Breaking Free 2 - Part One

Bree's POV

Tash fell asleep not long after the Incident on the plane, I knew she was remembering last time and I didn't want to Interrupt her. I kind of dozed off myself, I woke up to this loud crash and looked over, two of the guys were wrestling, Immature I thought, looking over at Tash she was still asleep. Getting lost In thoughts for a minute I turned around as It felt like someone was watching me and I was right Tyson was staring at me. I stared back, and In a sense we had this little private conversation through our eyes. We stayed like that for a good five minutes, and I was only pulled out of It as I heard Tash doing her seat belt up. I smiled, although It was a guarded smile, I mean I didn't know what to do, I think I like Tyson yet It had only being a year since Jesse, and I don't know. Getting lost In these thoughts I did the only think I could think of I asked Tash, I mean I know she Is going through something In her mind at the moment but she wouldn't talk and I needed her right now, I knew she wouldn't mind. And now was the perfect time, seens as were landing soon.

"Tash" I said so softly, It's a wonder she even heard me.

"Yes Bree." She replied.

"Well I was just wondering, would It be wrong of me to like someone else, I mean do you think Jesse would mind, If I started liking someone else, and maybe possibly one day loving them, you don't think he would think I was replacing him do you, and well It has only being a year." I said blinking back the tears, at the thought of Jesse.

She wrapped her arms around me In a protective hug, which she always gave me when I was upset.

"Oh Bree, It wouldn't be wrong at all, you know Jesse would want you to be happy, not miserable moping around. He loved you like no one else could and like no one else prob ever will. He would hate to see you like this, wearing that fake mask of yours. You were his number one concern and I bet he Is sitting up there smiling down on you, glad that you found someone who can bring out that real smile." She replied.

I looked back at her and simply nodded knowing that she was right. Then I wiped away the tears that were building up as I was stronger than this, she let me go and we just stood there waiting till we were able to leave the plane, standing there waiting Is when I remembered that week one year ago.

*flashback*

1 Year Ago.

It was Saturday and I had never being so happy, I mean things at home were going ok, not great, but better than usual. And well Jesse and I had been together for almost 3 years, and my twin and I were as close as ever. What more could I ask for? It was only a week till our 3rd year anniversary, and well I was so excited. With a lot of begging and bribes I finally convinced Tash to come shopping with me to get the perfect present...and to also help out on Friday, to plan the perfect dinner, candles and everything ... yeah I'm a hopeless romantic.

When I told Jesse we were having tea on Friday night he just give me that adorable lopsided cheeky grin of his, that made my heart race every time, which meant he approved. It was Wednesday and well I still hadn't gotten him anything yet, I had no idea. Tash and I were standing outside the jewelers thinking of what to get him, and she had the perfect idea. She suggested that I get him dog-tags and get them engraved. Perfect I thought, so we went into the jewelers and brought the dog-tags, then headed to find the engravist. On the front dog tag I got his name engraved 'Jesse Allen Roberts', then on the back one I got 'I will love you forever Jesse <3'. Taking it back to the jewelers they gift wrapped it for me.

Standing out the front of the jewelers again, I suddenly heard my name being yelled out. I looked up t see my gorgeous Jesse across the road, as I'd recognize that jet black hair, with those warm chocolate eyes anywhere. I waved in response, he then went to run over to us, except he didn't see the car coming , it hit him. He fell instantly to the ground, I screamed I ran over to him with Tash followed close behind.

I cradled him in my arms, and just cried. I heard someone call an ambulance, Tash sat there and just held me telling me everything would be ok. I tried so hard to believe her but I just couldn't. I could hear the ambulance now, but deep down I knew it wasn't going to make it, I started sobbing louder. Right before the ambulance arrived, he whispered "I love you always, no matter where I am, stay strong baby." Then he closed his eyes and I felt his body go limp, he was gone.

The ambulance arrived a few seconds later, Tash dragged me out of the way to let the paramedics do their job. She just held me protectively, she tried to move me away more but I wouldn't go. Hearing the paramedics officially announce him deceased made it hurt more. When the police arrived with the help of Tash, I answered all there questions. They went and talked to the driver and did a breathe test, they were over, and speeding. I couldn't bear to look at them anymore. Soon after my phone started ringing, it was mum.

Tash answered it for me and explained what had happened. Hanging up she told me that mum was on her way to get us. She promised she wouldn't leave unless I wanted her to, and she told mum this to when she arrived. Getting home I just cried and cried, Tash never left my side. Corrine came in and seen my crying ... she looked so concerned. I got her to sit on the bed next to me and told her that big bro Jesse wasn't going to be back anymore, he had gone somewhere special. She wasn't stupid, she knew what I was talking about. The look on her face made me want to cry more, she loved him like a brother and now he was gone. I hugged her tight and told her everything was going to be ok and that he would always be with her no matter where he was. After that she left my room and headed to her own, I let her go I knew she would need time to.

After Corrine left I went in and a had a hot shower letting the water was away my tears, after I got out I noticed Tash was nowhere to be seen. I opened my door and I could hear her talking to mum and John or dad downstairs, he was trying to get her to leave and go home. But she wouldn't have any of it... she wasn't leaving my side unless it was absolutely necessary. I walked downstairs and Tash looked up and walked over to hug me, wrapping her arms around me, she whispered in my ear if I wanted to go stay at Jesse's I'm sure his mum wouldn't mind, I mean her mum is like your second mum.

I nodded and went upstairs to grab my phone and rang Jesse's mum, Miranda. I could tell over the phone that she had been crying...

