Complications 8
Confused: lacking logical order or sense.
Sorry it has been so so so long! At the moment, I'm caught up with revision work for exams and so it has been impossible to find the time to sit a write! I will attempt to write an article a week but I can't promise!
Wellwisher - Danyll's character is meant to be slightly creepy and you guessed right, he isn't human but that side of him only shows slightly until Jane really gets to know him.
And you must have heard of soulmates and when you meet them you just know - the idea is that in Danyll's 'species' I suppose, it just hits them. Jane feels it too but she doesn't understand it because she's human - you see? Sorry that, that hasn't been clear throughout.
Jk', Hannah and Moni - Thanks for commenting, I don't think I'd really have continued without them!
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Chapter 9
Jane's P.O.V
I was sitting in Danyll's apartment showing him my first ideas for his place, he moved to stand behind me and leaned over my shoulder to look more closely at some of my work, I took a deep breath. God daaamn, the man was heaven, I was struggling to pay attention to what he was saying my head was spinning and when he talked I couldn't stop staring at his lips; gorgeous lips, ones that I could nibble on all day. He saw me watching and stopped.
"Jane, are you alright?"
"Yes, I'm fine, I just..." I trailed off not knowing what to say, the blush that was now becoming incredibly familiar to me crept up my cheeks.
"You just...?" He didn't let me answer, just bent down and pressed his lips to mine, quite gently at first then pulled away taking in my reaction. My eyes remained closed, head tilting upwards as I tried to keep in contact, then he leaned in again, taking his time, slowly coaxing my mouth to open and let him take over my own. I couldn't help it, a small moan escaped me and in response I heard a deep chuckle. This time, I opened my eyes to see his face still close to mine, his breath gently caressing my now red lips; a small smile on his face that showed off his dimples. I placed my arms around his neck and he pulled me up to hold my body against his before he leaned in only to softly bite my bottom lip. He took a step back looking into my eyes. "Sorry, I couldn't help myself." A crooked grin spread across his face.
"I'm not complaining." Oh my god, I can't believe I just said that, I can't believe I just did that! What was I supposed to do now? Would he expect me to have sex with him... not that I would deny him, but I couldn't. I was pregnant! I didn't even know how to deal with that and this man would leave me as soon as he found out about the baby, I couldn't fall for him anymore than I had. I couldn't be left again, hurt again. I just didn't know what to do. I had to get out of there.
"Um, sorry. I need to go, I said I'd have lunch with my sister today." Which was true, I wasn't exactly lying but it was 11am and we were meeting up at 2. A shadow flickered across his face but it was gone in the blink of an eye.
"Oh, alright then. Can I see you tonight?" I could hear the eagerness in his voice and part of me wanted to say yes so badly, but I had things I needed to sort out before then.
"I'm busy tonight but I will check my diary and let you know when I'm free, okay?" Without waiting for an answer, I grabbed my bag and got the hell out of there.
Danyll's P.O.V
Jane made no sense what-so-ever. I knew she was lying to me, she was a terrible actress but why did she let me kiss her if she was just going to run. God Dammit! Typical me to do something to scare her off. I'd have to leave her for now, I didn't know what I'd done but it was best if I just waited for her to call me. I didn't want to lose her, not that I had actually got her yet. I would never take her against her will, no. I could never do that to her, I couldn't ever hurt her and I knew that most definitely would. Doubt flickered across my mind though, what if in the end she didn't want me? Would I be able to let her live her life with another man?
She stood across the room from me, standing next to the table with her back to the door. I could tell she was nervous, not only from her body language but from the conversation we'd had on the phone earlier.
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"Danyll?"
"You call my phone and expect it to be someone else?"
"No, I suppose not. Sorry. Well, anyway, we need to talk."
"Okay, so talk."
"Not on the phone, can we meet. Tonight, if possible."
"Sure, where?"
"Your place? I will be there in about an hour."
"Okay then, I will see you soon." And with that she'd hung up.
The look on her face at that moment in time mirrored how her voice had been on the phone, desperate, worried. I gestured for her to sit before taking the seat opposite her.
"So, what do we need to talk about that needed such urgent attention?"
"It's about earlier today." She cringed as she said that. Ah, so she already regretted it, I should have known.
"What about it?" Attempting to keep a steady voice, not betraying how much that hurt me.
"It can't happen again. I don't know what you thought might come from it, but we can't have a relationship or anything of that sort. But, I mean, I didn't assume you wanted that... obviously you don't want that. I'm just telling you in case..." she trailed off, the pain in her eyes betraying her words.
