Broken Home - Chapter Seven

His kiss was like electric. Every part of my body felt overly sensitive, my skin was burning where he touched. His kiss deepened, and I started to fall deeper into the kiss. If I could, I would spend all of my time kissing Jake. This was amazing. I was melting, but at the same time I couldn't help but wonder what I was thinking in the back of my mind. This was wrong. I really shouldn't let this go on, but man, he kissed so good! Jake slowed his kissing, pulling me tighter to him. He gave me one last peck and he stopped, still holding me. I opened my eyes hazily and looked up at him. I could see desire in his eyes, and I was sure it was showing in mine. I had kissed more than a couple guys, and none of their kisses had ever been like this. Nothing had felt as complete as that, yet at the same time I wanted more.

As all these thoughts ran through my head, I realized Jake was still staring at me and holding me. I shyly looked down and backed up a little. Jake got the hint and let go of me. I turned toward the living room and glanced back at him. He followed. I sat down on the couch, trying to get my breathing back to normal and trying to slow my heart down. I was so worked up! Jake followed and sat down beside me grabbing a hold of my hand. Before I realized it, Jake was kissing me again, only this time it wasn't such a rough kiss, it was more sweet and soft. Just as amazing. I pulled back after a second to catch my breath.
"Jake...maybe...maybe we should...should talk first?" I asked him trying to breathe. I felt stupid, but I saw he was breathing heavily too. He pulled me closer to where I was leaning on his side facing him.

"Yeah, we do need to talk I guess...but you felt how right that was didn't you?" he asked huskily. Wow, his voice was amazing. He looked so sexy like this. I couldn't help but realize that. I shook my head. I needed to focus. Jake and I needed to talk, and he probably wouldn't want to do any of this anymore after he knew what a bad person I was. I took a deep breath to start talking.
"Uhm, okay. Well I don't really know how to start this..so I was thinking, maybe you could just ask me a question, and then I could give you an answer to whatever question you wanna know about. True fully." I told him. He nodded.
"Okay, fair enough. Why did you move here?" He asked me. I sighed. This was going to be so hard.

"Well, we moved here because I got into a fight at school. And it was like the fifth time I had gotten in trouble so they decided I could go to juvi or we could move and I wouldn't have to go." I told him. He glanced at my ankle bracelet. I hadn't realized my pant legs had slid up a little when I sat down on the couch. I pulled them back down and frowned.
"And they put me on house arrest for a while. I'll get off it next month." I said sadly. I hated house arrest. Jake nodded. His face showed no emotion. I didn't know if this was good or bad.
"Alright, so tell me. Why did you get into a fight?" He asked me. I had to flinch. I didn't see that question coming. He saw me flinch and looked at me in concern. Ignoring him, I tried to gather my thoughts.

"Uhm, well..okay...I got into a fight with those three girls because they were talking about my family. Like about how we don't get along, and that my parents don't like me, and my brother can't stand me most of the time. About how my family probably can't wait till I move out cause I'm such a problem. It wasn't that they were saying that though, it was the fact that it was true. And that even other people could see that, that it wasn't just me that thought of my family that way. And it made me mad. It's nobody's business. I don't need anyone to feel sorry for me." I told him, getting tears in my eyes. I hated that those girls had seen my family for what it really was. I wanted to hide away my home from the world. Jake gathered me in his arms, and I realized I was crying a little bit.

"Kassii, listen it's okay. I'm not going to say I know, because I don't. But I'm here for you. You're such a great girl. You don't deserve that. I'm so sorry, but don't be mad at me for that." Jake told me holding me tight. I held on to him. I didn't want to let go. I felt a little dumb to be crying to him like this so I sat up and wiped my eyes.
"Sorry. The bad part is, that's not even everything." I told him. He smiled.
"Don't be. And we've got plenty of time for everything. Don't worry baby." He said softly. He wiped a tear away from my eye. I sighed.
"So, anymore questions for me?" I asked him.

"Yeah..so why don't you want to go out with me?" He asked me. I felt my throat tighten.
"It's not that I don't want to. Believe me, I do. But I didn't think that it would be smart with my past. You deserve a girl who is good and doesn't get into trouble all the time like me. You deserve so much better than me." I told him true fully. No more holding things back. Jake shook his head.
"You're not bad. Yeah, you've gotten into some trouble. Everyone has. I think your family just makes it look a little more worse than it is, and you've got that in your head. I don't deserve a girl better than you, cause I don't think I can find one that is." He said smiling. He leaned over and kissed me. One soft peck, but it got my heart racing. I smiled. Jake looked down at the ground.

