X Deception X

Here I go again
For another year around
Alone, another body is in the ground, with a meaning so profound.
Ill minded, now and then, I still remember when these days meant so much to me.
But now they're withering to death.
Kind of like you, my words are lost with every breath.
Trapped in silence, what should I do?
Seeking help but I'm afraid of what they'll put me through.
With nowhere to go, I've got no one to turn to.
Emptiness fills the void of life inside me.
What is there left for me to believe,
When all my life I've been deceived.
Time and time again why are you still scared of me?
When to you, I've done nothing.
Only have I kept to myself for this long that I've caused no harm and done no wrong.
Indecisive and in denial, there's no reason for alarm.
I wanted to be accepted but I'm alone and yet unhappy on my own.
I say I'm fine but everything is different deep inside.
My feelings and emotions hide within the depths of my soul for no one to see how I've created what has become of me.