"Miranda I'm so sorry, this is all my fault" I said to her.

"Sweetie this isn't your fault you can't blame yourself for this, Jesse wouldn't want you to knowing that it wasn't your fault." she replied

"I can't help but feel guilty if I wasn't down town he wouldn't have run across the road and then the car wouldn't have hit him.' I sobbed through the phone.

"sssh it's alright, it's going to be ok, don't blame yourself for this, how about I come around and pick you and I guess Tash is there looking after you so Tash as well and you come and spend the night here with me?" she asked.

"well I was actually going to ask if that would be ok, I mean I don't want to be here at home, mum and dad are acting like this is nothing. And they are trying to kick Tash out. And id rather be with you." I replied.

"It's ok sweetie I understand, ill be there soon" she said before hanging up.

I heard Tash enter the room, and hug me again. I told her Miranda would be here soon, she packed a few things into a bag and waited downstairs for me. I seen the present that I had brought Jesse sitting on my bed, this caused me to start crying more. I walked down the hallway to Corrine's room... I knocked lightly and walked in, she was laid on her bed, I could hear her sobbing. I went and wrapped my arms around her, and told her everything would be ok, and that if she needed anything tonight that she knew my mobile number, and that I was going to stay at Jesse's place. She wanted to join me but I told her that it would be best if she stayed home tonight.

Miranda arrived not long after that, and I just hugged her for what seemed like forever, somewhere in the hug Tash joined us and comforted us. It felt good to be hugged by mum, well that's what Miranda was... well she was always more of a mother than my own and I had always considered her as my second mum. And it was sad that we had both lost gorgeous Jesse. The car ride back was silent, and sad... no one knew what to say. Someone on the way there I lost myself in my thoughts and realized that since the accident I hadn't seen Tash cry once. She was being the tough one again, keeping everything built up inside.

When we got to Jesse's I asked if it was alright if I went up to Jesses room, Miranda nodded, I walked upstairs, Tash stayed with Miranda realizing I needed to do this on my own. I walked into the room, and the tears started to fall, I opened his cupboard and grabbed one of his shirts, I stripped down and put the shirt on, and climbed into his bed. I laid there crying, not long later I heard someone else come up the stairs, the door opened slightly and I pretended like I was asleep, I didn't want to talk right now. They closed the door and continued down the hall, I guess it was Miranda checking up on me and finally deciding to try to get some sleep.

The next thing I knew I was waking up, I didn't even remember falling asleep. At first I was worried about where Jesse was because he wasn't in bed. Then it all dawned on me and started crying again, he was gone forever. I heard someone shuffle against the door, so I got up and walked over, I slowly opened the door to find Tash sitting there guarding me... she never left me. I hugged her, and this time it was me telling her it was going to be ok. I knew she hadn't being crying or whatever but it was effecting her to. Jesse was like a brother to her.

The next week passed in a blur, Tash stayed with me the whole time, reassuring me and making sure I had everything I needed or wanted. And making sure Corrine and Chloe were ok, I had never seen her act so tough. She was always the strong one, I mean I don't know how many times I had opened up and sobbed on her shoulder, but I never knew when anything was up with her because she was so good at hiding it. The only thing she couldn't hide was when someone hurt Chloe, then she would be extremely angry and I would have to calm her down. Today was the day of the funeral and the instant that I woke up I started crying as I realized what day it was.

Tash come in to check on me and make sure I was ok, she hugged me and helped me get ready. It was so sad to see everyone dressed in black, except dad, he wasn't coming to the funeral but nothing surprising there, I was actually surprised mum was coming. I had never cried so much and I knew there was more tears to come, not just from me but from everyone. He was so loved. Suddenly Tash mentioned that Miranda had called and that she was driving me around to go see her before the funeral, which I was going to do anyway as I needed to ask if I could have Jesse buried with his dog tags.

When we arrived I hugged Miranda again, I could tell she had been crying all morning to. Before she had a chance to tell me whatever it was she had to say, I asked if Jesse could be buried with his dog tags she said of course, he would want that. She then told me that she had been going through his room and put a box of his belongings together for me, some of his clothes, a necklace which I put on straight away, some of his photos etc. she also had another little box in her hand. As soon as Tash saw this she offered to take the stuff out to the car, Miranda agreed and I was in no state to say no. after Tash left Miranda spoke up.

"while I was cleaning Jesse's room I found this. It's your anniversary gift. I want you to have it, he would want you to have it. You meant the world to him, since you entered his life he become a happier person and started to feel better about himself and aspire to be someone" she told me.

She handed me the little box, I opened it up and inside was this beautiful promise ring, and engraved on the inside was 'I love you Brianna, I'll always love you, I hope to make you my wife'. I was speechless and well did what I had been doing best lately burst into tears. Tash walked back in and had red rings, she had been crying.

"I was with him the day he brought it, he was so happy, smiling from ear to ear, he couldn't stop saying how much he loved you and that one day he would make you his wife. I have never seen a more perfect couple as you and Jesse. You were made for each other" she said to me.

I put the ring on his chain around my neck and vowed that I would never take it off. Then we all went to the funeral. Tash yet again held back the tears but offered her shoulder yet again. After the ceremony and everyone left I walked over to his grave, Tash, Corrine and Chloe stood back a little giving me space but not leaving me. I placed a single red rose on his grave and whispered ' I would have said yes and nothing would have been able to wipe the smile off my face. You made me complete and even though you aren't here anymore I'll always love you and my heart will be yours for eternity no matter what.'

*End of flashback*