Decisions 10 (Part Two)
When a cruel trick is played on Kim because of the way she looks she makes a decision. She's not going to be the odd one out anymore, and she's helped by an unexpected person. Can she do it?
It shocked and saddened me to see people who always ignored me before, wave and smile like we were friends. On one hand, I had people to talk to, people to sit with at lunch, to hang out with. On the other hand, I've never talked to them before in my life, yet we talk like the best of friends. I guess people in this school were very shallow. But another thing that bothered me; was Cameron shallow? He hasn't talked to me for months, hadn't looked at me, waved or even tired to let on we were friends. All of a sudden he wants to talk again? There was something weird about it. But I didn't want to dwell too much on it. I might jinx it I told myself. Just be happy with what you've got. And I was...to a certain degree.
I was ecstatic that Romeo had feelings for me. I was ecstatic that people wanted to know me. I was ecstatic that people thought I looked hot and commented on it. I was ecstatic that the boys checked me out whenever I walked into the room. I was ecstatic that RJ tried to talk me, but only cuz it meant I was the person to know.
But I hated that the boys were the really gorgeous ones who've never looked at me except to laugh. I hated that I couldn't just be with Romeo without wondering where the shocks were. I hated that asshole RJ thought I'd forget about that party.
Because I haven't. I never will. But I'm going to get revenge on her and RJ. I don't know how, and I don't know when. But I do know it'll be very soon, and it'll be big. Because I'm sick of being the girl who stands by and lets herself get bullied, and then walks away and feel pitiful for herself. That part of me is gone. It's never coming back. And because half of me disappeared, I'm twice as pissed because the space is filled with all my other emotions.
At lunch I imagined ways of humiliating Rachel and RJ but they weren't...enough. It wasn't anything they deserved. If I chucked them into a poll full of deadly sharks, that would be what they deserved. But then I'd get arrested.
"Babe?" I was snapped out of my thoughts by Romeo. He was staring at me, his brow furrowed. When I answered, his face went back to being smooth. I loved looking at his face. It was so...nice.
"Kim, we have to go to class now" he stated. I rolled my eyes and stood up, gathering my tray and bag.
"Let's do this!" I whispered sharply in false bravado and then cracked up laughing. Romeo was staring at me again.
Great, I thought to myself, I'm losing my marbles.
Romeo wrapped his arm round my waist delicately, like I might head butt him or something and we walked slowly out the cafeteria. I wanted to kiss him but that's kind of hard to do while you're walking. Kissing Romeo made all my emotions disappear and all I felt was love...and lust but that's beside the point.
"How were your classes this morning?" he asked. I shrugged.
"Fine. Boring, but fine"
"Did anything happen?"
"No" finally he sighed.
"You know I'd happily punch RJ, right? You know, I'd flipping kill him, if you wanted me too, right?"
I stopped, put my hand on his chest and looked into his face. He was angry; I could see that by the set of his mouth and his eyes.
"No Romeo! You're brothers for gods sake! You're twins. I don't wanna come between family. It's not right. And for something I could sort myself too!" I whispered. He rolled his eyes.
"But you're not sorting it! That's the thing Kim! You're not! What are you gonna do? When are you gonna do it? How are you gonna do it?!" he was holding both my hands now.
"I don't know" he snorted "but I'm going to do something! Soon! I just, need to think. This needs a lot of thinking" I said. He raised his face to the ceiling and then rolled it down to look at me again. Finally he sighed and pulled me into a hug.
"Fine. But if you don't do something...I will" he whispered in my ear, and it sounded so mean, I was reminded of RJ for a quick second. He pulled back and we carried on walking. We must've of looked like right nutters.
School was...school. The rest of the day ticked by and by home time I was drooling at the thought of going home and falling asleep. The only highlights if that afternoon was when RJ tried to talk to me and Cameron did.
RJ came up to me in English. I was writing down what was on the board, and the teacher ran out the class to go toilet. He sat down on my desk and started playing with my hair. I jerked back and asked him why he was touching me.
"Because you're hot" he said, as if that explained anything.
"No. Because, you're a sad, shallow boy, with a twisted mind" I spat at him. Everyone stopped what they were doing to look at us. RJ's smile faltered but never slithered away like I wished he would.
"Oh c'mon Kimmy." I flinched at his nickname "Why are you denying it?" he asked.
"Denying what?" I cocked an eyebrow. In my head, I was actually cocking a gun, at his big fat forehead.
"That you love me" he said seductively. I snorted and pretended to gag. The gun went off.
"Really RJ? Or is just that you love yourself and everyone knows it" I looked around the room" and you just want me to say it out loud for your overlarge, over mistaken, ego" I said the words slowly. He was slipping up.
His smile was a few watts lower, his eyes a bit more narrowed and his fists were clenched on my desk.
"Kim. Of course not. I just want to say I'm sor-"I put a hand up to silence him. Then I stood up, scraping my chair back so that it scratched across the wooden floorboards and made him wince.
"RJ" I said between clenched teeth "If you don't get your arise off my desk right now, that's the sound my nails are gonna make across your face" he jumped off my desk, but didn't move away.
"I don't care whether you're sorry. I don't care...if you think I'm hot. I, don't, care, if you think that I want to speak to you. All I really want is for you and your big ass head, to piss off" I hissed at him. Everyone went 'Oooh' and started laughing. RJ was furious, but he was more scared. He looked around the class, then back at me.
"Fine" and then he went and sat next to Rachel who glaring at him. I guess, for even talking to me. With a huff, I sat back down. I gave myself an imaginary pat on the back. I handled that pretty well. Mrs Ingo came back in the room and Michelle laughed under her breath. Good luck was on my side.
At hometime Romeo grinned at me when I met him at the gates.
"Kim! You were awesome! Oh god, his face!" he laughed. I was confused, was he there? He glanced at me and shook hi head.
"Someone in your class recorded it. It's been sent to everyone at school by now". I was shocked. Everyone had it by now?! Whoa.
"I guess I got my revenge on RJ" I whispered and then I shrieked with laughter and hugged Romeo.
"Man, you were brilliant! I love the bit about your nails, it freaked him out!" he chuckled. I shrugged. So did I. It was the coolest thing I'd ever done.
We got to my house and he came in. We kicked our shoes off, dumped our bags, grabbed some food and went to watch TV in the living room. I made out with Romeo for a bit, we did our homework (on the first day?! C'mon dudes) and then he went home. I was happy. Mum was still at her conference thingy, my revenge on RJ was around school and Romeo's kisses were getting better. What more could I want?
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