Beautiful - Disaster

Beautiful disaster, center of hate
To much remorse for one girl to take
So there’s this boy, I love him more than I should
I would never leave this, there’s no way I could
With each passing day he grabs hold of my life,
He’s driven me downward, back to the knife
To him I’m never enough, beautifully outspoken
He calls me worthless, leaves my heart broken
I try and I try to impress him each day
Now all my hope is starting to fade
Toyed with my emotions, left me astray
He kills another part of me with every day
I’m tired of the side of life he’s caused me to see
Now I can’t be, who I want to be
He talks about her every day
Every minute
Of every hour, the thoughts of them grow hard to overpower
He likes her, id never tell,
Secretly I’m in love with him as well
Confusing to say,
Easy to write,
Right here in ink is my worthless life