Back In My Heart

I feel the ghostly shadows
Crawl across my bed,
Veiling me in blackness,
To render me a wreck.

They crawl into my memories
And infiltrate my thoughts,
Bring back the gloom of yesterday
When you left without a word.
And the ceiling's bearing down on me,
To steal away my breath
In a claustrophobic nightmare.

How I wish that I was dead,
Or back in your arms,
Back in your heart,
Far from the pain of loneliness
That's tearing me apart.
Back in your dreams,
Back in your bed,
In the softness of your bosom
To rest my weary head.

I feel so tired and sleepy
But I can't sleep at all,
The more I try, the more I cry,
The more the memories call,
And I wear the tears of sorrow,
That melancholy mood,
That brings the ghostly shadows
To wrap me in their shroud.

How I wish I could turn back time
And make them disappear,
To crawl back to their corners
Where they hold less fear for me,
To melt in the light,
The light of your eyes,
Where I lost myself in their sanctuary
From the world outside.

The light of your smile,
The light of your hair,
The flicker of the saddest wish,
I wish that you were here.

I lay listening to dawn's chorus,
They're singing out your name,
And I swear I see your image
In my sun streaked window pane.

Or maybe it's a memory
Projected from my mind,
A moment of wishful thinking
That lingers from last night,
Or maybe it's merely an urge
To sink my foolish pride,
To call and say I'm sorry,
To tell you how I've cried,
And how I want you back,
Back in my life,
I can't bear the pain without you,
I hurt so much inside.

Back in my heart,
Back in my arms,
Back in the comfort of your presence
Away from sorrow's harm.

So now you're here to listen,
Let me try to explain,
And I hope you will forgive me,
And be in love with me again.
I'm sorry for the heartache
And the tears I made you cry.

I never wanted you to leave me
And it hurts to say goodbye.
So if you would just forgive me
And throw caution to the wind,
To blow away the shadows
And leave the grief behind,
And lighten my mind.

Lighten my thoughts,
To ease the heavy burden
That hangs around my heart,
Lighten my soul,
Lighten my bones,
That I may soar within your arms
And we can fly back home.