An Angle's Love

To my beloved Nicki...
If you are reading this then Im no longer here...
I've forgotten how long it has been since I've heard your voice or your stories. I always thought of how you said that fairy tales were all lies and that I can never be you prince. Yet we still loved each other like no tomorrow. You have always made me come alive when we are together. Yet still I can not be your prince. I wished we could be a fairy tale with a happy ending. Only if I were here to be with you...But I’m in a better place now...where I can always look down on you and see how you are...
forever and always is what we said but...I guess it turned in to never to be again...I’m sorry for all the pain you are going threw but this is destiny...we all have our times to go…and my unfortunately had to be without you…
Good-bye, Nicki xoxo I will always love you not matter where I am…

I woke up from the sun shining on my face. I looked around and I saw from what look to be an angle…
"Where am I?" I had asked confused as I sat up
"Good morning, Nicki…my name is Alice and you are in heaven" Alice replied
"What?" I said still confused "how...how can I be in heaven?"
"Well, you killed yourself hun…" she said…and then suddenly all my memories had flowed back to me…and I started to cry. Then I felt a hand on my shoulder and someone sit next to me.
"Shhh…it’s ok…don’t worry…you’re in a better place…" Alice said trying to comfort me
"But I’m not with him anymore…I killed myself so I could see him…again…but I can’t if he isn’t here" I said through my tears.
"That’s a silly reason…" Alice said through a gentle laugh
"It’s not stupid or silly…it’s true…" I said starting to get angry
"I know…" Alice said "but what you need to know is that even though Justin is dead doesn’t mean that he was never with you…he was always with you the moment he gave you his heart"
"Well…too late now I’m in heaven…" I said "I just thought that if I killed myself I could go to heaven and see him and we can live together here…but I guess Im wrong…"
"Do you truly want to see him?" she asked
"Yes…of course!" I said
"Well…you…now since you’re an angle, in training, you can take yourself there…" Alice said "you just need me to be there with you until you be come an official angle…ok?"
"Ummm…ok" I said "but how do I get there?"
"Just think hard and you can watch from the moment you want…stop it when you want but once you start in the spot you want to see you are only able to back up and not move forward until you reach your death…" Alice said
"Now that is silly…" I said through my laugh "but ok…"
I thought really hard about the day Justin had asked me out…and in a second I was there watching myself at my locker and Justin walking up to talk to me…

~Nicki’s POV when still alive~

When I turned around I saw Justin there…behind me…and he looked really anxious.
"Hey Nicki…" Justin said
"Hey…" I replied "What’s up?"
"Ummm….uhhh…I…I…" he kept stuttering so I interrupted to get him so say it
"Come on…I won’t be mad or anything…" I said…and then I saw this look in his eyes that started to get me worried.
"Ok…ummmm…jeeze…so hard to say…ummmm" he took a deep breath and continued "would you like to go out with?" I was speechless it took me several moments to remember how to talk…
"Ummm…yes…I would love too…" I replied with excitement in my voice.
"Really?" he said surprised by my answer
"Yes really…"I said content. And then all my friends and his friends started cheering and ooing and everything…I started to blushed.
"So Friday night around 6?" he asked hopefully…I thought for a moment before I answered so I wouldn't seem to desperate
"Sounds great…" I said cheerfully
"Great…so I guess see you tomorrow night…" he said with a great relief
"Ok…" I said. Then we both went back to our friends.
It was after school on Friday and I was super nervous…my Best friends Kim, and Sam, whom I also live with; because all of our parents had died but luckily all of our parents were like millionaires and we kept getting money from out grandparents…but we had managed in an average three person home.
The time finally reaches 6 and I was freaking out! When Justin rang the doorbell Sam had gotten the door.
"Ummm…hey…" said Justin nervously
"Hey…Nicki will be done in like 5 minutes—"said Sam
"She doesn’t need anymore time…she’s right here" said Kim…I walked do the stairs and I was in a knee length black skirt and a black halter top, with my hair down and curly. When Justin saw me he looked speechless and I couldn’t help but smile.
"Well…we are out to watch movie now have fun you two…and don’t forget to lock the door!" Kim called as Sam and she walked out the front door.
"Bye you guys..." I said "Hey…"
"Hey!" said Justin "so you ready?"
"Yup let me just lock the door."
"Alright" Justin replied…he walked to the passenger seat of the car and open the door.
"So…where are we going?" I asked when we were both in his car
"First we are going to go for dinner at my favorite restaurant and then I want to show you something special…" Justin replied
"I see…so which restaurant?" I asked curiously
"Applebee’s" he said
"Really?!" I asked "that is like the best restaurant ever!"
"I know eh?" he said smiling "I got great taste in many things"
"Oh…yes you do…" I said with a small giggle. When we had finished our dinner, Justin took me to the beach…and when we had reach the beach he took me for a walk through the forest, which was around the beach, to a place he said he had found…and only he knows where it is…when we reached there…there was a lake around it with a boat on the lake…
"Are we going on the boat?" I asked
"Yes, we are…" he replied…when we were on the boat he stop rowing in the middle of the lake and the moonlight’s reflection was on the water…it was beautiful
"Do you like this place" Justin asked me
"Yes, it is very beautiful" I replied amazed
"That’s good, because well...I…uhh…" he stuttered again
"You??" I started to encourage him to continue
"I really, really like you…actually I believe like I love you and I have for like the longest time and I want to become your boyfriend…so we can share this place together and forever…" he said…and I was surprised that he felt this way about me…though I did feel the same way it felt like he was moving really fast in this relationship if you could even call it one… "like you might not feel the same way I understand and I know I am kind of moving really fast but I just…I just had to let you know how I felt…" he continued
"I…feel…the…same way…but I just didn’t want to say anything just in case you never felt the same…" I said
"Oh…well that is good I guess…" he said with relief… then there was a moment of silence and all we did was look in to each others eyed and smile then Justin took his eyes from my and looked at his cell phone to read the time… "I think I should take you home now…"
"Umm…alright…" I said…after we got back to shore he took my hand and we smiled at each other while we slowly walked back to his car…when we had reach my house we were still holding hands…he walked me to my door.
"This was a really great night…I had a lot of fun" I said
"Me too," he replied "so, I guess I will see you tomorrow…as my girlfriend??"
"I guess so, and I guess I will see you tomorrow as my boyfriend?" I asked
"I believe you will" he replied and then again we met each others eyes and started to lean towards each other…