankle high boots that had gold squares circling the top for tomorrow. I grabbed my make up bag and toothbrush as well.
I walked out of the room as quickly as I possibly can. I run out the door and shut it behind me. OH MY GOD! I can still hear her. I need to get out of here. I get into the elevator and press the ground button. I didn’t have a car, or a phone or anywhere to go for that matter. Great, just…great. I walk out of the elevator towards the front entrance.

"Ms. Cleaver wait. Some guy called…Madden or Maxwell-"
"Maddox?" I asked not quite willing to here the answer.
"Yeah that’s it," damn, I thought, "anyway he came by to give me your purse he said you forgot it, oh and a letter."
I walked over to Pete. He gave me my purse and the letter. I was hesitant to open it but decided it was for the best.

Dear Sadie,
I’m sorry for the position I have put you in. You don’t deserve it. I am also sorry for coming back and ruining your life, but you have to know that I didn’t mean to do this. I didn’t think that coming back would upset you so much to a point where you would go out and put yourself in a dangerous situation. You have to know Sadie how much I love you. Being without you hurt so much and I only wish that I could give you the reason you so desperately need but I can’t. I wish beyond anything that you knew but I’m afraid I would only hurt you further. I did NOT cheat on you if that’s what your thinking. Sadie Cleaver you mean the world to me and more. You are the only person who will ever possess my heart and I can't think of anyone else who I would want to give it to. You are the only thought that goes through my mind worthy of my attention, in saying that I want to do what is best to make you happy because hurting you is something that I never want to do to you again. I have taken your advice and I am leaving, for good this time. You will never hear from me again. I hope you find someone who is worthy of your love and affection and I hope they make you happy in the ways I never could.
From the man who will love you forever,
Maddox Hunter.

I couldn’t breathe. He was going to leave again. He was going to leave me again! No he can’t. I know I told him that he should leave and stay away but I didn’t think he would listen. I can’t let him leave me again. I don’t think I will get back up this time. Even if I did hate him or feel nothing but anger when I saw him I still needed to see him.
I ran out of the building into the street. I put the letter and my purse into my bag.
"TAXI!" I yelled while throwing my hand in the air like a crazy person. Luckily I got one the first time. I jumped inside.
"Where are you off to mam?" The taxi driver asked.
I gave him the address of Maddox’s apartment. He got me there in less than fifteen minutes. I paid him got out and ran to the front desk. All the reporters had disappeared which made me sigh with relief.

"Can I help you mam?"
"I need to see Maddox Hunter. Now!"
"I’m sorry I can’t do that mam. Mr. Hunter gave me specific orders. I’m not allowed to let anyone up there."
"You don’t understand. I need to see him. My name is Sadie Cleaver. I was here last night. Please you have to let me see him."
"Wait you’re the Sadie Cleaver from the magazines aren’t you."
"Yes, yes that’s me, now will you let me up?"
"Oh I don’t know-"
"Look you won’t get into trouble okay, I’ll make sure of it and if you do well you can sue me? Deal?" I’m desperate.
"Okay fine. I’ll buzz you up."

I walked over to the open elevator and got in. I got to his floor and busted through the door. I looked around. Everything was still in place.

"MADDOX!" I yelled. I heard nothing. No! no! He can’t be gone not yet! "MADDOX!" I yelled again.
"Sadie?" I heard a voice behind me. I turned to see Maddox standing at the bedroom door with a confused look on his face. "What are you doing here?"

"You can’t leave again."
"What?"
"YOU can’t leave ME again."
"I thoughts that what you wanted Sadie."
"Just because I say I want you to leave doesn’t mean I actually mean it, you should know that."
"But you said you didn’t want to be with me."
"Maddox what I feel for you runs deeper than the anger I express. I say I hate you but if you leave me now I won’t be able to fix myself. You left me once but you are not going to do it again. Do you understand me?" His eyes looked so hurt and he nodded.
"Sadie, I’m so sorry."

I realized I was crying. I haven't cried this much in a long time. I dropped my bag and walked over to him. I put my arms around his neck and pulled him into a tight hug. "Don’t leave me," I kept on whispering. "Never," he would always whisper back. After a while I pulled away from him.

"I need a favor." I asked looking down.
"Anything."
"I don’t have anywhere else to go…and well I need a place to sleep." He chuckled.
"Your welcome to stay here."
"And one more thing…"
"Yes?"
"Did you…did you mean what you said in the letter." I was still looking down. I felt his hands cup my face and lift it up.
"Every word." I gave him a small smile.
I gently pulled out of his hands and made my way to my bag. I picked it up.
"Where can I put this?" I asked.
"In the bedroom."
"Oh thanks."