"Jane, tell me. Why did you say we can't, not that you didn't want that?"
"Because, I would want it but everything's far too complicated and it isn't something that you would want to get messed up in."
"Tell me."
"Tell you what?"
"What it is that makes your life so complicated that there would never be a chance of us having anything? I thought I'd made it clear that I liked you, so you're wrong when you say I don't want you."
"Danyll. We can't. Please, let us leave it at that?"
"I can see it in your eyes, you know. Everything seems to leak into those big beautiful eyes. Fear, worry...desire" He whispered the last word. "Haven't I made it clear that I'm not just looking for one- night? You must know that. I'm not about the pick up and leave. I'm also not going to let this go."
She looked so lost, her look pleading. She steeled herself and whispered, "I'm pregnant" before swiftly averting her gaze. Shock ran through my body, she was pregnant? How could I not have noticed? I had been too wrapped up in wanting her and getting to know her that I hadn't noticed the changes going through her body. I growled inwardly, my animal always picked up on things like this - I can't believe I hadn't noticed! I forced myself to take a deep breath before asking,
"Who's the father? You don't have any relationship going on at the moment, otherwise you wouldn't have let me kiss you."
"My ex. I'm sorry Danyll."
Jane's P.O.V
My heart was beating faster than a butterfly's wing. I stared at his face, attempting to read him but his features betrayed nothing. He stood up and slowly made his way to sit beside me, taking my hands in his.
"I don't care that you're pregnant. I just want to see how this - if there is anything between us, goes. I will help you through it. We've not known each other long but I would never want to see you hurt. I know you might not want to, but if you're up to giving us a try then I'd like that. Very much." I was speechless, what could I say to that? I was expecting to come here tell him and leave before getting hurt, but this. I wanted him and apparently he still wanted me too.
"I want to give it a shot but it's not gonna be easy y'know, mood swings and all."
"I know," He smiled and kissed me sweetly on the lips. "But you're worth it, I'll be here all the while. I'm not going anywhere." It made me feel all warm inside at how he was already planning long term. Sure that frightened me, but a baby was going to be around even longer and so this, well, this I could deal with. I could deal with a gorgeous, hunky man in my life, especially if he was always as caring and sweet as he had been these last few days. I sighed and leaned into him, for now I could be happy.
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Comments please! ( :
Advice and helpful criticism needed
Many thanks.
Wellwisher - Danyll's character is meant to be slightly creepy and you guessed right, he isn't human but that side of him only shows slightly until Jane really gets to know him.
And you must have heard of soulmates and when you meet them you just know - the idea is that in Danyll's 'species' I suppose, it just hits them. Jane feels it too but she doesn't understand it because she's human - you see? Sorry that, that hasn't been clear throughout.
Jk', Hannah and Moni - Thanks for commenting, I don't think I'd really have continued without them!
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Chapter 9
Jane's P.O.V
I was sitting in Danyll's apartment showing him my first ideas for his place, he moved to stand behind me and leaned over my shoulder to look more closely at some of my work, I took a deep breath. God daaamn, the man was heaven, I was struggling to pay attention to what he was saying my head was spinning and when he talked I couldn't stop staring at his lips; gorgeous lips, ones that I could nibble on all day. He saw me watching and stopped.
"Jane, are you alright?"
"Yes, I'm fine, I just..." I trailed off not knowing what to say, the blush that was now becoming incredibly familiar to me crept up my cheeks.
"You just...?" He didn't let me answer, just bent down and pressed his lips to mine, quite gently at first then pulled away taking in my reaction. My eyes remained closed, head tilting upwards as I tried to keep in contact, then he leaned in again, taking his time, slowly coaxing my mouth to open and let him take over my own. I couldn't help it, a small moan escaped me and in response I heard a deep chuckle. This time, I opened my eyes to see his face still close to mine, his breath gently caressing my now red lips; a small smile on his face that showed off his dimples. I placed my arms around his neck and he pulled me up to hold my body against his before he leaned in only to softly bite my bottom lip. He took a step back looking into my eyes. "Sorry, I couldn't help myself." A crooked grin spread across his face.
"I'm not complaining." Oh my god, I can't believe I just said that, I can't believe I just did that! What was I supposed to do now? Would he expect me to have sex with him... not that I would deny him, but I couldn't. I was pregnant! I didn't even know how to deal with that and this man would leave me as soon as he found out about the baby, I couldn't fall for him anymore than I had. I couldn't be left again, hurt again. I just didn't know what to do. I had to get out of there.
