Bury Me

You on my skin,this must be the end.
The only way you can love me is the hurt me again.
I never had you.But you always had me.
I know it..this was never meant to be.
Only inside in my mind am I free,
Because there you souly belong to me.
I was never afraid to feel.
But all this got too real
Now what I want to do is heal.
But I'm afraid its to late for me now, this is a flesh wound.
I'm in too deep.
The mountain named love for me was too steep.
I take a knife and cut into my arm, I love this rush.
But it is not enough,
I grab the pills beside me and swallow four.
Then my eyes begin to sore.
Its only then when I begin to see what I want to see, not what is really before me.
I get taken away to a fantasy land where you call my name, this is when I begin to question if I'm sane.
I love you.
But I don't get a answer, just a blank stare.
Now I am fully aware.
That not even in my best of dreams do you love me back.
What I feel for you, you completely lack.
This is my prelude to tragedy .
I see it in your eyes,I feel it in your touch.
Can't you see my love that the harder I try, the more we grow apart, the closer I get, The more your out of love. Don't you feel it?
This was not a gift from above , its a curse from hell that I just wish to shove.
That's the way its always been,my hearts stops beating only for you.
A cold heart is a dead heart & it just feels like I was buried alive by love.
Rescue me with your smile.
& again the burden of losing rest upon my shoulders & its weight seems unbearable
I should have told her
That within me hid a secret so terrible.
I love you.
Your skins goes cold and my fantasy goes away.
I find myself desperate and beg you to stay.
My time is up.
I fear for the best and hope for the worst
I am cursed.
I know it and feel it.
Awaken in my room in the dark,blood surrounding me. But I am ok.
I gave up long ago
Ran out of blood and hope
I am unable to die,and unfortunately this is not a lie.
I cannot escape you.
This was just another failed attempt.
All is lost in this war.