I walked into the bedroom and placed my bag at the end of the bed. I saw his suitcase was half full of clothes. I cringed at that. I looked up and saw the beautiful night, it was lit up by thousands of stars. I walked out of the room to the edge of the terrace.
I started to think about everything that happened to me through the course of this afternoon. I suddenly realized that I had reacted more to Maddox leaving than to Tate sleeping with Sonya. I guess it is because I had a longer history with Maddox but then again he left me, and well Tate was there for me, but Maddox said he left me because he had to not because he wanted to…wait!
I turned and ran back inside, past the bedroom door and into the living room where Maddox was sitting. I walked in front of him, blocking the television.

"Why?"
"What?"
"Why did you leave me? You said you had a reason so tell me…why?"
I saw his face drop. He stood up and went to walk around me but I grabbed his arm and forced him to look at me.
"Maddox tell me why!" He still wouldn’t look at me. I grabbed his face in between my hands. "Please." I begged.
"Sadie you don’t want to know."
"Yes Maddox I do." He brought his hands to my face.
"Please Sadie let it go. If I tell you I will hurt you even more and I can’t do that. I can’t hurt you anymore Sadie so please I’m begging you, just let it go."

I could see how serious he was, he was practically begging me and that is something that he would never do. I promised myself that I would find out what it is, but I guess now isn’t the right time. I nodded my head and dropped my hands from his face, he did not though. I found my hands slowly and unconsciously move their way to touch his. He brought me closer to his body, so close I could feel his breath. I closed my eyes, waiting for the kiss that I was ready for but at the same time scared for and then…nothing. I felt his soft, warm lips kiss the top of my forehead. My eyes flew open and I realised that he wasn’t going to kiss me because he knew I wasn’t ready for it. I found that I was actually really tired. Especially since my whole world was turned upside down today. I pulled away from him.

"I think I might go to bed."
"Okay. I will sleep out here so you can have the bed to yourself."
"No you don’t…have…to…I mean I don’t want to kick you out of your own bed."
"Are you sure."
"Positive."
"Okay."

I walked into the bedroom, took off my shoes and climbed into the bed. I forgot my pajamas so this will have to do. I got under the covers and turned to my side. I felt the covers lift again as Maddox split in. He slid over next to me. I turned to face him and saw he was about an inch from my face. I didn’t flinch though, or move away. I was surprised because I moved a little closer. I felt his warm strong arm grab my waist. I looked into those deep blue eyes and saw the sparkle again. I smiled at that. I placed my forehead on his and closed my eyes. It was amazing how perfectly we fit together but I couldn’t help but think about the secret he was keeping from me. He said he didn’t want to hurt me so it has to be bad but then I kept on thinking about the secret I was keeping from him. If only he knew. Would he hate me for it? I opened my eyes, slowly and found his eyes were shut. He was such a peaceful sleeper and he was so beautiful.
I remember the days that I would just stare at his face. I remember the day I first met him.
I walked into the dinner and I saw him and his friend surrounded by about ten girls all of them were pretty much skanks, (just saying). But I couldn’t help but mesmerize over his features. They were flawless. I remember thinking that I could never have that, so why even bother right? So I walked past him and sat at the booth, alone, once again. I didn’t mind it though. I wasn’t popular and I didn’t have a lot of friends but I liked it. I remember him coming over to me and telling me his name. I remember I had heard it somewhere but I couldn’t recall where. I was so nervous and scared that I ended up running away from him. At that moment though I knew I had fallen for him.

I pictured our lives together, husband and wife. With our hundreds of kids…I felt tears begin to fall. We talked about having a big family. If only he knew what happened to me. If only he knew that I...miscarried. I closed my eyes not wanting to think about it. But I couldn’t help it.
I was nineteen and Maddox was twenty. He had everything going for him. College, sport, everything and I knew I couldn’t stuff that up for him. When I found out I was pregnant I was so happy, even though I was young it didn’t matter because I was going to have Maddox’s child. I was going to tell him the day it was confirmed that I was pregnant but he sounded so happy because he was doing so well in school and everything was going great so I put it off. I thought to myself I would tell him later. Only I miscarried. It was the hardest time of my life. I felt like I couldn’t function anymore. I shut off everyone and everything, including Maddox. My mother was the only one who knew and I intended to keep it that way. Until she referred me to a therapist. He was a sweet old man, his name was Jerry and he is Tate’s father. He helped me through it and just as I was making progress Maddox leaves me. It felt like everything in the world didn’t matter anymore. My body became numb and it took me a lifetime to get it back together again.