"Um, sorry. I need to go, I said I'd have lunch with my sister today." Which was true, I wasn't exactly lying but it was 11am and we were meeting up at 2. A shadow flickered across his face but it was gone in the blink of an eye.
"Oh, alright then. Can I see you tonight?" I could hear the eagerness in his voice and part of me wanted to say yes so badly, but I had things I needed to sort out before then.
"I'm busy tonight but I will check my diary and let you know when I'm free, okay?" Without waiting for an answer, I grabbed my bag and got the hell out of there.
Danyll's P.O.V
Jane made no sense what-so-ever. I knew she was lying to me, she was a terrible actress but why did she let me kiss her if she was just going to run. God Dammit! Typical me to do something to scare her off. I'd have to leave her for now, I didn't know what I'd done but it was best if I just waited for her to call me. I didn't want to lose her, not that I had actually got her yet. I would never take her against her will, no. I could never do that to her, I couldn't ever hurt her and I knew that most definitely would. Doubt flickered across my mind though, what if in the end she didn't want me? Would I be able to let her live her life with another man?
She stood across the room from me, standing next to the table with her back to the door. I could tell she was nervous, not only from her body language but from the conversation we'd had on the phone earlier.
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"Danyll?"
"You call my phone and expect it to be someone else?"
"No, I suppose not. Sorry. Well, anyway, we need to talk."
"Okay, so talk."
"Not on the phone, can we meet. Tonight, if possible."
"Sure, where?"
"Your place? I will be there in about an hour."
"Okay then, I will see you soon." And with that she'd hung up.
The look on her face at that moment in time mirrored how her voice had been on the phone, desperate, worried. I gestured for her to sit before taking the seat opposite her.
"So, what do we need to talk about that needed such urgent attention?"
"It's about earlier today." She cringed as she said that. Ah, so she already regretted it, I should have known.
"What about it?" Attempting to keep a steady voice, not betraying how much that hurt me.
"It can't happen again. I don't know what you thought might come from it, but we can't have a relationship or anything of that sort. But, I mean, I didn't assume you wanted that... obviously you don't want that. I'm just telling you in case..." she trailed off, the pain in her eyes betraying her words.
"Jane, tell me. Why did you say we can't, not that you didn't want that?"
"Because, I would want it but everything's far too complicated and it isn't something that you would want to get messed up in."
"Tell me."
"Tell you what?"
"What it is that makes your life so complicated that there would never be a chance of us having anything? I thought I'd made it clear that I liked you, so you're wrong when you say I don't want you."
"Danyll. We can't. Please, let us leave it at that?"
"I can see it in your eyes, you know. Everything seems to leak into those big beautiful eyes. Fear, worry...desire" He whispered the last word. "Haven't I made it clear that I'm not just looking for one- night? You must know that. I'm not about the pick up and leave. I'm also not going to let this go."
She looked so lost, her look pleading. She steeled herself and whispered, "I'm pregnant" before swiftly averting her gaze. Shock ran through my body, she was pregnant? How could I not have noticed? I had been too wrapped up in wanting her and getting to know her that I hadn't noticed the changes going through her body. I growled inwardly, my animal always picked up on things like this - I can't believe I hadn't noticed! I forced myself to take a deep breath before asking,
"Who's the father? You don't have any relationship going on at the moment, otherwise you wouldn't have let me kiss you."
"My ex. I'm sorry Danyll."
Jane's P.O.V
My heart was beating faster than a butterfly's wing. I stared at his face, attempting to read him but his features betrayed nothing. He stood up and slowly made his way to sit beside me, taking my hands in his.
"I don't care that you're pregnant. I just want to see how this - if there is anything between us, goes. I will help you through it. We've not known each other long but I would never want to see you hurt. I know you might not want to, but if you're up to giving us a try then I'd like that. Very much." I was speechless, what could I say to that? I was expecting to come here tell him and leave before getting hurt, but this. I wanted him and apparently he still wanted me too.
"I want to give it a shot but it's not gonna be easy y'know, mood swings and all."
"I know," He smiled and kissed me sweetly on the lips. "But you're worth it, I'll be here all the while. I'm not going anywhere." It made me feel all warm inside at how he was already planning long term. Sure that frightened me, but a baby was going to be around even longer and so this, well, this I could deal with. I could deal with a gorgeous, hunky man in my life, especially if he was always as caring and sweet as he had been these last few days. I sighed and leaned into him, for now I could be happy.
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Advice and helpful criticism needed
Many thanks.
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