Beautiful Blessing

I lay and wrap myself up into a ball,
Trying to hold back every tear that falls.
I don't know how much more of this I can take,
My heart is in a serious state.

Another conversation with you stabs me in the chest,
Knowing that to you, I'm only second best.
I try really hard for you to put me on top,
But apparently, she's everything that I'm not.

Images of the two of you keep flashing through my head,
And I can't help but to think of the two of you in bed.
Then it breaks my heart in two,
Because I wish I was the one with you.

It is clear that I'm jealous of you and her,
Because I believe that I deserve to be placed first.
Give up on her and come over here to me,
Let me soothe your body like a sweet melody.

If only I could be the one that you would hold,
The one that you treat like a pot of gold.
The one you return home to every night,
In times of darkness she is your light.

If I could be the one holding you tightly,
Feeling your body pressed against me.
If I was able to give you my everything,
That would be a beautiful blessing.