Broken Dreams, Broken Love - Part 8

Jamie couldn’t believe what the so called ‘High Priestess’ was saying and she didn’t want to hear anymore of it. She was on her hands and knees and she was breathing heavily. She could hear Max asking her what was going on but she just kept her mouth shut. Arthur didn’t say a word. In fact Jamie wasn’t even sure if he was still in the room. She started to feel her head spin, but she refused to give into that.

"Jamie, please you must understand that someone is using you, to do these things." Jamie was still so out of it that she hardly took notice of her. When the words did eventually sink in, anger overwhelmed her. She jumped to her feet and glared at Serenity. Serenity didn’t even flinch; in fact she gave Jamie a sad smile. Of cause this infuriated her more and she actually growled.
"Jamie?" she turned as Max said her name. He was looking at her with concern in his eyes. She ignored him and turned back to Serenity.

"You are the one using me!" she shouted. She started towards her, getting ready to slap her but before she had even taken one step, she felt incredibly strong arms wrap around her and pull her down. She landed hard and for a moment she sat there on her behind wondering what the hell had taken her down. That’s when she saw Arthur stand between her and Serenity and the words came rushing back to her: "Jamie, that man is Arthur and he is my protector and also my other half." Protector? Well he had certainly protected her from being bitch slapped.

"Leave us."
"Priestess, I cannot allow that." Arthur was standing in front of Serenity. Jamie was standing just behind Max. Serenity was shining so bright that all the anger she had begun to feel had slowly started to go away.
"Arthur…I am not asking you, I am ordering you. Now, leave us." Her voice was powerful and Arthur didn’t argue this time. Instead he bowed and left the room. Max turned to leave but Jamie grabbed him. They stared into each other’s eyes and then he kissed her.

"We will be right out side, do not worry." Max left and closed the door behind him. Serenity moved across the floor to the ‘lounge’ area and flopped down on one of the big fluffy pillows. Jamie could see her relax and as she did her ‘sunshine’ dimmed. Jamie felt that this was more approachable than the high and mighty look, she had going. She went over and picked out a light blue pillow. When she sat down, she could feel the calmness take over her body.

"Jamie, sweet child, how old are you?" the question caught her off guard and she wondered how powerful she was.
"Eighteen."
"Does Max know that you are so young?"
"We have never discussed our ages."
"Do you know how old he is?"
"No."

"Twenty four." Jamie didn’t say another word. Of cause she and Max hadn’t really had that much time to talk about things like that. They had both been too preoccupied with what was going on.
"You are wrong, sweet child. Max wants to know everything about you, in fact that is all he can think about. You and the love he feels for you." Serenity smiled knowingly and Jamie frowned. Did this woman read her mind? And if she did, is she aware of the thoughts she had, had earlier about her other half? And then as if on cue, Serenity laughed. Jamie went blood red. That answered her question then.

"Jamie, please you must learn to relax around me, I will do you no harm. Now I am going to ask you a few questions. It is difficult for me to see, the darkness hides it." Jamie agreed. She felt the darkness and it scared the hell out of her.

"Is your sleep disturbed? In other words do you dream of reptiles?" Jamie’s eyes widen in shock and she nodded yes. "When you wake up, do you struggle to breathe? Possibly your body shakes, burning sensations, aches and pains?" Jamie’s eyes went big.
"Yes. All of the above and the itching!" as soon as she said the word, her arms became so unbearably itchy she was just about to scratch. But before she could, Serenity touched her and she felt the wind and water. She had seen Serenity’s lips move but she hadn’t been able to make out the words. The tingle was gone and she was relieved.

"Do you feel hopeless? Depressed? Fear? Anxiety? Happy and then sad?" Jamie nodded yes again. "What about your vision? Does it seem like there is a film in front and it makes everything look dark?"
"More like grey."

"Alright, here comes the more touching questions. Are you ready?" Jamie nodded again. She was starting to feel like noddy. "Are you sexually active?" Jamie didn’t want to answer that question. She had been a virgin. But then her sexual need had been fulfilled by Max.
"I suppose." She mumbled. Luckily she didn’t have to elaborate as she knew Serenity had read her mind.

"Jamie, from what I understand…" she touched the side of her head. "Is that Max claimed your virginity. I assume you wanted it?" Jamie thought about that question. It was a funny thought. She had never had an orgasm before the whole shower thing happened. In other words she had never pleased herself and she had never allowed a boy to touch her there. The fact that she wanted and allowed Max to take her virginity without her knowing him. Correction. Without her really knowing him. She frowned. She did regret doing the nasty thing with Max. No. That wasn’t right. She regretted it being now, when she was so messed up. The fact that it had been Max, well, that was great. But to her it was funny, she had never been so…what was the word? Hungry? She had never been hungry for sex before. And then of cause there was that whole weird dreamed she’d had. Wait was it a dream or had it actually happened. She wasn’t so sure.

"Jamie. Have you been raped?" Serenity’s question caught her off guard.
"No. Ok well I don’t know. Something weird happened earlier and I don’t know how to explain it." Jamie sunk her head down in shame and that’s when it happened. Her mind went blank but she could see herself. She watched as the images flashed through her mind and she knew Serenity had rewound her ‘tape’ and was playing it. Piece by piece. She saw herself getting ready for the party. She saw Katie and herself dancing. She saw herself come home. She saw the creature attack her just after she had gotten into bed. She saw herself get up and murder her parents. She knew everything else and so she closed her eyes and cried as Serenity finished watching her ‘tape’.
"Oh my." Was all she said. Jamie couldn’t look up. She had remembered how she had killed her parents.

"My sweet child, come to me." Serenity had her arms open allowing Jamie the chance to be comforted. She went to her and cried. She tried to speak but the words wouldn’t come out. Serenity was stroking her hair, whispering "It’s going to be alright." In her ears. It felt as if hours had passed when Jamie had finally let go of Serenity.

"You needn’t say anything, I have seen everything and my Goddess was right. There is black magic on you. Not only have you been cursed but your mind is constantly being possessed. We must start immediately. Before it is too late." Jamie stood up and Serenity floated to the door. It swung open and Max and Arthur rushed in. Arthur embraced Serenity and Max ran over to Jamie. He grabbed her and held her close. Jamie didn’t object but she tilted her head slightly and when Max gazed into her eyes she smiled.
"How old are you?" She asked. Confusion came over him and he opened his mouth and then closed it.

"I am twenty four. Why do you ask me that?"
"Because I am only eighteen." three reactions crossed his beautiful features. Reality. Anger and then finally sadness. With a heavy heart he released his grip and took a step back. Jamie wasn’t sure what was going on but she knew it wasn’t good. She reached out for him.
"Why do you tell me this? Is it a problem for you?" his question was guarded and Jamie realized it was because he was afraid of getting hurt.
"No. It is not. I just wanted to make sure you knew." His sadness dissolved and love shone through his eyes. He stepped forward and found her lips in a long, sweet and loving kiss.