Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

Today was just like any other Friday. I went to the Mastroli house for dinner with my family. Nothing interesting happened, but I had fun with everyone. Tomorrow is our block party so I will talk about that then, but for now all is well.

- Rianna

My name is Rianna Pirelli. I am seventeen years old and I live in New York. I live in Staten Island but my family has a house in the Hamptons out in Long Island so we are here for the summer. Our neighbors who live on our block back home also have a house next door to us here at the summer house. They are the Mastroli family. They are also known as our best family friends. My family has four people in it. My mom, my dad, myself, and my sister Rosanna. My sister is twenty-one. The Mastroli family consists of Mike and Maryann Mastroli, Mark, and Michael. Mark is the same age as Rosanna, twenty-one and Mikey junior is my age, seventeen. We have known them forever, since we were born.

Tomorrow is the block party on our block here at our summer house. It is going to be so much fun because there are going to be so many people. Right now I am in my room getting ready for bed. It has been a long day and I am exhausted.

"Rianna! ...Ree!" screams my mom from downstairs

"What?!" I say as I go to the steps

"Do me a favor, call up Michael and ask him if your sister is at his house because she isn't answering her phone and I need to ask her an important question" says my mom

"Ugh...okay I will call in a little bit"

"Please call now I need to call your aunt back, it is a question from her"

"Okay I will now then" I say as I go back in my room

I hate it when my mom makes me do everything. Why can't she just call herself? Whatever.

I call up Mike

"Hey Ree" says Mike as he answers his phone

"Hey what's up, what are you doing" I say

"Nothing much, watching TV...what about you"

"Same here...um is Rosanna at your house by any chance?" I ask

"Yeah actually she is and uh I think we have a little situation here"

"What do you mean" I say

"Well your sister is here and she has been hanging out with Mark in his room for like two hours now and I have no idea what they are doing"

"Do you think they are together?" I ask

"I don't know but if they are then I have no idea how they are going to tell our parents" he says

"They cannot be together Mike, they can't" I say strongly

"I know they can't Rianna, you think I don't know that?" he says

"Well what's your reason" I say

"I hooked up with you the other day Ree, so like we don't even know where we stand right now" he says

"That's what I was thinking too. They can't be together though because then we will never have the chance. I mean I like you Mike, I have known you forever but I am starting to like you as more than a friend" I say

"Rianna I feel the same way about you...we are both older now and feeling and things change...let me not forget looks lol"

"Definitely...so what are we going to do" I ask

"I don't know, let's talk about it tomorrow"

"Okay, goodnight Mikey"

"Wow you haven't called me that since we were little...night Ree sweet dreams"

Ugh this is a mess I am so confused and my stress level is sky high. Everything is not working out the way I imagined it. When I hooked up with Mike the other night I thought it would help us become more than friends but now this whole thing with my sister and Mark is crazy. I think I am going to have to ask Rosanna straight out about the truth.

Today is the block party and I am trying to help my mom get everything ready between all that's going on.

"Hey Rosanna can I talk to you for a second?" I ask

"Sure what's up?" she asks as she is standing with Mark

"Um in private please...sorry Mark, girl stuff" I say as we go in the house

"What's up Ree, is everything okay" she says

"Well it could be better but I guess so um listen I have to ask you a question and please just tell me the truth okay because it is really important"

"Ask away" she says

"Do you and Mark have a little something going on?" I ask

"What? Wait like you think we are together" she says

"Yeah, are you?"

"No, are you kidding Ree. We would never do that to you and Mike. Listen Mark told me last night when I left that you and Mike were a little concerned about what we were doing all night but we are twenty-one years old and you two have to realize that we are adults and we weren't doing anything wrong we were just two friends hanging out and talking that's all. I am sorry if you guys thought it was something more because, ever since you two were younger you were destined to wind up together down the road and Mark agrees and we would never try to get in the way of that" explains Rosanna

"Wow, that's a relief. Thanks Rosanna you are the best sister in the world. I love you" I say as I hug her

"I love you too, now go get your man, go on" she says

It is such a relief to know that they aren't together because now Mike and I just might have a good chance together. I walk down the block to find Mike because he wasn't home he was playing baseball with his friends.