I slowly brought my hand up to Maddox’s face and brushed his cheek. I know I have to tell him but I have to find the right time first. I felt new tears fall.
"Please don’t hate me Maddox." I whispered.
I closed my eyes and let the never-ending darkness consume me.

I woke to the sound of the city waking up. I could hear the sounds of cars passing by and I slowly opened my eyes to find one of the most gorgeous man sleeping in front of me. I smiled only to realize the events that occurred the night before. I frowned. I can’t stay here because I know that I will eventually tell him and I can’t do it now. Not here. I slowly and carefully got out of the bed. I found my bag and walked into the bathroom. It was barely six o’clock so hopefully he won’t be up for a while. I had a quick shower, dried myself off and quickly dressed, all under ten minutes. That’s record time.
I walked out quietly and saw that he was still sleeping. I sighed. I carefully climbed onto the bed and leaned over and kissed his forehead softly.
"I…I love you too." I whispered.

I got up cautiously and slid off the bed. I picked up my bag and turned towards the door. I found Jacobs standing there with a grin on his face.
"This isn’t what it looks like." I whispered. I didn’t want to wake Maddox.
"Uh huh." He said sarcastically. I rolled my eyes. There is no point telling him that nothing happened because he wouldn’t believe me anyway.
"When Maddox wakes up tell him I’m…I’m sorry." The smile disappeared from his face.
"I wish you wouldn’t sneak out Ms. Sadie. I’m pretty sure he would love to see you."
"I…I have to go." I walked towards Jacobs and kissed his cheek. "Look after him for me." He smiled.
"I always do." I gave him one last smile and walked out the door.

When I reached outside I realized that I had nowhere to go. I’m ninety nine percent sure that Reggie would be in the office, I am not going back to the apartment (if my life depended on it) and I can’t go back up to Maddox’s apartment. I guess work is the only place that seems reasonable and it will also kill the day. Work on your day off? Somehow that doesn’t sound so bad.

I caught a taxi to my work and when I got there it was as heck tack as ever. There were people running around everywhere. I didn’t know that it was so crazy this early in the morning. I guess I should start coming earlier. I walked in and suddenly I was bombarded with questions from everyone, about Maddox of course. Stuff like…
"What’s it like sleeping with him?...How come you never told us?...Is he amazing in bed?...Whats his body like?...Do you love him?...blah blah blah."
They were just as bad as the journalists. I can’t take it anymore. I walked over to one of the chairs near the large tables. I stood on top of it.

"Okay everybody listen up! Maddox and I dated back when we were younger but we are not dating now nor will we! I will not give you the details of my relationship with him or the dirty details so GET OVER IT! We are here to do a job so lets stop chatting and get down to it shall we? That will be all!"
I jumped down from the chair and walked into my office. Corrine, Ingrid and Reggie chatting to themselves. They had the pictures for the latest spread in their hands.

"Morning everybody."
"Morning babe." Reggie said. He came up to me and gave me a big hug. I hugged him back then suddenly, Ingrid and Corrine came up and hug me too.
"Oh you guys." I felt like I was going to cry…again.
"How are you feeling, babe?" Reggie asked after he pulled away.
"Not good."
"I’m sure the Maddox thing will loose interest soon."
"First of all I highly doubt that and second of all it’s not just because of Maddox."
"What else is there?"
"Tate and Sonya."
"No! Not again!" Reggie said dramatically throwing his arms in the air. He had the pleasure of meeting Sonya and well it was like mixing fire with fire. It was an all out battle but the best part was Reggie won.
"Yeah and the worst part I can even hear them at night."
"Oh god I’m so sorry Sadie."
"Yeah well the only thing that I want to do now is just bury my head deep into my work and leave it there."
"Well I think that would be the best thing."
"Yeah, so lets get down to it shall we. I think that the Chanel perfume ad should come before…"

I spent the rest of the day working and realized there was so much to be done. Which I guess was a good thing. I didn’t end up getting home until twelve and was greeted by the sounds of screams of pleasure coming from Tate’s room. It was only Sonya’s cries though. I cringed inside and ran quickly to my room. I quickly got changed and buried myself deep between the pillows, which drowned out all the noise but the bad side was I couldn’t breathe or was that the upside. I think I might be starting to loose it!