Dark Void

I don't know what has become of me
some unknown abyss
some dark, eternal void
consuming all that is inside
far as the eye can see
and the horror of loneliness
something so hard to avoid
especially when the spirit has died
embracing
intertwining
fusing
into my mind
Oh god, the cold!
Numbing everything
as shadows are entering
my helpless soul.
Eventually darkness fills to the top
and the pain of emptiness never seems to stop
as not even the comfort of tears,
of chaos, hate or fear
are welcomed within.
No, nothing at all
and it's slowly transforming me
into absolutely nothing.
I just want to feel something,
ANYTHING!
Happiness or grief; anger or confusion.
May my mind be a rampant, raging sea
or warm rays of sunlight inside me.
Let me feel something!
God, please of all the times I've needed you,
I need you most now.
Heal me, place me inside your good graces.
I am nowhere near perfect
and I am ever so sorry for my sins
but please heal me within.
Put back together
piece by piece
my shattered hopes.
Let me feel,
let me be
someone again.
Banish this emptiness
and loneliness
away forever.
Let me and happiness be together,
otherwise everything will soon
die within me;
the light and hope
gone because of me.
Please make me someone,
something!
Save me from this doom,
this fate
that I hate
destroying me so soon.
Let me feel again.
Don't know how much more
I can take
of this nothing taking
before I take
the easy way out...