Decoding The Teenager [Part1]

I've been sixteen for four month's now, it's not that long ago I turned sixteen, but too me it seem’s like ages. For someone so young I've been through it all. You name it I probably experienced it. Hearts break (No Surprise there). Physical, emotional and sexual abuse. Sex, drugs & alcohol. Etc.

A parent's worse fear I feel the pressure weighing down on me, which is not good, since the pressure is telling me to do everything that is wrong & the pressure from my parents trying to mold me into the perfect child. Trying hard not to let it win, im suffering in silence, screaming so loud.

Yet no one seems to hear me. Nowadays it's hard to find someone trustworthy to confide in, that's why so many teenagers snap at there parents saying " I Hate you, I wish you would just die!" , they say that because they can't find that someone to confide in, so they keep it bottled up for so long it explodes, destroying anything in its path, not caring it there hurt anyone along the way of redeeming themselves. We all say it, Parent's just don't understand, we all say it so much it just becomes another cliché.

I wonder how adults would feel viewing the world on how I see it, live it and feel it, every f**ked up day of my life. Try to decode how hard it is to be a teenager, from all the drugs & alcohol, to the gangs & violence, murder & teenage suicide.

Take a walk in our shoes and live how we do, then maybe someday soon you will understand. Understand the extra pressure you putting upon us. Call me the worst, call me what you want, I just want it to end I don't want to hurt myself & anyone else no more. How did we get here? How did the world get this messed up where someone can’t even walk alone with out something bad happing. Take a look around catch someone’s glare at you, look deep into there eyes & tell me what you see. I see hurt, I see pain. I can see the truth hiding in there eyes, but then I look again I also see lies and deception.

The question I’ve been asked so many times is; what are teenagers thinking nowadays, what are there plans for life? No one can really answer that not even the teenager him/her self.

Life can be unpredictable, so watch out for what it throws your way.

Why is it that every adult wants to understand a teenager? They all criticize other parents kid’s calling them screws ups & what not, yet they don’t even realize there own child is just the same, they might notice for a little bit and when they do, they try mould them into there perfect little "step ford" kid, who doesn’t drink or do drug’s, haha. Take another look around the addicts are starting to get younger and younger.

If I was an adult judging random teenagers just by appearance, I would think again. You just don’t know what its like to be us, you don’t know what we been through and I don’t think you will ever. How would you feel, when it’s all coming crashing down, how at times you just want to give up and lye down, all f**king high, all screwed up in your mind looking up at the sky and saying you last good-bye.

Never looking back at the never ending world of lies and deception, Gang’s literally drawing in your children, Teenage suicide. MURDER? Sex, drugs & alcohol. So come on, I invite you in to take a walk in our world see how we live, breath, think and all the crap we go through. All the bulls**t we put up with. Come I dare you.