Dearest

Well take the knife shove it in and twist.
Cause maybe then you'll realize you are dearly missed.

I love you and I care have no effect on deaf ears.
This seems to be taking months which has felt like years.

I guess I've failed you I have no excuse or reason.
To say I hate you is like self loathing treason. 

You tell me not to end my life and stay alive.
But what's the point I don't have the ability to thrive.

I can't fucking fake like you're not killing me anymore.
Maybe this will make you realize where you never did before.

I needed you to say you believed me.
I'm dying cause you never opened your eyes to see.

I hate that it finally came to this.
But as you've said I won't be missed.