An Insanity Lost..

I had no choice but to dwell.
I was caged in an undead hell.
At first I sat and blamed others.
I wanted to stay with my brothers.
I just wanted to be set free.

I didn’t care what happened to me.
Once I had time to really think.
I broke down and reached a brink.
If I only listened when they spoke.
If only I hadn’t thought it was a joke.

Always basking in my pathetic vanity.
I strived on a live of total insanity.
I am lucky that I’m not fucking dead.
Life was a .45 aimed at my head.
Any day the action could be triggered.

Resulting in my end being delivered.
Today I love that I am still living.
And I repay by constantly giving.