"So..uhm...do you want to be my girlfriend Kassii, please?" He asked me shyly. I felt my pulse quicken, my heart melt. He was asking me out! He was okay with my past! This was amazing. I leaned over to him, wrapping my arms around his neck. I kissed him quick, but deep and passionate.
"Yes Jake, I wanna be your girlfriend." I whispered to him. He smiled and kissed me again. I sat back down on the couch and turned on the TV. I didn't want to over-do it with Jake. I saw I didn't have much self control when it came to Jake. He sighed and put his arm around my shoulders and I leaned on him while we watched TV.

It was ten o'clock when Josh came in. Jake was still there, we were still watching some re-run marathon of a TV show when he barged through the front door. Josh stumbled around and went into the kitchen. I heard his keys hit the counter and I looked at Jake. I stood up and ran into the kitchen. Josh was leaning against the counter by the fridge drinking one of Mom's mineral waters. It kind of looked like he was hammered.
"Josh, are you drunk?" I asked him standing by the kitchen doorway. Josh looked at me then, his eyes not completely focusing on me. He smiled one of his mean smiles.

"So what if I am whore? What are you going to do? Mommy and Daddy ain't here." He said to me. I got angry.
"You stupid idiot, they'll be home any minute! Its ten! And your drunk? And your gonna call me names for no reason? What the hell is wrong with you?" I yelled at him. I could hear Jake come up behind me. I felt his hands on my back, but I continued staring at Josh.
"Want me to do something?" Jake whispered in my ear. I shook me head no. Josh was still mumbling, but he finally spoke up to where I could hear him.

" Who cares. Jamie wanted me come to ahhhh party with..with her. Said she really really really really liked me. So I drank a little. So what? Jake, buddy, what are you doing her? hahah, here I mean. Geez." Josh said, slurring his words. I was so annoyed with him. He stumbled over to the trash to throw away his water, bumped into the can and knocked it over. Bending over to pick it up, Josh just fell right on over. Groaning, I stepped away from Jake to go help Josh up.

"Come on bubby, time for you to go lay down. We'll all hang out and talk tomorrow, and you'll be sober. Let's get you to bed so mom and dad don't freak out on you. Come on." I said helping him stand up. I told Jake to hold on and I walked Josh up the stairs, making sure he wouldn't fall or stumble. Josh just kept giggling and trying to tickle me, which made this so much more complicated. Groaning, I finally got Josh to his room. I helped him lay on the bed and I took his shoes off for him.
"You have to undress yourself if you want that done. I'm going back downstairs. Sleep good Josh." I told him walking to the door.
"Hey sis, you like Jake a lot don't you?" Josh asked, he sounded half asleep.
"Yeah, yeah I do Josh. I like him a lot." I told him softly.
"That's nice. You guys are good. Thanks for helping me sis. I didn't mean you're a whore." He told me dozely. I smiled.
"I know bub. Goodnight." I told him. I could hear his heavy breathing and I knew he was asleep. I shut the door and walked downstairs.

Jake was waiting for me in the foyer. I walked down to him and he put his arms around me. I sighed and laid my head on his chest. This felt so right. He started giggling.
"I've never seen your brother drunk before. What a sight." He said laughing. I smiled.
"Yeah, he does this every once in a while. I always gotta take him to bed so he doesn't get caught. He'd get in a lot of trouble." I told him. I was feeling really sleepy. Jake hugged me tighter.
"You're a good sister you know." He told me. I sighed.
"I try to be at least. Doesn't always work." I said. I was so tired, I didn't care what I said. I leaned back to look at him.
"Well babe, its getting late, and you look pretty tired. I think I'm gonna go. I'll stop by tomorrow if you want me to." He told me. I smiled.
"Of course I want you to. And yeah, I think I'm gonna go to bed. I'm really tired. I'll see you tomorrow k?" I asked him smiling at him. Jake made me feel so happy, like everything was okay. I could get used to this. He hugged me tighter again.

"Alright Kassii, I'll see you tomorrow. Sleep good." He said. Before I could even answer him he kissed me. It was another passionate kiss, but a little rough. I instantly felt like livewire. Such an amazing new feeling. When he leaned back to look at me I was breathless and dizzy. He smiled and kissed me on my forehead.
"Bye babe." He said walking to the door. I followed him.
"Bye Jake. See you tomorrow." I said shutting the door. Grinning, I locked the door and ran up the steps. I hurriedly changed into my pajamas and jumped into my bed. Snuggling up, I giggled. Today was a really good day.