Conflicted

I hate what you've done,
and the life you left me,
But I can't let you go.

I loved how you always,
Looked at me for approval,
But other times you don't care
Who it effects?, everyone else.

False love,
Hanging on the walls
You are not my friend
When you go awol.

You say you look out for me,
But all you do is blame me,
My mind shuts down with your screaming.

Please! Please! Do not yell.
For I cannot tell
when you are calm.

Please, Please,
Don't look at me,
I don't want to be seen,
Not right now.

Stop, Drop,
And I'm rolling on the ground,
Because I'm on fire from the hot seat,
On which I was bound.

My head aches,
I'm sick of anxiety,
My arms go limp,
Because of all the blame.

I was the perfect friend,
Never double-crossed,
But if you really want
To leave me facing this endless dream
Fine....

I'm so conflicted,
Don't know where to go,
I should be angry but I'm all alone.

If only you'd know,
which way things will go,
But I'm going home, just leave me alone.

I'm so conflicted, and I have fresh scars,
You'll realize I'm leaving,
So you lock my windows with bars.

Shut your eyes,
Count to ten,
And when your done,
Open them,
I'll be gone,
You'll be alone,
I'll be the vampire,
And you'll shove the steak into my heart