At First

At first it stings
At first it burns
But then it gets better
But it still feels like rocks
Being piled on my chest

I don't think
I don't feel
Which is good
But only for a moment

Because it all comes back
It comes back in a flood
I don't want to do this
But it's the only way
I know how to deal

With You
With Family
With Friends
With Me

You don't like it
My family doesn't like it
My friends don't like it

I'm the only one
Who seems to love it

I don't want to
Do it
But
I NEED TO