About Me

You see my face all light and bright with a smile on my face
But you don’t see the real me
The real me you think you see is really not me but a portion of me-
A portion I wish was a whole me.
I look at myself in the mirror day after day wondering who am I…..
And who am I fooling me or them?
I sit here and think can I have one moment one single moment 2 myself
1 second 1 hour just 2 say my peace
And 2 let myself be free
Free of the world
Free of my so called friends
Free of all who say they love me
But really don’t even know me
If only they could see what’s deep within n see I’m just bones and no skin
Why can’t I be alone to see who I really am but yet every time I try their u are interrupting me again
Telling me things I don’t want to hear
Telling me you love me den telling me u hate me
Telling me you care
Telling me you disgrace me
If only you knew I’m not the real me
Den what would you say 2 me
Would you call me fake?
Or tell me get out ya face
Either way I couldn’t leave cuz I got nobody
N where 2 stay
All I have is in your arms
In your arms I’ll stay
And watch my life disappear
I’ll watch how I wish I would have told you sooner I made mistakes
I’ll watch how I wish I would have told you tears do run down my face
I can’t take hiding myself from everyone anymore
So I will let you see the real me
If you don’t like what you see
You can always blame it on me

Some days I wish I wasn’t me
Some days I wish I was who you want me 2 be
So den you wouldn’t bother me as much
You’d leave me alone
So I could figure out who I am
No1 ever sees the shades of black and gray in me
One minute I’m sad da next happy as can be
Den it dawns on me I can never be really happy if there’s no you next 2 me
Den I know ill be heartbroken 4ever cuz you can’t come back there’s no way no how
But if I could just hear your voice
See ya face
Maybe just
Maybe I’d be okay
Everyone expects me 2 be u r like you
What do I do?
I want 2 be me
But some days I doubt that’s good enough for them
They don’t wanna see me
They want 2 see you
N when they look at me
There disappointed
Cuz I don’t look as pretty as you
So what do I do?
Do I try 2 be you
Or try 2 be me
Either way they will hate me for just trying 2 be now do you see what every1 expects of me
Do you see me?
I know you don’t see me
Cuz neither do I
All I see is different shades of gray