"Hey can I jump in" I ask

"Guys we get Ree" says Mike as I go on his team and give him a smile

"Rianna you are up" says one of our friends

"Come on Ree, you can do it!" says Mike

I get up to bat and smack a shot down the block. I run as fast as I can around the bases. I touch first, I touch second, and I slide into third and OUCH!

"Oh no Ree" Mike says worried and runs to my side

I got knocked over by this huge kid as he was trying to tag me out and I landed on my head.

"Rianna can you hear me...Rianna?" I hear a voice and I think it is Mike's

"Mm...yea (cough)"

"Can you get up? How many fingers am I holding up Ree?" he asks

"Um two?"

"Aright come on I gotta get you home, come on" he says and picks me up and carries me home

I don't know how many minutes later it was but when I could finally function a little better I found myself home in my bed and my mom and Mike were sitting in my room talking.

"Hey, look who woke up" says Mike as he comes over to me

"Hi" I say. Then I start to cry because I am scared well actually I really don't know why I am crying. I guess just because there are so many emotions going through my body right now

"Sweetie don't cry. Mommy's here what's the matter are you in pain?" my mom says

I shake my head and I don't know why but I felt the urge to hug Mike at this time, not my mom, Mike

I reach my arms out to him and smile. He comes over and hugs me. I am still crying by the way but not as bad

"You okay?" he says quietly as he is leaning over me

I nod my head and smile

"I will be right back I am just going to grab some cold towels and water for her okay Mike" says my mom

"Okay no problem. Do you need any help?" he asks

"No I'll be alright, just stay here with her please"

"Of course" he says and sits in the chair next to my bed

I start chuckling a little bit

"What's so funny" he says

"What happened Mike, how did I wind up in bed with a concussion?" I ask

He laughs and says "It really isn't that funny but uh what is the last thing you remember?"

"I don't know, I guess running around the bases after I got an amazing hit"

"Yeah that was a pretty impressive hit" he says

"So then what?" I ask

"Then let's just say you got clobbered by fat Pete lol and I carried you here because you were so not capable of walking or even getting up" he says

"Thanks Mike for everything" I say

"You know I got you Ree" he says

"I know...I just wish this didn't happen today I mean I am missing the whole block party now and this is the only thing I was really looking forward to all summer. And you...what are you doing here go have fun enjoy the block party you are missing it you know?" I say

"I know I am...that's okay I wanna make sure you are alright" he says

"Well I am, now go have fun I feel bad"

"I am not going Ree...how can I have fun without you...so I am staying here with you because if this didn't happen to you I would be hanging with you anyway and who cares if we can't have fun at the block party we can have fun right here" he says

"How come you are so nice" I say

"Oh believe me I choose who I am nice to Ree and you are at the top of my list" he says

"You are at the top of my list too" I say

"Oh yeah? What list is that?" he asks

"My to-do list" I say and start hysterical laughing

He starts laughing

"No I didn't mean it like that lol I meant that I have to talk to you that's why you are on my to-do list, you know like... things to do: talk to Mike" I explain

"Okay, whatever you say lol" he says

"So what I was going to tell you was that I spoke to my sister and..."

"I am back!" says my mom as she interrupts

"Mom...thank you" I say as she gives me a cold towel to put on my head and some water to drink

"How do you feel?" she asks

"Okay I guess...not 100% but hey I have a concussion" I say

"Okay well you need to rest" she says

"Mom why don't you just go outside...enjoy the block party. Mike will stay with me don't worry" I say

"No I can't do that, I feel bad that you two cannot even go out so I will help in here"

"No really go ahead I can take care of her, you know I am a caring person lol" Mike says to my mom

"I know you are Mike, I know. Are you sure though?" she asks

"Yes I am positive, now go enjoy yourself and tell everyone Rianna says hi" he says

"Alright if you need anything you know where to find me. Thank you Mike I appreciate it" says my mom

"No problem" he says as my mom leaves

"Thanks Mike, I so needed her to leave for a while, she makes me nervous lol" I say

"Do I make you nervous?"

