Chasing Rainbows

Lost in time and lost in thought,
Chasing dreams that amount to naught,
Chasing rainbows that have no end,
Shouting obscenities into the wind,
Crying tears of shear frustration,
I have no harmonious composition.

Inside, my heart is scarred,
Outside, the rain falls hard,
Across the room a candle flickers,
But on my side the shadows linger,
The darkness infiltrates my brain,
Slowly driving me insane.

I'm trying hard to kill my past,
To burn the memories from my heart,
To tear the ceremonies of our love,
And bin them, where they belong,
Maybe then I will barely survive,
The shear agony I'm feeling inside.

Reality is so hard to bear,
The realization that you don't care,
But slowly it starts creeping in,
And slowly I get back my mind,
And I slowly start to kill my past,
And break free from the spell you cast.

I'm slowly creeping back to life,
As I slowly start to realize,
You pushed me to my limits end,
Playing your games of pretend,
Your love I could not comprehend,
But your heartlessness, I understand.

Should I martyr myself to your cause?
I did once, but not anymore,
I even banged my fists on the floor,
But still you slammed the door,
Now it's stuck fast and your locked in,
Screaming at me to come back again.

But I'm no longer chasing rainbows,
I'm no longer chasing fools gold,
To me, you're no longer an attraction,
Scream all you like, you'll get no reaction,
My tears that spilled to overflow,
Have evaporated with the rainbow.