Dear Guitar Player: Letter Two
Dear Guitar Player, ....
I do plan to tell you his name and my age but I think it be best if I just tell you in my letters. I still have this fear that someone he knows could read this and tell him, though it'd be a one in a million thing. I will tell you soon though. It's nice to know that someone else out there sort of knows how I feel. ; )
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Dear Guitar Player,
I saw you today for about 5 to 10 seconds. I somehow knew you would still be there after you were done for the day because you told me you lived far and usually you had to go to a friend's house after school and wait for your parents. When you couldn't go to a friend's house then you had to stick around for a while and you usually got bored. I didn't talk to you, and I don't know if you saw me, though I did stay behind to pick up a piece of paper that happened to be on the floor, so I hope you saw me. I've found it easier to be away from you now, slowly trying to detach from this strong like I have for you. I usually forget about it when I'm talking to you though.
I know for sure I'll see you Thursday since we both have Spanish 1 and our last names start from L-Z. We'll have the same class where you're a student with me instead of being a teacher's assistant. I might see you Wednesday, but that's only if you're still sticking around school one hour and twenty minutes after your class ends. I don't know. I did hope to walk with you to a nearby place to give you company but now I'm just feeling a bit foolish.
My friend told me today that my like for you was obvious. Well she didn't say that exactly but she said her mom even knew and I don't know why but I just felt weird. Who wouldn't, right? I think I've told most of my friends (the girls) about how I like you in exchange for the juice on their secret guy, so they don't worry me. I just hate that every time I have to make it obvious. I want to slow my feelings down by staying away from you for a while, but usually when I do that things don't turn out well. I think you know I like you, you're just too nice. I feel like asking for your number just made it final and you might now want to stay away. I usually exaggerate though. I don't know what to do... Just watch though, soon I'll be hard to talk to or hard to catch up with. I might be too worried for nothing, but I usually am.
Last week on Thursday night was probably the worst night of my life. I actually almost called you, all I had to do was press the call button, but of course I didn't. It was the night people just made me feel like I was a rude disobedient daughter and I was confused. I needed to talk to someone, but I felt like all my family was against me and I was also against them at the moment. It was something small between me and my mom and then my grandpa had to get into it and tell me I was treating her like a slave. I wasn't, I just wanted to hug you. You know that day I said I almost hugged you but I didn't because my mom was waiting? Well I sort of wanted to go back and see you again so I said that I had to go to the office and ask something. Well we got into this quick argument where she said she can't park in front and wait for me so I told her to just park in the parking lot. I made her cry, and we didn't talk the next day. On Wednesday we did, but we never spoke of it. So when my grandpa comes and talks to me about I just feel horrible and I just cry. I wanted to cry in the middle of dinner. I just wanted to leave. You know what helped me though? Thankfully my grandpa had a guitar, though it kind of sucked, and I played it. I know why you take your guitar everywhere with you, because when you have no one to talk to and need some cheering up you play it. It makes everything go away. I didn't feel like crying after that.
I guess we'll see what happens on Wednesday and Thursday. I really don't know what to expect, but hopefully we just take our exams and only worry about that. I think now you can see how bad my like is for you and how it almost ruined me and my mom. I should have learned my lesson, but I don't think I want to stop liking you yet.
From a friend who cares for you a little too much,
Me.
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Dear Guitar Player,
I saw you today for about 5 to 10 seconds. I somehow knew you would still be there after you were done for the day because you told me you lived far and usually you had to go to a friend's house after school and wait for your parents. When you couldn't go to a friend's house then you had to stick around for a while and you usually got bored. I didn't talk to you, and I don't know if you saw me, though I did stay behind to pick up a piece of paper that happened to be on the floor, so I hope you saw me. I've found it easier to be away from you now, slowly trying to detach from this strong like I have for you. I usually forget about it when I'm talking to you though.
I know for sure I'll see you Thursday since we both have Spanish 1 and our last names start from L-Z. We'll have the same class where you're a student with me instead of being a teacher's assistant. I might see you Wednesday, but that's only if you're still sticking around school one hour and twenty minutes after your class ends. I don't know. I did hope to walk with you to a nearby place to give you company but now I'm just feeling a bit foolish.
My friend told me today that my like for you was obvious. Well she didn't say that exactly but she said her mom even knew and I don't know why but I just felt weird. Who wouldn't, right? I think I've told most of my friends (the girls) about how I like you in exchange for the juice on their secret guy, so they don't worry me. I just hate that every time I have to make it obvious. I want to slow my feelings down by staying away from you for a while, but usually when I do that things don't turn out well. I think you know I like you, you're just too nice. I feel like asking for your number just made it final and you might now want to stay away. I usually exaggerate though. I don't know what to do... Just watch though, soon I'll be hard to talk to or hard to catch up with. I might be too worried for nothing, but I usually am.
Last week on Thursday night was probably the worst night of my life. I actually almost called you, all I had to do was press the call button, but of course I didn't. It was the night people just made me feel like I was a rude disobedient daughter and I was confused. I needed to talk to someone, but I felt like all my family was against me and I was also against them at the moment. It was something small between me and my mom and then my grandpa had to get into it and tell me I was treating her like a slave. I wasn't, I just wanted to hug you. You know that day I said I almost hugged you but I didn't because my mom was waiting? Well I sort of wanted to go back and see you again so I said that I had to go to the office and ask something. Well we got into this quick argument where she said she can't park in front and wait for me so I told her to just park in the parking lot. I made her cry, and we didn't talk the next day. On Wednesday we did, but we never spoke of it. So when my grandpa comes and talks to me about I just feel horrible and I just cry. I wanted to cry in the middle of dinner. I just wanted to leave. You know what helped me though? Thankfully my grandpa had a guitar, though it kind of sucked, and I played it. I know why you take your guitar everywhere with you, because when you have no one to talk to and need some cheering up you play it. It makes everything go away. I didn't feel like crying after that.
I guess we'll see what happens on Wednesday and Thursday. I really don't know what to expect, but hopefully we just take our exams and only worry about that. I think now you can see how bad my like is for you and how it almost ruined me and my mom. I should have learned my lesson, but I don't think I want to stop liking you yet.
From a friend who cares for you a little too much,
Me.
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