"No definitely not" I say

"Good...so what were you saying before about your sister" he says

"Oh yeah um so I was talking to her and I asked her if her and Mark were together and they aren't." I say

"Oh that's good...so it's true then. Yeah because Mark told me that too but I didn't know if I should believe him"

"No they aren't together, my sister was like we would never do that to you guys because we knew you two were meant to be and we wouldn't try to come in the way we are just friends" I say

"Well good, which is a relief then right Ree" he says

"For sure" I say

"So now what?" he asks

"I don't know, you tell me" I say

"I can show you better than I can tell you" he says and he kisses me. It was a small kiss on the lips due to my current conditions but I didn't complain one bit

"That was nice" I say and smile

"So what do you say...relationship or no" he says

"Well what do you want" I ask

"I want you to be my girlfriend"

"And I want you to be my boyfriend"

"So then it is settled. We are officially a couple and I will never forget this day lol" he says

"Yeah lol I can see it now. Kids me and daddy started going out the day mommy had a concussion playing a game of baseball on our annual block party in the Hamptons lol" I say

"Ha-ha so true" he says

"I think I wanna try and sleep a while. Maybe I will feel better because I have such a headache right now from this stupid concussion" I say

"Okay sleep then I will be around" he says

"And make sure you remember to kick fat Pete's ass when you see him" I say joking

"Oh I will lol" he says

I fall asleep

I guess I slept straight through the night because when I woke up it was morning.

"Hey sis how do you feel today?" asks Rosanna as she comes in my room

"Hey Ro...I feel better than yesterday I can tell you that much" I say

"That's good...so I heard the news about you and Mike" she says

"Oh yeah I'm excited about that" I say

"So am I...so happy for you babe" she says

"What are you up to today" I say

"I have a few errands to run and then I am going out to dinner with the girls tonight so I will call you later on to check on you k" she says

"Ok are mom and dad going to be home today?" I ask

"No they have that engagement party today so no but uh mom said if you need anything to call over to the Mastroli house k"

"Okay thanks Ro have fun today" I say

"Thanks I will talk to you later" she says as she leaves

My cell phone rings about ten minutes later. It's Mike

"Hey" I say as I answer the phone

"Hi how you doing?"

"Pretty good, what are you up to" I say

"Nothing much just hanging...is anyone home with you?" he asks

"No...Ro went out and my parents are at that engagement party"

"Oh yeah my parents went to that too" he says

"Oh they did, where is Mark?" I ask

"He is at baseball practice"

"Oh right today is Sunday I forgot" I say

"What time is it I am going to come over and make you breakfast" he says

"You don't have to make breakfast for me just come over"

"No I wanna make you pancakes...are you still bed ridden?" he asks

"Well I am allowed to get up and hang around the house but only if someone is here with me so right now I am in bed" I say

"Well I will be right over ok"

"Okay see you in a little bit" I say and hang up

My phone rings again

"Hi mom" I say

"Hey honey what are you doing" says my mom

"Nothing waiting for Mike to get here. He is going to make me pancakes and stay here so I can move around" I say

"Oh k good that's nice of him. I forgot his parents were going to this party too, I just spoke with Maryann and I just wanna make sure you are okay and someone will be there in case you need anything" says my mom

"Yeah, don't worry have a good time I will be fine"

"Okay I will call you later"

"K bye love you"

Mike is here now as he comes into my room

"Hey my little patient" he says as he kisses me

"Hi I missed you I fell asleep yesterday and when I woke up it was morning I didn't even get to spend any time with you. Sorry about that" I say

"It's okay you needed to rest, see look how much better you are doing today because of that" he says

"You are right....did you bring the Bisquick Emeril?" I ask and laugh

"Ha-ha yes I did...come on can you get up and get dressed by yourself..."

"Um I can try. I will call you if I need you just wait around up here ok"

"Okay I will be right outside the door"

I manage to get myself out of bed. My head still hurts a little when I move around. I just have to be careful. My neck hurts too because it is stiff. Ugh this is hard to get dressed. I am in so much pain.

