Dear Clock: I Hate You

I feel lost in time, and right now...
I don't feel worth anyone's time.
Such an odd feeling to experience, but of course I feel that strong feeling everyday.
I wish it away, but it comes back harder.
I cannot escape such a feeling.
I cannot.
I would rather my heart stop beating, than continue like this.
Make it vanish.
No longer shall I be a slave to an invisible force.
I will not, cannot accept my fate.
I do not want to lay down and die this way.
Don't let me give in.