Dark or Light?---(Chapter 1. Part 1)

Chapter 1.

Do you know what its like to feel nothing but sadness. To feel so empty that you just don’t know how to function anymore? To feel like your world has been crushed and just not having the energy to rebuild it or not wanting to because it just doesn’t seem worth it anymore? This is how I am feeling at this exact moment. It all began on New Years Eve.

My mother and I were getting ready to go our auntie’s house for the annual New Year’s Eve party.
(You see in our street if you want to celebrate something. A new year, Easter, Christmas, my aunt will throw a party for it. She even through a party for a boy in our street even though she had no idea who he was but that was Aunty and I’m proud of that fact.)
We had random eighties music playing and we were jumping up and down, dancing like no one was watching like we always did. I decided on a black party dress and red high heels (my mothers choice). I decided to let my long golden, brown hair that finished at my hips, out and added just a little bit of eyeliner. She chose a slimming black dress with bright yellow high heels. And put her long brown hair in a ponytail. My mother was a very beautiful women. She didn’t need make up to make her look pretty because her natural beauty stood out. DING DONG, DING DONG! The doorbell rang, pulling me out of my daydreaming. I ran down the steps and opened the door to find Lucus Willfer standing there.

He was a very handsome young man who also happens to be my best friend. He was sandy blonde hair and fell in his eyes, which were an enchanting blue. Lucus had a very nice body with just enough muscle, that didn’t make him look like a body builder. Lucus was my sixteen, my age.

"Took you long enough!" He said dramatically. I playfully punched him.
"Shut up I wasn’t that long!" I said with a laugh.
"Good evening Mrs Olane." Lucus said gesturing to my mother.
"Hello there Lucus and how many times have I told you to call me Maria
"So she gets a good evening and I get a ‘took you long enough’." I try to say in a manly voice.
"I’m sorry Izzy." He said and leaned across and kissed me on the cheek. I blushed. He never did that before.
"Well I’m just going to go now." My mom winked at me and then gave me two thumbs up. She can be so embarrassing.

I think its time to tell you a little about myself. My name is Isabell Olane. Everyone calls me Izzy. My mother had me when she was fifteen. She was people call a hip mother but her parents didn’t think so. They said that she was either to get an abortion or to leave and never come back. I guess you can figure out which one she picked. My father ran out on her before I was born. He started writing to me around nine years ago. At first I started to write back to him but every time I would get a letter from him I could see my mothers heart break. I know that I should have kept writing to him but he was the one who left my mother fend for her own so I started to send the letters back. It didn’t stop him though.

My aunty moved out of the house with my mother and helped us. We aren’t rich but we get by and I’m happy with it. It has just been us two ever since.

"Smooth." I said to Lucus.
"I try." He said with gorgeous smile. I rolled my eyes and started to walk towards the house. Oh and my aunty lives five houses down from us.

"So…what are your new years?" I asked.
"Hm…I’m going to devote myself to you and only you."
"Ha-ha. I’m being serious."
"Okay fine. I guess…I want to find a girl and hold onto her forever. What about you?"
"Hm…I want to find a guy and hold onto him forever." I start to giggle.
"Shut up. My one is good and I have a feeling that I will be fulfilling my New Years resolution tonight." I turned to look at him. His face had suddenly gone serious. He leaned in slowly and kissed the side of my mouth. I blush and look down.
"Come on. Jess and Mitch are probably waiting." I grab his hand and entwined our fingers.

We walked up the stairs into the house. The whole street was there. We pushed our way through the crowd to the backyard. When we got there we saw Jess and Mitch in the corner sitting on the benches. We walked over to them.

What took you guys so long? Getting the New Years started already?" Jess said winking at me.
"Funny." I said rolling my eyes. I sat down next to her. "So are you and Mitch going to get together?" I said whispering to her.
"Now who is the one being funny."
"Seriously. You guys should just act on your feelings. You both like each other right?"
"Right."
"Then just go for it."
"Fine. I’ll make you a deal. When you make a move on Lucus, I’ll make a move on Mitch." She said sticking her hand out.
"Deal." I said shaking her hand. OKAY YOU CAN DO THIS. I thought to myself. I slowly got up and walked over to Lucus.
"D-do you want to dance?" I stammered and then blushed.
"Yeah. A-absolutely." His voice was shaky and when I grabbed his hand it was starting to sweat. That always happened when he was nervous. I started to giggle.
I pulled him to the dance floor that was in the backyard. It was basically a wooden floor with lights all around it but it did look pretty. We started to dance and at that moment I closed my eyes and I felt so whole. I felt his forehead press to mine. My eyes flickered open to see him looking at me. His beauty then made me gasp. He leaned his head in and kissed me. His lips were so soft and warm. Next thing I knew he picked me and was spinning me around. I couldn’t help but laugh. The whole time I was looking in his eyes and I knew that this is it. This is what endless books have described. True love. He put me down and just held me. I looked into the window of the house to see my aunty and my mother smiling so big, I couldn’t help but smile back.

"We should probably get inside. It is like ten minutes till midnight." Lucus whispered in my ear. I nodded my head. We went inside the house and pushed our way to the living room. That took about ten minutes then I remembered my mother.
"I have to go and see my mum. I’ll be back in a second okay." I kissed him one last time then made my way to the kitchen. When I finally got there I ran over to my aunty and mother and gave them a tight hug.
"Happy New Year Aunty, mum."
"Happy New Year baby." My mother said.
"It looks like it’s going to be a good one for you."
"What?" They looked at each other and started to laugh.
"Lets just say your mother is going to be staying her to help me clean up tonight." It clicked then.
"OH MY GOD! Please tell me you not actually having this conversation."
"Oh relax Izzy, we all know you were going to do it soon."
"Okay. I’m going to go now." I turn and start to walk back towards Lucus.
"DON’T DO ANYTHING WE WOULDN’T!" I heard my aunt yell. I turned and glared at her. Then started to push my way back.
"10! 9! 8! 7! 6!" Everyone started to scream. NO! I thought. I needed to find him. "5! 4!" Where is he! "3! 2!" NO! "1! HAPPY NEW YEAR!"
Suddenly I felt someone spin me around and I felt lips on mine. Immediately I knew it was him. I pulled Lucus closer to me. He pulled back to rest his forehead on mine.
"Happy New Year." He whispered.
"Happy New Year." I whispered back. I looked into his eyes. "Do you want to get out of here?" I whispered seductively. That line seems to work in the movies so I decided to take my chances.
"Yeah." I grab his hand and we made our way out of there. We walked/jogged down the road to my house. When we got there I through it open pulled him inside then closed the door. He picked me up bridal style and walked me up the stairs. I got to my room and he shut the door. He walked over to me and started to undress me. He was going slow and being careful which is what I always loved about him. He was always making sure it was what I wanted. That nigh soon became a night that I would never forget. We made love. It’s funny because I didn’t actually think that it was possible for someone to do that. To make love but we did and I am happy to say that I was wrong. I was lying in his arms when I decided to finally say it.

"Lucus."
"Yeah?"
"I…I love you." I closed my eyes. A part of me regretting what I had said and the other part scared shitless about what he was going to say.
"I love you to." The way he said it. You could just tell the seriousness in his voice but somehow you could just detect that sadness. I didn’t mention it though. I just savored the moment. I soon fell asleep in his arms feeling completely happy.