"Mike! Can you help me" I yell as he comes in

"Are you in pain" he says

"Yes major...I cannot even get my shirt off. I just wanna put on this guinea tee and these shorts"

"Come here...do you have a bra on...ok lift up your arms" he says as he takes my shirt off and puts the tee on

"Okay I think I can do this part because I have to change my panties lol turn around and don't look" I say and smile

"I won't I am turned around"

I change my clothes and I am done

"K lets go downstairs...thanks for helping me change even though it was a little awkward"

"Why it was like seeing you in a bathing suit...come here I have to carry you down because I am afraid of the steps" he says and picks me up

We go downstairs in the kitchen and I sit in a chair

"Ah I miss this place" I say and he laughs

"Do you want chocolate chip pancakes?" he asks

"Yes, yummy" I say

Finally he finishes making the pancakes and I am starving

"Come here Mike" I say and kiss him...a good kiss lol

"Thank you" I say

"You're welcome" he says and we eat

When we finish eating breakfast we decide to watch a movie. I really don't feel well at all right now. My head is pounding even though I took like five Tylenols it still hurts so much. I start tearing up from the pain

"It hurts so much Mikey"

"What hurts your head?"

"Yes...ow I cannot take the pain it feels like my head has a heartbeat"

"Okay calm down and just try to rest okay...do you wanna go back in bed" he says

"No I wanna stay here with you" I say and kiss him

"Lay down on me and try to sleep. Don't think about the pain k" he says as I am about to fall asleep

As I was sleeping something terrible happened. When I woke up Mike was in the kitchen on the phone with someone and he sounded like he was crying

"Mike? What's wrong, what happened?"

He comes over to me and tells me to calm down and that everything was going to be okay but I had no idea what he was talking about because I didn't know what was going on

"What happened?" I ask

"Rosanna was in a car accident"

"What! When? Oh no is she okay" I say and immediately start crying

"Right now, no, but she will be. She is on her way to the hospital now in the ambulance"

"Oh my gosh my family is like cursed or something like what else can go wrong" I say crying

"Come here it is going to be okay" he says as he tries to hug me but I don't let him. I don't know why but I just wanna be alone right now

"No stop! Mike just go home please I just need to be alone right now I cannot think straight" I yell

"Go home?! I cannot just leave you by yourself Rianna; you can wind up right with your sister if I don't keep an eye on you"

"I will call you if I need you please you live right next door just leave"

"Fine thanks a lot for helping me help you" he says angrily and slams the door on his way out

This is the worst day of my life. It started out as being the best but turned into the worst. I am in so much pain right now and I am hysterical crying. My head is pounding and I feel like I am going to pass out. I NEED TO CALL SOMEONE! I go to the phone but just when I am about to get to it I pass out on the floor.

I woke up again from a terrible event but this time I wasn't in my bed. I was in a bed alright but it was a hospital bed. What have I done to myself I should have never let Mike leave today

"Rianna how are you feeling" says a woman who is probably the nurse

"I don't know, I don't even know what happened, would someone like to fill me in" I say with an attitude

"Rianna be polite they are just trying to help you" I hear my mom say as I see her sitting on the chair in the room

"Oh hi mom" I say

"Well your boyfriend Michael came to your house we are guessing about ten minutes after you passed out and he found you and called an ambulance. Honey if he hadn't done that who knows if you would even be here right now. You already had a concussion and it was only the second day and someone had to stay with you but you pushed him away and this is what happened. Now your concussion can be worse among other things. You should be grateful to him because if you had been passed out for more than ten minutes you probably wouldn't have made it" the nurse explains to me and I start tearing up a bit because I have realized what I done to myself and Mike

"Oh I feel like such a jerk"

"Well our staff here is doing everything we can to help you get through this, if you need anything press the red button and I will be back later. The doctor will be in to see you shortly. Any questions?" asks the nurse

"Yeah actually...how is my sister?" I ask

"She is holding on...you are doing much better than her right now but she should pull through. She is going to need an operation on her jaw it was broken in the accident. She is bruised and cut up a bit in other places but don't worry about her she will be fine. Just focus on getting yourself better for now...that's important" says the nurse

