April 7th, 2010
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It was morning. The darkness seeped through the window. Outside was my cat crying to be let in.
"Great, she knows how I feel." I thought to myself.
But I realized, she really doesn't. If I opened the door she'd instantly be happy again. It wasn't like that for me. My problems couldn't be solved by opening a door. I went upstairs to go on with my normal schedule. I stop when a set of kitten claws dig deep into my leg, into my flesh. I quickly gained back my composure.
"School will be better" I say to myself.
School is really no better. Second hour was almost over and I smiled to myself, fixing my hair. Because next hour I'd get to see him and we'd talk all hour like yesterday. I got to the bottom hallway, smiling within. Then I pretended not to notice when he wrapped Kayla in a long hug then kept walking with a huge smile on his face. And I should've known that nothing changed. I was just another girl. That's how it was with all of them. I always thought I was meant to be alone. And what better a sign than that.
"Great, she knows how I feel." I thought to myself.
But I realized, she really doesn't. If I opened the door she'd instantly be happy again. It wasn't like that for me. My problems couldn't be solved by opening a door. I went upstairs to go on with my normal schedule. I stop when a set of kitten claws dig deep into my leg, into my flesh. I quickly gained back my composure.
"School will be better" I say to myself.
School is really no better. Second hour was almost over and I smiled to myself, fixing my hair. Because next hour I'd get to see him and we'd talk all hour like yesterday. I got to the bottom hallway, smiling within. Then I pretended not to notice when he wrapped Kayla in a long hug then kept walking with a huge smile on his face. And I should've known that nothing changed. I was just another girl. That's how it was with all of them. I always thought I was meant to be alone. And what better a sign than that.
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