Can I Trust You With the Rest of My Life? Chapter 1

Chapter One

I was just staring outside my window. I don't know what came over me today I shouted at my mom for no reason. We used to be so close two years ago, now it's nothing between us anymore and it scares me. Her and my dad Michael don't get along, they keep fighting and I keep hurting for everything they say to each other. My mom isn't the best person in the world and she hurts my dad a lot but sometimes she really crosses the line, like last year she flirted with a guy, my dad's friend while me and my dad were there with her. I don't know what is up with her lately but I don't like it. She was so close to hitting me today in the kitchen that I just walked away. She scared the hell out of me, she never laid hands on me before and I'm not sure I want her to now.

In a week we have planned to go to France, which I can't wait cuz it's my seventeen birthday, we haven't taken much about it like we always do when we go in vacations, my mom and dad just told me one afternoon to start packing because we will go for a few months, maybe the whole summer. I don't know why they are not exited, but I sure am.

I look inside the red suitcase I have from my mom, there is nothing much, just a few new shirts, skirts and dresses that I loved and had to buy, I mean this is like the awesomest vacation we have been in lately. I remember when we went to Italy when I was twelve, when Kate my mom and Leo, my dad were still so much in love you should read it in their eyes, I love that, sometimes I wish it would be the same, that nothing changed over the years. But it has, so much.

Looking in my mirror I realize how different am I from both of them. Kate has brown straight hair and Leo had it blond and wavy, why is mine black? My eyes are dark blue, Leo's are light and Kat's are light brown. The only thing me and my parents had in common was the tall figure. I mean I was tall and I had slender hips just like my mom and I had pale white skin just like Leo. But there were so many differences. It gave me a headache thinking about it so I quit it.

I paint my nails in a shade of plain purple and I lay on my bed smiling. A few days and I will be in France. God I couldn't wait for it, it was so amazing just thinking that I will go and see the awesomest part of the world, a piece of fashion heaven. Yes I am addicted and obsessed with everything that has anything to do with fashion. I can make some simple shorts and a T look like a masterpiece and I am not showing off. Once I went to this party and I was wearing an overlarge t-shirt from my friend and I made it a dress in 10 minutes, and a really nice one. I just need a few needles, scissors and some wire and I'm done. Yes I am a genius I know. God I can barely wait.
Oh damn I ruined my beautiful manicure waving my hands back and forth.

"Melanie! Come here for a second please!"
I hurried down my bed and out the door to my mom's bedroom. Yes my mom and dad have separate bedrooms that's how bad things are if you didn't believe me. I knew I did something wrong, she always has that tone when she is about to start a fight with me. I hate that I hate it so much I just wanted to punch something and I felt my temper rising.
"Melanie, please tell me what is that doing in bathroom."
She pointed at a small squared packet that looked like a. . . what the. . .!!
"Mom that is not. . . "
"What I think? Save it Mellanie. What have you. . . "
"No, mom! That is not mine! You have to believe me!"

There in the trash can lie some packed condoms. I know how it looks but I am still a virgin so it's not mine, and why is she making a big deal it's just a condom, and it's not used for crying out loud. I felt a cold had hit my face and I fell on the floor. My face stung, my mom just slapped me. What the hell was her problem! She came over me with her eyes full of hatred and looked me in the eyes.
"Listen to me young lady, you will not ruin my life do you understand? We will go to the doctor just to make sure you are not pregnant, get your clothes on and don't you dare wake your father up. Move."

I got up fast and I went to my room. My mom hit me, and it hurt more than anything that she didn't believe me. What the hell, I was still a virgin I will tell the damn doctor to check if she didn't believe me. I got in a pair of faded jeans and a blue shirt and I was done. I don't wear makeup so I just applied a little gloss and that was it. My hair looked good enough, but my face was red. I was so shocked I couldn't even cry. What was wrong with her? Ruin her life? What the hell, it was my problem! No Melanie it is not, you are still 16 years old you can't rule your own life, your parents do it for you. Yeah right, what am I talking to myself? No you moron your conscience! Oh god I'm going crazy.
I picked up my phone and went downstairs not looking at my mom while getting in the car.

Kat's POV

I had plans I was not going to let this little brat ruin them they were my plans, it was my life. I never really wanted a baby , but when the opportunity came up I took it, I took her and lots of money, now I was going to get more, way more than the first time and I was going to make sure of it. It didn't matter if she was a virgin or not, as long as she was not having a damn baby. If she was, then she was going to rid herself of it, I was her mom, I decided. A smile ran across my face. Mom? Yeah, when she was small I like the games and everything, but now, I had to be as less emotional as possible, I couldn't care, the only thing that mattered were the money. The sweet money I'm going to get out of this again.

Melaine's POV
We got to the clinic without an appointment but the doctor was not busy so we got in. The office was nice, white, and it smelled like pills and alcohol. Oh well, I guess I have to do this. . . no choice.

I would not like to get into the details, but my mom seemed pleased in the end. I was disgusted that she would go this far. I didn't have the heart to look at her, I didn't have the stomach either, I would've puked. The easy summer wind moved my hair lightly as I walked to the car tickling my neck. I opened the door and I sunk in the black leather chair of my mom's BMW opening my I-pod. She didn't even bother to say sorry or anything. I think I hate her, actually I'm sure of it.

Half an hour later we got home and I didn't bother saying anything I just went upstairs to my room and turned off the lights moving close to the window. I just stood there with the lights closed looking outside, but not seeing anything, until a red shining car caught my eye. It was parked there, in front of my house for quite some time, but I didn't notice it until the lights went on. I didn't see the driver, but it was a very expensive car. I looked at it for at least half a minute before it drove off, and suddenly I felt so alone, like there was nothing for me in the world anymore.

I went to bed as soon as I closed the window and I sprayed my bed with some perfume my best friend gave me that always calmed me down. It filled my room with a sweet easy smell of flowers that I loved so much and it was so dear to my heart. I slipped between the sheets and I fell asleep soon as my head hit the pillow.

I dreamed I was running trough a big garden with flowers all around, all beautiful flowers with a poisonous smell. There was someone following me, I tripped and fell, I was so scared, why was I so scared? There was a woman calling my name and Kat's voice in my head saying I didn't belong that I was never meant to live, that my future belonged to someone else. I was wearing a white dress so beautiful, now full of mud and I was scared when a shadow leaned over me, but it only took my hand and is saw his face for a second before I woke up.

My pajamas were sweaty and I looked around my room like I didn't recognize it. Who was that guy? He was gorgeous, but I couldn't remember what he looked like exactly. He had black hair and a really nice jet black hair. Guy of my dreams I guess. . .
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