Beyond Tears

I’m sitting in my bathroom
Thinking of how much i love you
I grab a pen and some paper
And start to write this poem
I haven’t written poetry since I was a little girl
The thought of me writing it makes me hurl.

I felt so safe with you, so very wanted to
Not many people want me in the house
Where I hide my cries
Cries for love, cries of pain but my cries gain
Since you’re gone.

Your skin touching mine was the best feeling of all
You wrapped your arms around me
Your heart beating fast, mine hardly beating slow
It’s hard to realize now that I must let you go.

I can’t seem to understand why you needed me
Was it sex, was it love or was it lust?
I don’t know, but I don’t think it was love
But I do not cry, yes I have tried
Because I’ve been hurt so many times my pain is beyond tears.

So I ask you this question if you are reading this
Did you love me or was I like someone you miss?