"Thanks Nurse. I really appreciate everything you are doing" I say and she leaves the room

"Honey you know what you did was really stupid and I don't wanna yell at you right now because you are here and you don't need anymore stress but you should know that it was a stupid decision" says my mom

"I know mom... (Cry)...I feel like such an idiot. I was so mean to Mike I feel so bad I made him leave I just couldn't take everything anymore I felt like my body was about to explode and I needed to be alone for a minute" I say as I am trying not to cry

"Honey I know don't worry ok just try to relax and get some rest. The doctor will be in here any second" she says

"Where is Mike?" I ask

"He is home right now but the whole family should be coming by later Maryann said" she says

"He probably isn't going to come" I say sniffling

"Don't think like that Rianna" she says "Here is the doctor now"

"How are you today Rianna" says the doctor

"Okay how are you doctor..." I say not knowing his name

"Doctor Rivera...I was just with your sister, she is doing better. I just cannot believe the both of you are in here at the same time it must be hard for your family" he says

"Right now I am blaming all of this on myself so please don't make me feel any worse than I already do" I say

"I am sorry...let's talk about some good news...here take a tissue and try to calm down. You have to stop crying because I need to ask you questions and give you an examination"

"Okay I'm ready" I say

"I am going to have to ask you to leave the room for like a half an hour or so" the doctor tells my mom

"Sure, I will go and check on Rosanna then. I will be back Rianna"

"So are you in any pain right now?" he asks

"Does my heart count...just kidding um yeah my head is pounding right now and I am sorry I am in a cranky mood I just become like this when I don't feel well" I say

"Don't we all...is there anything else bothering you besides this you seem like you have something else on your mind" he says

"No its nothing ...personal stuff but I will be okay" I say

"Don't mind me asking but is this about your boyfriend? Mike is it?" he asks

"Yeah Mike"

"You know you are lucky he came to check on you"

"Yeah...I know that, everyone keeps on telling me that" I say

"It will all work out it always does" he says

"Thanks I appreciate you saying that" I say

"Now lets finish this examination so you can get better okay" he says

"I would like that"

The examination took about thirty minutes. When Doctor Rivera was done he left and said he wouldn't see me again until tomorrow and he wasn't sure how long I would have to stay in the hospital yet.

It is about four in the afternoon. My mom is still with my sister I guess because she didn't come back yet. I decide to text Mike

I text him 'what sup' but he doesn't answer me. He usually answers me in the matter of five minutes but it has been twenty minutes since that text message. Oh I just hope he comes with the rest of his family later to see me I really need to talk to him.

The nurse comes in around five thirty to check on me

"How are you, do you need anything?"

"No thank you...do you know where my parents are?" I ask

"They are still in with your sister but they said they will be back in to see you tonight. The doctor has them answering questions and filling out accident reports right now so they are very busy"

"Aright" I say disappointed

"But there is a certain family here to see you" she says with a smile

"Send them in" I say happily yet scared

"Rianna sweetie how are you" says Maryann as she comes in and hugs me. Mark is with her

"Hi I am okay, hey Mark give me a hug come here" I say

"How you doing Ree Ree" he says

"Good...so where are the Mike's at?"

"My husband couldn't make it he got called in to work he is very sorry and he sends his regards" says Maryann

"Oh okay don't worry about it"

"Mike is at Rosanna's room right now. We figured we come see you first and then go see her so he can see you alone" Mark says

"Mark you should go see her. She would probably like that a lot" I say

"I know I think I will now then...you are going to be okay right?" he asks

"I am...thanks for coming you guys I will see you later before you leave" I say as they leave the room

I can see Mike looking through the door of my room. He is hesitant to come in but he does.

"Hi" I say quietly

"Hey" he says and walks towards me

We look at each other for a few seconds without speaking

"How is my sister?" I ask

"She's good"

I start crying

"Why are you crying?" he asks. Now he is sitting in the chair next to the bed

"You know... I haven't seen my sister yet at all. I don't even know what she looks like right now or what she is going through. I can't even be there for her through this hard time because of me" I say

Mike takes out his cell phone and shows me a picture he took of Rosanna before when he was visiting her.

"I thought you would want to see her" he says and gives me the phone

I look at the picture for a long time. She looks so much worse than I do. She is bandaged up and her face is messed up because her jaw is broken. She is wearing a lot of gauze because of scrapes and cuts. She is smiling though so I guess she is feeling okay.

"That smile is for you" he says

I smile and sniffle a little

"Thank you Mike for taking this picture" I say and give his phone back

We sit there in silence a little longer

"Mike I am so sorry" I say emotionally and trying to hold back the tears

"Why are you sorry?" he says

"It is all my fault I shouldn't have told you to go home this morning I was just in a really cranky mood because I didn't feel well and then the news of my sister just threw me out of whack and I am so sorry and it is all my fault I am here right now because if I just made you stay then you would have taken care of me and you would have known what to do when I felt like I was going to pass out" I say with tears in my eyes

"Ree it wasn't your fault...I shouldn't have listened to you I should have just stayed with you. I was responsible"

"No you weren't please don't say that...and please just forgive me"

"Ree I was never mad at you or anything you just threw me out of your house and I didn't know what to do so I figured I should give you a couple of minutes to cool off and when I came back I found you passed out on the floor"

"And I am so grateful for you right now...do you understand what you did? You saved my life Michael Mastroli, you saved my life. The nurse said it and so did the doctor. If it wasn't for you I don't know what would have happened to me and I don't even wanna think about never seeing you again ..." I say hysterically

Mike hugs me and holds me in his arms as he scoots his body next to me on the edge of the bed

"I care about you so much Rianna...I have known you my whole entire life and ever since we were little we had a connection me and you. I love you and there is never a moment I won't be there for you. No matter what I am always going to be here Ree, always. Through good times and bad times we will get through them together. That's what comes in the package of being boyfriend and girlfriend, even just being friends" he says

"I know...sorry but can you get up for a second you are hurting my head"

"Lol sorry babe...can I have a kiss" he says

I kiss him for a long time.

"Oh and by the way I love you too" I say and laugh

"You are too much...are you okay now are we good again"

"We were never bad we just hit a small bump in the road" I say

"You are going to get better and so is Rosanna...both of you are tough and you both will pull through this" he says

"I just owe so much to you Mike...I still cannot believe you saved my life ugh I just cannot wait to get better so I can spend time with you" I say

"Soon Ree soon" he says

My parents come back in along with Maryann. Mark is still with Rosanna.

"How are you two doing" says Maryann

"Maryann I love your son just to let you know lol he seriously saved my life"

"I know Ree I know he did...we love him too and he loves you. We always knew you two would be together down the road" says Maryann

"How is Rosanna?" I ask

"She is hanging in there...we are going to get some food from Wendy's instead of this nasty cafeteria food they have here what do you guys want?" asks my mom

"Mm food thank you...I will have chicken nuggets and French fires, large by the way and a coke and get me barbecue sauce too please" I say

"That sounds good I will have uh a large fries and burger please" says Mike

"Okay we will be back...Mark will be hanging with Ro for the night so will you two be okay?" asks my dad

"Yes we will. I love you daddy"

"I love you too baby"

"Love you too mom" I say and they leave

"Hey..." says Mike

"What?" I say

"I think Mark and Rosanna have feelings for each other but they don't know it...they should be together" he says

"They should I mean who cares if we are too that only makes it better and cooler like it isn't illegal to have two sisters from one family go out with two brothers from another"

"We got to get them together" he says

"That will be my first mission when I get better lol" I say

"You got it...come here" he says and hugs me

"I can't wait till my Wendy's gets here lol"

"I love you Rianna"

"I love you too Mikey"

Dear Diary,

I haven't written to you in the past three days because things have been so crazy. To make a long story short I had a concussion then Rosanna got in a car accident then I passed out again and made more damage to my concussion so we are both in the hospital now but we are both on our way to recovery... oh and did I mention I fell in love with Mikey, yeah he kinda saved my life : )

- Rianna